dizprincess717
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WARNING: This is long-winded, but it's important to get all the facts down. A few girls and I were discussing this on another thread, but I feel bad to clog it with other chatter when it's just a list of future Spring '08 CP Alumns!
I was just accepted for another College Program. I just did my phone interview and faxed my information to whoever it is who gets all those fun things. I didn't even MAIL my stuff, and the accepted me. In Merchandise, which is where I was hoping I'd go. Now, however, things are different. And much, much more confusing.
I have a boyfriend now. And let me explain how we met, because it is relevant in understanding why I feel so in love with him.
DBF's dad and my dad were best friends growing up and in high school. They were even best friends after high school, when they got married to their first wives for ALL the wrong reasons. But, that's irrelevant, really... They remained best friends when I was born (I'm 2 months and 1 day older than DBF), and DBF's dad is my godfather. When DBF was born, my mom dressed me all up in a cute little dress and I was at DBF's baptism. I know, weird right? Oh, it gets even better.
DBF's family was living in New Jersey at this time, and over the months and years, our family's fell out of touch with each other. In 15 years, I saw them ONCE, and that wasn't even in person. I saw them on the Maury Show, of all the crazy places, becasue DBF and his 4 siblings were all very large babies (all over 11lbs), and were on the show. Once in 15 years.
One day towards the end of my sophomore year, I was on the internet and kept getting all of these pop-up ads for classmates.com. I finally got so sick of it, I just decided to put my dad's name on the website. I didn't even check who else was listed for my dad's graduating class. About a week later an email came from someone who I didn't know and it was addressed for my dad. Lo and behold, it was DBF's dad. After 15 years. And a shot in the dark from some random website on a pop-up window.
DBF and I got to talking then. He'd been dating some chick for a few months when we first met. It was apparent, though, that we had a TON in common. Except for his horrible choice in a MLB team (LET'S GO YANKEES!), but he's forgiven. That summer, we met face-to-face for the first time. We knew there was something there. We tried dating, but because we didn't have cars, it just didn't work out. In fact, it ended ugly. Reallllly ugly.
The following summer, we started to talk again. Dating didn't work. AGAIN.
And the summer after that, the year I graduated, his grandmother (who lived close to my house) passed away. We saw each other and that spark was still there. I, however, got even for the past 2 heartbreaks.
We didn't talk for a few months until he told me that he was looking at Moravian College, where I was studying at at the time. Nothing happened, though, and we went for about 2 years without seeing each other. We'd talk occasionally, but that was it.
During those 2 years, I did a College Program at WDW. I also was engaged to a Marine which ended even more horrifically than any "break-up" DBF and I had had in the past. I wasn't looking for a relationship, and DBF "wasn't looking" (I KNOW he was!) for a relationship because he'd just ended an on-again, off-again 5 year thing with the girl who he was seeing when we first met. I explained to him exactly why The Jerk and I broke up. He was the first one to ever hear that story in full. Nobody else, not even my best friend of 15+ years knows.
2 weeks later, we went to another Phillies game... And thing were changing. I was seeing him in a different light. And then, with the knowledge that I needed to move slow and had a horrible trust issue with men, we started to date.
This past summer we went everywhere together - Atlantic City, Ocean City NJ, Sea Isle City, Six Flags Great Adventure, Phillies games, the Zoo, my house, his house, celebrated my 21st birthday...
It's definitely love. and definitely 
in the future.
So, now I don't know what to do about this CP. Should I go or not? DBF tells me to go, but I don't want to leave him. Even when I was engaged to The Jerk I wanted to go. This time, not so much. I don't want to go the parks without him, because I know I'll be watching Wishes and be wishing he was there with me. Sure, he may visit once a month or twice during the 4 months I'm there, but there's still so much time in between.
I totally trust myself with other guys. I trust him, almost, with other women. Like I said, the trust issue I have is huge. I'm paranoid that he'll find someone else when I'm not there (even though we are 80+ miles apart).
I do know that if I go, he can work on the weekends (we both work part-time but not on the weekends because that's the only time we can see each other with said jobs and school) and make more money. I'll be making less money than I do at my current job now. I've already talked with my managers that I'm probably not going to go, but they'll understand if I do go.
In all honesty, half of me wants to go and the other half doesn't. I'm probably leaning more towards the doesn't-half, but there's still a huge part that knows this may be my last chance to do this. On the other hand, I've done a CP and worked at my favorite ride (Splash Mountain) with the best group of people ever. SPLASH TRASH FOR LIFE.
