I could Use some Prayers Please. Update pg 8

[tiberius]

...ading my prayers to the others...

Good Luck!

 

[Bbgrizzle]

I am so sorry for your loss. Just remember. . .one day at a time.

 

[Keli]

I'm so sorry for what you are going through. I know your grief must be much greater than I can even comprehend and my heart goes out to you. My prayers are with you.

 

[Octoberbeauty]

Again, thank you for your prayers. I do want to say one thing about that newspaper article because it bothers me so much. I NEVER left the house without my daughter. It says I realized that she wasn't with me After I was running to the neighbors? That's just stupid. We got separated by the intense and enormous amount of smoke that attacked us on our way out of the house, but I got on my knees and reached as far as I could trying to reach her until I knew it was too late to save her. I had opened the door for her to run out, but she got scared and ran backwards instead of forewards and that's when the smoke overtook her little body. I could barely breathe and knew then that I, myself, only had seconds before I died too. I thought of my son outside, alone and scared and made the choice to drag myself back out the door. I have since at times regretted that decision, but only for moments. I know I made the right one. I had the worse case of smoke inhalation they had EVER had at Children's hospital and lived. This was confirmed many times by my doctor's who brought others by in amazement of my recovery.

I just don't want anyone to read that and think "What an idiot. Can't she realize if she has a child with her or not?" I never left her until I knew I couldn't save her. I was so mad the first time I read that. Where do they get off printing things just to make a story instead of asking for the truth? (And my fiance/exhubby/whatever-lol) is a newspaper man) Okay, whew I feel better now getting that off my chest. It may be a little thing, but it makes a Big difference to me. Staying in the house so long is how I got so burnt.

(By the way, if you're wondering, my son RAN out of the house the second I told the kids to get up and get out. He was gone like a shot of lightening and has told me many times that he had an angel guiding him. My daughter was too scared to act. She ran with me, but we got separated by the smoke. One second we were together and one second it was out of control between us. It was a nightmare and I never saw it coming. I was so close to her yet I couldn't see her or reach her. It was insane and it's been hard to deal with.)

 

[Pea-n-Me]

ETA: now I feel badly for posting the link and your reliving those moments. I'm sorry.

Please know that we understand what it must have been like in that house, and aren't judging you in any way. We just want to offer support.

 

[raammartin]

Sherry, you and your son are in my prayers.

 

[taximomfor4]

Awww, Sherry!

Survivor's guilt is so painful, yet so impossible to avoid, no? You don't have to justify your actions to anybody, least of all us. I am going out on a limb and speaking for all of us...not one of us would have dreamed of judging you. Especially not based on a newspaper article! I know, you know that...just felt the need to say that to you. I grew up in a fireman's household. I heard and saw terrible, sad things. I think it is safe to say that you are living every mom's worst nightmare. Take your time and grieve. It is therapeutic and necessary. Just don't forget to take care of yourself.

I guess what I want to tell you is that Macy has left her mark on many people. THose of us on the Disboards who may not have "met" her still heard about her, when you shared her with us. And your story put things in perspective for many of us. "When a child dies, every mother cries." My kids have been getting many extra hugs.

Just remember that Macy is fine, you are the one needing to heal. Your whole family. You have been in my prayers, and will continue to be there. Practice smiling, put one foot in front of the other, savor all of your memories, and begin making new ones when you are ready.

 

[janette]

Sherry, I cannot help you know how you move on after the loss of a child. It is every parents nightmare and I'm so sorry that it has become real for you. My mom had 12 children but lost one as an infant more than 50yrs ago; you can still hear the pain in her voice when she speaks of the one she lost. In no way does it diminish the love you have for the ones left but the pain will be there, my prayers are with you as you face this every day.

Don't let the article haunt you, I can say that I wasn't given the impression that you left your DD but that there was more to the story. Fires are said to be one of the most horrific experiences anyone ever faces. You were there, you know you did everything you could. Don't let anyone ever make you feel like you didn't.

Do try to find a support group, there can be comfort from others who have been where you are.

