Flower;
Maybe you should consider taking a self defense class or Karate, or Tae Kwon Do, it would help with your shyness and make you more aggressive.
A public speaking class could be of a great help to you as well, to help you maybe toughen up. I have read some of your previous posts in the past and I thought I read that you are a 30 year old MAN.
Unless your life's ambition is to work in the stuffed animal section of a toy store, you need to "put your house in order" so to speak.
Stuffed animal hugging and sitting around watching Bambi flicks are no way to live guy. Before you know it, you'll be hooked on comforters, snorting bed sheets, and way outta control. And then what?