So, your suggestions? Or did you fall asleep during my babbling????
I was just accepted for another College Program. I just did my phone interview and faxed my information to whoever it is who gets all those fun things. I didn't even MAIL my stuff, and the accepted me. In Merchandise, which is where I was hoping I'd go. Now, however, things are different. And much, much more confusing.
I have a boyfriend now. And let me explain how we met, because it is relevant in understanding why I feel so in love with him.
DBF's dad and my dad were best friends growing up and in high school. They were even best friends after high school, when they got married to their first wives for ALL the wrong reasons. But, that's irrelevant, really... They remained best friends when I was born (I'm 2 months and 1 day older than DBF), and DBF's dad is my godfather. When DBF was born, my mom dressed me all up in a cute little dress and I was at DBF's baptism. I know, weird right? Oh, it gets even better.
DBF's family was living in New Jersey at this time, and over the months and years, our family's fell out of touch with each other. In 15 years, I saw them ONCE, and that wasn't even in person. I saw them on the Maury Show, of all the crazy places, becasue DBF and his 4 siblings were all very large babies (all over 11lbs), and were on the show. Once in 15 years.
One day towards the end of my sophomore year, I was on the internet and kept getting all of these pop-up ads for classmates.com. I finally got so sick of it, I just decided to put my dad's name on the website. I didn't even check who else was listed for my dad's graduating class. About a week later an email came from someone who I didn't know and it was addressed for my dad. Lo and behold, it was DBF's dad. After 15 years. And a shot in the dark from some random website on a pop-up window.
DBF and I got to talking then. He'd been dating some chick for a few months when we first met. It was apparent, though, that we had a TON in common. Except for his horrible choice in a MLB team (LET'S GO YANKEES!), but he's forgiven. That summer, we met face-to-face for the first time. We knew there was something there. We tried dating, but because we didn't have cars, it just didn't work out. In fact, it ended ugly. Reallllly ugly.
The following summer, we started to talk again. Dating didn't work. AGAIN.
And the summer after that, the year I graduated, his grandmother (who lived close to my house) passed away. We saw each other and that spark was still there. I, however, got even for the past 2 heartbreaks.
We didn't talk for a few months until he told me that he was looking at Moravian College, where I was studying at at the time. Nothing happened, though, and we went for about 2 years without seeing each other. We'd talk occasionally, but that was it.
During those 2 years, I did a College Program at WDW. I also was engaged to a Marine which ended even more horrifically than any "break-up" DBF and I had had in the past. I wasn't looking for a relationship, and DBF "wasn't looking" (I KNOW he was!) for a relationship because he'd just ended an on-again, off-again 5 year thing with the girl who he was seeing when we first met. I explained to him exactly why The Jerk and I broke up. He was the first one to ever hear that story in full. Nobody else, not even my best friend of 15+ years knows.
2 weeks later, we went to another Phillies game... And thing were changing. I was seeing him in a different light. And then, with the knowledge that I needed to move slow and had a horrible trust issue with men, we started to date.
This past summer we went everywhere together - Atlantic City, Ocean City NJ, Sea Isle City, Six Flags Great Adventure, Phillies games, the Zoo, my house, his house, celebrated my 21st birthday...
It's definitely love.
and definitely in the future.So, now I don't know what to do about this CP. Should I go or not? DBF tells me to go, but I don't want to leave him. Even when I was engaged to The Jerk I wanted to go. This time, not so much. I don't want to go the parks without him, because I know I'll be watching Wishes and be wishing he was there with me. Sure, he may visit once a month or twice during the 4 months I'm there, but there's still so much time in between.
I totally trust myself with other guys. I trust him, almost, with other women. Like I said, the trust issue I have is huge. I'm paranoid that he'll find someone else when I'm not there (even though we are 80+ miles apart).
I do know that if I go, he can work on the weekends (we both work part-time but not on the weekends because that's the only time we can see each other with said jobs and school) and make more money. I'll be making less money than I do at my current job now. I've already talked with my managers that I'm probably not going to go, but they'll understand if I do go.
In all honesty, half of me wants to go and the other half doesn't. I'm probably leaning more towards the doesn't-half, but there's still a huge part that knows this may be my last chance to do this. On the other hand, I've done a CP and worked at my favorite ride (Splash Mountain) with the best group of people ever. SPLASH TRASH FOR LIFE.
So, your suggestions? Or did you fall asleep during my babbling????
