How do I live my life with this lurking over my head?

[Mackey Mouse]

Britz.....your post brought tears to my eyes this morning..

Hugs to you and I am glad that she is with you everyday....I truly understand that as mine is with me everyday as well, over 21 years now, but there is not a day that goes that she is not mentioned by one of us... She lives in our hearts..

 

[lookingforward]

Britz, hugs to you too! Thanks for sharing. As I fight breast cancer my greatest fear is leaving my three kids. Thats why I am taking every treatment with a smile...and also the knowledge that my kids are old enough to clearly remember me. It warms my heart to know that you feel close to your mom seven years later. I cried when I read that. Thank you.

To the OP...my prayers and thoughts are with you and your mom this Easter Sunday.

 

[nana2tots]

I'm so sorry, 's and Prayers

 

[nana2tots]

I am hurting real bad also, i have gotten to the point where all i do is Cry, no interest in anything anymore, I look at Sandi's Pictures all day and say to myself, ''how can i have Fun, when she is not here to have Fun w/ me, I am literally going Crazy, this is the hardest damn thing i have had to deal w/ in my life, i lost both parent;s when i was 27, but this is unbearable.
I Know i need Help, but no one can bring my Dear Sandi back to me.Am i suppose to feel like this?????????? I am feeling this bucket up now, w/ Tears, can't even talk about it, It is suppose to get better, but it's getting Worse!

 

[britz]

I am hurting real bad also, i have gotten to the point where all i do is Cry, no interest in anything anymore, I look at Sandi's Pictures all day and say to myself, ''how can i have Fun, when she is not here to have Fun w/ me, I am literally going Crazy, this is the hardest damn thing i have had to deal w/ in my life, i lost both parent;s when i was 27, but this is unbearable.
I Know i need Help, but no one can bring my Dear Sandi back to me.Am i suppose to feel like this?????????? I am feeling this bucket up now, w/ Tears, can't even talk about it, It is suppose to get better, but it's getting Worse!

There is so much help out there. Have you tried to talk to your doctor? I know that my dad had to go on some antidepressants after my mom passed. He took it very hard. He fought for a long time seeking help but he finally went and talked to the doctor. It was the best thing he could of done. He lost his mother, wife and his bestfriend (his dog) within a year and sold his business that he had started in our basement when I was only 6. Please know there is nothing wrong with you and how you are feeling. I discovered there is no right way or wrong way to grieve. Everyone grieves differently. It is alright to cry just as importantly it is alright to smile and to feel happiness.
Huge hugs to you ((hugs))

 

[nana2tots]

Thank-you, Britz