Today is my birthday. I know I should be happy to have made it this far, but I can't think of anyway to celebrate. So much of the last 12 years of my life has been about being a wife and mother. When I try to think of something I want for my b-day all I can come up with is stuff for the house or my family.
I told my dh all I wanted from him was for him to do some tedious repairs in the bathroom he's been putting off (b-day guilt is the only reason he's doing it, poor guy
) My dad is getting himself, my ds and I yearly passes to a local amusement park (this isn't Disney, and no, it's not really something I would want, once again for the family).
It's not that I resent these things. I was the one who suggested them. It's just sad that I can't think of one thing I want only for myself, you know? I guess since ds is getting older I'm starting to try and find an identity as an individual again, and it's kind of scary that I have no idea what I want to be when my son grows up
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I always thought I would go back to school at this point in my life. But because of health problems I never know if I would be able to make it to class that day or not. So that completely rules out having a job, I don't know of any employer that hires the chronically ill, but not yet dead. What am I suppose to do with the rest of my life? And more importantly, what do I want for my birthday? Thanks for listening to me whine
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I told my dh all I wanted from him was for him to do some tedious repairs in the bathroom he's been putting off (b-day guilt is the only reason he's doing it, poor guy
) My dad is getting himself, my ds and I yearly passes to a local amusement park (this isn't Disney, and no, it's not really something I would want, once again for the family).It's not that I resent these things. I was the one who suggested them. It's just sad that I can't think of one thing I want only for myself, you know? I guess since ds is getting older I'm starting to try and find an identity as an individual again, and it's kind of scary that I have no idea what I want to be when my son grows up
.I always thought I would go back to school at this point in my life. But because of health problems I never know if I would be able to make it to class that day or not. So that completely rules out having a job, I don't know of any employer that hires the chronically ill, but not yet dead. What am I suppose to do with the rest of my life? And more importantly, what do I want for my birthday? Thanks for listening to me whine
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Dh goes for a week of fishing for his bday every year, has to spend $$$ on top of the trip cost for new waders, reels etc.. I get a new appliance. Same thing with spending money, I save mine up to buy ds special gifts or for spending money at WDW etc.., dh spends his on ephemeral things like $4 coffe.
Happy Birthday!!
). I'm in the same boat with you. So far I have spent my special day doing laundry and housework. Hope your day gets better.
