I need some positive vibes!

[Macca1111]

I am preparing for my hearing tomorrow, which will determine if I get to play my recital this semester and thusly get to graduate. I have been here long enough and am ready to move on (hopefully to the CP!) and was really feeling great about it all until a few weeks ago when my violin professor started telling me that I wasn't going to pass. I've had many issues with him in the past destroying my self esteem, so even though I'm trying to stay positive I'm messing up on stuff that I know because I'm so nervous in my lessons. I love all you guys over here, and you're such positive people, that I'm coming to ask for some good vibes if you can spare them, particularly at 12:20 pm MST tomorrow when I'll start playing. Thank you all, and I hope I have some good news to report tomorrow evening.

 

[morgansmom2000]

The very very best of luck to you! Sending pixie dust your way tomorrow!

 

[npierce25]

good luck! i was a percussion performance major a long time a go, so i have had that anxiety! best wishes!!!!

 

[Lisa]

Those who can, do, those who can't teach.

You do all you can do and you will do it great!

And for shame on him for trying to knock down your self esteem. Do NOT give him that power. Take control of your destiny.

 

[AlexWyattMommy]

What Lisa said. He so not the boss of you. Don't let him in your head. Course I know it is much easier to say that than it is to do it.


Pixie Dust for tomorrow.

 

[PinballFamily]

Don't let that rear-end orifice get in your way! You've got a life to lead, baby - prove him wrong in the biggest way possible (the BEST revenge!) by doing your best and get out of there!

We'll be through our probably crappy school meeting by the time of your recital - so I can send my energy out to you - or at least whatever's left!!!!

 

[rlovew]

Good luck! You can do it!!!!


Rebecca

 

[New England Eeyore]

Ditto to what the others have said. I'll be sending all the positive energy I can out your way tomorrow!

 

[Arizona Rita]

You can do this! PD is coming your way, will be thinking about you!

 

[lovingthemouse]

The very best of success to you!

Self confidence is so essential and listening to the negatives of others is a downer. KNOW that you are the best, and good things come to those who wait !!! It is your time.

 

[LindaBabe]

REcently I read about a writer, whose professor slammed her work so badly in college that she was totally demoralized and never wrote again for several decades. Finally, for some reason she wrote something, I forget what, and some knowledgable person read it and it was published. After the agent or editor hear the story of the early disaster, s/he explained to the author the likely reason the professor slammed her was because he recognized she had a talent greater than his own and he couldn't bear it. That sounds suspiciously similar, doesn't it?

You go out there. girl, and BLOW THEIR SOCKS OFF! You're good. You know it. Don't let some jealous rat b*stard take away your power!

 

[ddavis860]

Sending the power of the PD

I so agree with what everyone else is saying. Don't let anyone get in your head and ruin your dream. Take back the control and do what you do.

Best of luck...or break a leg... or whatever is the right thing so say...

Let us know how it goes...

 

[StitchIsOurHero]

Sending pixie dust and prayers your way!! 12 MST is 3 EST, right? Somebody let me know, so I can send more prayers at the right time!!

Kick some violin professor tushie!!!

 

[LindaBabe]

Macca, Baby, ROCK IT!

 

[PrincessNancy96]

Good luck sweetie!! Lots of pixie dust headed your way...

Just remember this guy is evidently very intimidated by your talents.. let them shine!!!

 

[BernardandMissBianca]

Good luck today!!!

Know that we are behind you and rooting for you all the way!!!

Don't let some schmuckity schmuck get inside your head!!!

 

[LindaBabe]

She must be done by now! My fingers have been crossed for two hours.

 

[PinballFamily]

She must be done by now! My fingers have been crossed for two hours.

I know! Mine too (and as a result, I'm making quite a mess at my scrap table!)

Toes crossed, too!

 

[ZeroToHero]

I hope everything went well! I didn't see this until now, so I hope you come back soon to tell us what happened! I have no doubts you were amazing, so don't keep us in suspense!

 

[Macca1111]

I have to thank you guys so much, because I could feel the power of positive thinking as I went into the room. That was probably the calmest I've ever been in one of those situations, and I could feel it positively benefit my playing. I messed up some things, but I feel like I played very musically and really showed everyone what I can do.

Unfortunately now it is out of my control. Apparently the string faculty has been very disappointed with the level of the recital performances this year, and I'm the first recipient of the backlash. Although in the past when a professor wasn't there they were not included in the decision, now I have to wait for both of the missing professors (which, btw, so unprofessional to not be at something that's been scheduled for a year) have watched a tape of the performance and then they all get together and decide "what the procedure will be from there" as my violin professor told me...twice. I don't even know when I'll know, because one of them wasn't going to be in all week. Also, as a result of the backlash, apparently I was supposed to give a recital worthy performance even though that's never been a standard and was never expressed to me. I feel I did a great job, but I honestly have no idea if it was enough, and as positive as I try to be, I've just been so depressed about it, because I feel that if I fail, it will have not been my fault but will still screw me over anyway.

I wish I had good news, and I will keep you updated over here. I was just so mad yesterday (and obviously still am, my words are coming out dyslexic as I type) but I was so thankful for all the good thoughts coming my way. Thanks everybody!