I Need Some Help...

[AmandaSparks730]

Ok, I SERIOUSLY need to vent.

I was talking to my BFF/ex-girlfriend just a little while ago...

Here's the convo:

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her (12:51:32 PM): hey
her (12:53:13 PM): whats up?
me (1:08:42 PM): nm
her (1:09:01 PM): how'd your results come?
me (1:09:12 PM): not sure yet...the doctor never got back to us
her (1:09:20 PM): ah
me (1:09:27 PM):
her (1:09:39 PM): ?
me (1:09:55 PM): well, we got our dance recital dvd's yesterday.
me (1:09:59 PM): and i miss sam
her (1:10:19 PM): i know you miss her
me (1:10:26 PM): yeah...
me (1:11:24 PM): i'm just...confused
me (1:12:13 PM): about lots of stuff
her (1:12:17 PM): yup
me (1:12:27 PM): how do you know...?
her (1:12:46 PM): all i said was yup
her (1:12:57 PM): i never said i knew anything
me (1:13:09 PM): i'm sorry, i'm just...
me (1:13:12 PM): i don't know
me (1:14:42 PM): i'm in love with people that i shouldn't be
her (1:15:14 PM): same here
me (1:15:31 PM): this sucks
me (1:15:37 PM): i can't tell them
me (1:15:46 PM): it'll never work out with them.....
her (1:16:03 PM): same here
me (1:16:30 PM): this just sucks
me (1:17:47 PM): have u ever fallen for someone? twice? when the first time, it didn't really work out?
her (1:19:04 PM): well i fell for alyssa 3 times and it worked out somewhat well the first time
her (1:19:12 PM): idk
me (1:19:30 PM): but...when something happened the first time? and u can't go back?
her (1:19:59 PM): i've only had two gf's
her (1:20:08 PM): and ur one of em
me (1:20:08 PM): but like, a crush or something
her (1:20:30 PM): idk
me (1:20:40 PM): it's all happening to me and i'm scared
her (1:20:46 PM): ?
me (1:21:13 PM): i'm in love with someone that i really CAN'T be in love with (besides sammi) but someone who i know i've hurt before and i can't take it back
her (1:21:45 PM): am i thinking the correct person?
me (1:21:51 PM): maybe?
me (1:21:54 PM): i dunno
her (1:22:02 PM): idk either
me (1:22:39 PM): i just can't tell you that person
her (1:24:09 PM): do i know her?
me (1:24:15 PM): probably
me (1:25:39 PM): i...just...i can't do this
her (1:26:31 PM): do what?
me (1:26:50 PM): i wanna talk to u about this, but i can't. i wanna talk to someone but there's no one to talk to
her (1:27:36 PM): why cant you talk to me about it? jw
me (1:28:14 PM): i can't tell you...for reasons...
her (1:29:03 PM): now its obvious...
me (1:29:19 PM): it might be other reasons than what you're thinking
her (1:29:38 PM): idk what im thinking
her (1:29:59 PM): why cant you talk to me? you know im here for you
me (1:30:48 PM): i know, but i...i'm not sure myself. i mean i do but i don't. i'm scared i'm confused and i don't wanna hurt myself again
her (1:31:50 PM): so basically the only person you can talk to you wont talk to?
her (1:32:13 PM): wooooow
me (1:32:39 PM): no, you're...
me (1:32:51 PM): i can't talk about this with ANYONE
me (1:32:56 PM): they all know...
me (1:33:03 PM): they all know things
her (1:33:50 PM): well if you're not gonna talk then i'll bbl
me (1:34:09 PM): no i wanna talk
her (1:34:21 PM): bbl
me (1:34:26 PM): ...ok...
(she) went away at 1:57:08 PM.

I can't tell her because I'm falling for her all over again. And I know we'll never get back together because of something that happened between us. I just don't know what to do.

 

[acesupercoolme]

If you know that you'll never get back together, then you need to move on.

 

[CrazyChik]

I'm really not good at advice sweetie but i think what Ally said is right. If you know that there is no way you too can ever get back together then you need to move on. Easier said than done i know. I really don't have advice for you sorry.

 

[EnchantedPiglet]

I'm not really sure of what to say.
I mean the thing to say is to take some time to think about the situation with yourself. Than talk to her.
I'm sorry.

 

[PurpleDucky]

I agree with Ally.

 

[Babyjustrun]

=(
I'm going to agree with them.
It's something that I guess, has to be done at some point in someones life.
It's kind of making me realize I should be doing the same with someone I know.

I'm sorry, I really hope things work out for the best.

 

[Cinderelli16]

I've been in the same situation, and I know it's hard believe me
I dated someone for a while, we broke up because things weren't working out, then I started falling for him hard, but I knew I couldn't get him back. So I finally decided that I needed to move on, and it was hard at first, but then it got easier, and it will for you too, I promise

 

[minnie_2006]

Just out of curiousity, may I ask how old you are?

 

[AmandaSparks730]

Just out of curiousity, may I ask how old you are?

I'm 15.

 

[Ms.Squeakers]

Of course you know my PM box is open.
You were there for me, and I really want to be here for you.

It would help if you slightly tell us what happened between you two.
Shes obviously a good friend and wants to be there for you, but to her if you cant say anything about it, then how can she give advice?

I think she might understand whats going on, but doesnt know how to handle it, just like you dont know how to handle it either.

 

[AmandaSparks730]

Thanks to all

See, we went out for a little bit in February. She broke up with me, and it took me until March to get over her. I moved on to other people after that. But the other day, I had to call her for something, and my heart started pounding like crazy. I kept fidgeting with my belt when I was over her house. I was randomly smiling (practically IN MY SLEEP) because of something she said.

I'm not sure what it all means. I mean, I've been "over her" for months now.

And Mouse, I can't say what happened between me and her. It's something that we only talked about once, and we never told ANYONE else, not one of our other friends, not her sister; I didn't even write it in my journal. I'll just say that it wasn't pretty, I made a horrible mistake, and well...ya know.