How do I answer now?

[DisneyPhD]

THANK YOU! I knew there was someone I could call but couldn't remember who it was. I will call them Monday.

DisneyPhD - again thanks for all of your kind words and support. Unfortunately I do not have a church here. I've been afraid to find one. I know that is silly on my part but there are lots of small family churches around here and sometimes it is hard to feel at home there.

Thank you too TiggerLover. You kind words are very appreciated.

I haven't found one around here (and both DH and I grew up around here, but my old church isn't around anymore and DH is way to big.) I keep waiting for one to "find me" I think I need to put a little more effort into it. However I like my Sunday mornings stress free. I do think a good church community is worth giving that up, I just haven't made the effort to find one.

About Jr never wanting you to have another man. Enough time will fix that. He wouldn't want you to be alone forever. However only time will tell what path your life will take that way.

 

[DisneyPhD]

Hi Chell, bringing an old thread back, but I wanted to see how you were doing, and I willing to bet I am not the only on Dis that is praying for you.

 

[chell]

Thanks again.

Well I guess I am improving some but the days are still so difficult. Right now I am back to my day job and it is all I can do to make it there daily.

For some reason today has been a very difficult day for me. I went out to lunch by myself and sat and cried in my booth. I'm telling you everyone in this little town is going to think I am a major freak!

Tonight at my grief class/support group I basically bawled the entire time. At least I know they do not think I am a freak for crying there.

My counselor says she sees a lot of positive changes in me. I'm glad she can see them. I am ready to feel them.

This weekend is a girl's weekend and I can't wait!

Looks like I went on too long once again. Oops.

 

[Serena]

It will get better, believe it.

 

[chell]

Thanks Serena.

 

[DisneyPhD]

Oh Chell, hugs.

I know the burst into tears things. My friend calls it leaking. She gets leaky a lot. It happens.

Good to hear about the counselor and the support group. Sorry about work. I remember when I got a new job shortly after my sister in law died. It was a good place to work, but I felt like they had hired a broken person, I really felt broken. Healing can take a long time, and even then it still hurts sometimes.

Heres to good days (or at least better ones.) Have a great girls weekend!

Mary