MosMom
<font color=deeppink>Damn you, you wretched clown!
- Joined
- Jul 29, 2000
I haven't spoken to my mother in about a month since she disowned me for the 7th time. I've never felt better since she has been gone and I'm considering never welcoming her back into my life. Without making this too long or dramatic, my mom is an alcoholic and has been my entire life. She has drifted in and out of sobriety but I'm getting to the point where I can't take it anymore and I don't want my kids subjected to her. My daughter adores her and wonders why Nana isn't around for periods of time (during binges or when she is mad at me). She was always abusive as a child and I had forgiven her for that. She has always been verbally abusive and continues that. When she is sober, I'm the best mom in the world and a wonderful woman. When she is drinking, I'm things I wouldn't repeat here or the mods would have to delete the post. I also found out that she has been drinking for longer than she has admitted and watched my children when I thought she was in recovery.
I guess I'm tired of phone calls at 3am where she is either screaming at me or crying about some tragedy in her life (which is usually brought upon herself). When I was a child she would constantly threaten to kill herself so I have this fear everyday I will get a call that she has either killed herself or someone else in a car accident while drinking.
I really think she has problems that go beyond drinking and perhaps she is manic depressive. When I watched that ER episode with Abby and her mom (Sally Field) it hit a little too close to home. Whenever I suggest this, she will hear nothing of it.
I just wondered if anyone here has cut ties with a parent. Was it hard? How did you go about it? Did you have children who missed their grandparent? Do you miss your parent? Do you feel like you have abandoned them? I've been saying for years I would never speak to her again, yet I keep doing it. Now that Moira is older, I really don't want her to see her grandmother treating her mother like dirt. I'm trying to break a cycle of abuse and I fear that is impossible with my mother in my life.
Sorry this is such a downer (and a little embarrassing) but my friends all come from relatively stable homes and don't really understand. Thanks for listening.
Bridget
I guess I'm tired of phone calls at 3am where she is either screaming at me or crying about some tragedy in her life (which is usually brought upon herself). When I was a child she would constantly threaten to kill herself so I have this fear everyday I will get a call that she has either killed herself or someone else in a car accident while drinking.
I really think she has problems that go beyond drinking and perhaps she is manic depressive. When I watched that ER episode with Abby and her mom (Sally Field) it hit a little too close to home. Whenever I suggest this, she will hear nothing of it.
I just wondered if anyone here has cut ties with a parent. Was it hard? How did you go about it? Did you have children who missed their grandparent? Do you miss your parent? Do you feel like you have abandoned them? I've been saying for years I would never speak to her again, yet I keep doing it. Now that Moira is older, I really don't want her to see her grandmother treating her mother like dirt. I'm trying to break a cycle of abuse and I fear that is impossible with my mother in my life.
Sorry this is such a downer (and a little embarrassing) but my friends all come from relatively stable homes and don't really understand. Thanks for listening.
Bridget