 

[Aidensmom]

Sherry, you have been in my prayers since the fire happened, and you will continue to be. Your last post has me in tears once again, don't worry about some stupid newspaper article, you know what the truth was, and so does your daughter.

 

[Miller1412]

Saying Prayers for you. Stay strong.

 

[Octoberbeauty]

ETA: now I feel badly for posting the link and your reliving those moments. I'm sorry.

Please know that we understand what it must have been like in that house, and aren't judging you in any way. We just want to offer support.

No, thank you for posting it. I'm glad I got a chance to clarify. I already relive those moments every night when I lie down to try and sleep.

 

[slo]

Many, many hugs to your Sherry!!!

I am so sorry for your loss and your pain. I will absolutly keep you and your whole family in my prayers.

God Bless you!!!!

 

[CindyBella]

I will always keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[hentob]

There are no words

Please know I think of you often

 

[robinb]

I just don't want anyone to read that and think "What an idiot. Can't she realize if she has a child with her or not?" I never left her until I knew I couldn't save her.

Ah honey ... no one here thinks you abandoned your baby! {{hugs}}

 

[Tink33]

Prayers and Hugs for you Sherry.

Don't cry for me Mommy,
I'm right here.
Although you can't see me
I see your tears.
I visit you often,
I am with you each day,
And when it's time for you
to close your eyes ,
On your pillow is where I lay.
I hold your hand &
stroke your hair,
And whisper in your ear.
If you're sad today Mommy,
Remember, I am here.
God took me home.
This we know is true.
But you'll always be My Mommy
Even though I'm not with you.
We will never be apart,
For everytime you think of me,
Please know I'm in your Heart..........​

~Author Unknown

 

[Meriweather]

Oh, Sherry, I can't begin to imagine the pain of losing a child. It breaks my heart to even think of it.
You must go on....you have a precious son that needs you so much right now.
I know it is tough....one day at a time. There are good times waiting for you.

 

[Mimi Q]

I just have no words. Continued prayers for you and your family.

 

[miss missy]

Sherry,

I know nothing I can say will ease your pain. My prays are with you. Please take care of YOU because you still have a job to do with your son, he needs you!!!

My Mom lost my brother when he was 6 from a terrible accident at a baseball field, he would be 46 now. Here is a poem that someone gave her when he passed. I hope it comforts you some

Thy Will Be Done
BY EDGAR A. GUEST

I'll lend you for a little time a child of mine,He said.
For you to love the while she lives and mourn for when she's dead,
It may be six or seven years or twenty two or three,
But will you, till I call her back take care of her for Me?
She'll bring her charms to gladden you and shall her stay be brief,
You'll have her lovely memories as solace for your grief."
I cannot promise she will stay since all from earth return,
But there are lessons taught down there I want this child to learn.
I've looked the wide world over in my search for teachers true,
And from the throngs that crowd life's lanes, I have selected you.
Now,will you give her all your love, nor think the labor vain
Nor hate me when I come to call to take her home again?
I fancied that I heard them say,"Dear Lord , thy will be done.
For all the joy thy child shall bring, the risk of grief we'll run,
We'll shelter her with tenderness we'll love her while we may
And for the happiness we've known forever grateful stay;
But shall the Angels call for her much sooner then we planned,
We'll brave the bitter grief that comes and try to understand.​

(Changed to girl version)

 

[Nutsy]

Words are just words and I am no good with words.. but when I first read what happened I really felt so

I never for one moment thought you would leave a child in the burning house and get yourself out... just doesn't make sense.. I doubt any mother could be so callous as to leave her child in the burning house.

But, thankfully, even tho it was unforunately it was too late to help little Macy, you had enough sense to get yourself out of there, before you lost your own life as well.

Your little boy needs you more than ever and you need him. Talk to him, hug him, him.. let Macy live on in your hearts and hopefully one day you will smile again.

Take care Sherry.. Share you grief, hoping you soon feel better about yourself too.. forget what people in the street might think, they haven't been where you have. Stand proud, keep that chin up and let God lead.. put your faith in him and let Him give you the strength to carry on.