I could Use some Prayers Please. Update pg 8

[Octoberbeauty]

(Some of you know that I recently lost my daughter and that I am recovering from serious burns to my face and arms and have been praying for me and my family. I appreciate those prayers so much, but right now I could use some extras.....)


I've done nothing but cry for two days. Even through shopping, eating out, and church this morning. My will for living without my daughter here is gone. I just want to be where she is. Nothing excites me, nothing brings me joy and I feel like I have nothing to look forward to anymore. After such a rough journey things were finally going so well with Jamey being saved, the wedding and our trip to Disney to look forward to. Now, I can't even think about planning the wedding and I don't think I could face Disney without her, though we are still considering doing it in her honor.

My whole life I dreamed of the day I would have a little girl. I love my son equally, but my dream was for a little girl and then I had her and she was everything I had dreamed of and soo much more. I couldn't have asked for a better daughter. I love her so much and we had so many mother/daughter plans that are now empty. I just want her back!

I don't know why God was ready for her to come home and not for me. I'm having trouble feeling like I will ever have a purpose again, but I know through the miraculous recovery I made in the hospital that he does have a plan for me. I just could care less right now. I know it's selfish to want her here when she's in a better place, but I do. I'm her mommy. He put me in charge of taking care of her and I wasn't finished yet!

If you've read this far, thank you. I guess I just needed to sit down and write some things out. I believe in the power of prayer and I just need y'all to pray that I find some acceptance of what has happened and a will to go on. Right now I'm so low that I don't feel like I'll ever be able to get up again...
Thanks,
Sherry

 

[Mermaid02]

I think the pain of losing a child is the most excruciating of all. God needed another angel. Live for your son, he must miss his sister terribly. I wish I could help you.

 

[Disney Ella]

I can't imagine what you are going through and the pain you are feeling. I hope you are getting some counseling. Your life is never going to be the same, but life will be worth living again, if you get some help through this rough patch.

 

[Tinks]

Oh my goodness, Please know we're praying for you still. We just have to somehow trust in His plan no matter how difficult. I can't imagine your pain but I will pray for you and your family.

 

[Pea-n-Me]

I think your feelings are completly normal and I can imagine I'd feel the same way. You've been in my prayers. Fall into the arms of others who are there to help you. Seek the help of a trained professional as well. Later, there are support groups made up of others who have been in your shoes, I think one of them is called Compassionate Friends .

May God hold you close to his heart.

 

[lynxstch]

please know that all of our prayers and thoughts are with you..we send you lots of hugs and wishes that things will be better for you and your family.
Peace in Heaven be with your precious little girl, and peace to the family that she left behind.........

 

[L107ANGEL]

I wish I had words to make you feel better, sadly I don't have any right now. Please know that you will be in my prayers and thoughts

 

[mum4jenn]

I do not know what happened but I am truly sorry this has happened to you. There might be a local support group you can join that might help.

I know this is NOT the same at all but several years ago I had a miscarriage and even though it was over 9 years ago it still hurts as if it happened yesterday. What my dh and I did was to write a good-bye letter to our unborn child and we wrote it in the baby book. It was a very hard thing to do but it truly did help put us on the road to recovery. Maybe start a journal where you can still share the dreams you shared....or even a blog....or who knows maybe in time you can have it published and it would help others in their own grief. I know....not now...it is too difficult. The days WILL become easier...eventually but please have a talk with someone you feel you can open up to. Think about your daughter's special talents that were God given and think about how they are being used in heaven or if there is anything you can do here on earth to honor her memory...such as a charity or something.

Again I am sorry that I do not know your situation but I know that does not change the hurt...and again I know that my loss is in no way anything close to your loss but maybe something I have written will help.

Take care and God Bless.

 

[Pea-n-Me]

Those are wonderful ideas mum4jenn.

 

[transparant]

Oh Sherry - you have never left my thoughts and prayers. I can't imagine what things must be like for you right now. Please know that you are being thought of and prayed for by many people that really care about you sweetie.

Heather

 

[Buckalew11]

I can't even imagine what your heart and soul is going through now but I will tell you, your faith (which sounds strong) will get you through this--even when you think you won't or can't or don't want to. You'll be in my prayers. I am very sorry you are going through this. I am so sorry...{{{hugs}}}

 

[Minniespal]

Still praying for you. Prayers, good wishes and lots of positive thoughts are coming your way

 

[PixiePop]

I am so sorry for your loss and can feel what you are going through to some extent. When I was pregnant I lost my baby girl when I was 5 months pregnant. I love my DS dearly but there are still times when I remember and think about the what ifs.....You sound like a strong courageous person and just know there are so many of us thinking of you.

 

[kejoda]

No one could explain why this happen Sherry. I can't imagine the devestation you feel. But there is one that can. Turn to God he is the one that can help you the most. He is right there beside you, just waiting for you. Reach out.

All our prayers. If I could take away the pain I would.

 

[LoraJ]

I am so sorry that you are going through this.

You do have something to live for, it's your son. He must be hurting so much now too. maybe you both can find some sort of group counseling.
Let all of your anger out and cry as much as you need to. You're in my thoughts.

 

[minnie56]

My heart aches for your utter despair...I cannot imagine going on without either of my daughters but somehow, you must. Just put one foot in front of the other and hold your son close to your heart. Together you will get through this.. one day at a time.

Many, many blessings to you. I will keep you in my prayers and heart.

 

[CEDmom]

I can't even imagine the pain you are going through . I've lost loved ones and suffered miscarriages but your loss goes so far beyond that. I honestly think you need to give yourself time. You'll never get over your loss and it has forever changed you but with time you will be able to go on with your life. You will laugh and love again. Take care of yourself and know so many of us are thinking of you.

 

[mum4jenn]

Please do misunderstand my writing about my miscarriage...I know that it is in no way anything like your loss.

I though of something else you might want to do. Plant a beautiful tree in her memory. As it grows taller and the branches reach towards the heavens you can have something physical to look at and and to sit underneath when you talk to her. Maybe at a Park or maybe even near where she is buried.


Things like this should really be a humbling experience for us other folks. Some of us get into arguments about the silliest things on this board and others but in the end it is our family and getting though the day that are truly important. I am sitting her crying my eyes out to think of how I would ever cope if I were to lose my dd. I just don't know what I would do.

Again...I am truly sorry you are going through this right now.

 

[zalansky]

I don't know what happened either and I also cannot imagine your pain. I just wanted to send you some hugs and let you know I will be praying for you in this very difficult time of life. I am so sorry.

 

[TheDisneyTraveler06]

I am so sorry. Words can't even explain. I will keep your family in my prayers.