I'm still here guys. The computer acts up once in a while, so when I start posting, and stop all of a sudden, it's acting up and I can't get it to do anything!
Not much going on here. I am going to take an epsom salt bath in a bit and do some thinking and relaxing. I have been battling hives since Sat. I can't figure out what I'm doing that is different. Thankfully I've been able to keep it to a minimal outbreak. I haven't gotten them for about 5 years, but got them all the time when I was younger. Usually ended up in the ER with a couple of shots of Atarax to the butt.
Jocelyn, I watched the game last night. It was GREAT!! Now I'm thinking of the Super Bowl and what to have to munch on while I watch it LOL.
Lisa, sorry to hear Tom is having a hard time lately. I still pray daily for you guys. I still have your Christmas card out (on my desk) and every time I see it, I send a prayer up to God.
Diane, hope you're holding out with all the snow and cold. Heard on the weather, we have snow coming again. Not sure how much though. I am ready for Spring!! I love the snow, just not the cold
I'm also sending prayers up for your job hunting. I know Mike was unemployed for almost 2 years. I heard on the tv or read somewhere that they said the average amount of time for being on umemployment is about 2 years.
I was Oprah's new network last Sunday. She had Dr. Phil, Suzie Orman and Dr. Oz on. I really never cared for Dr. Phil, but watched anyway. here was a couple on there that asked him about arguing all the time. They always argue over little things, like Mike and I do, which I guess we're normal then LOL. Anyway, he said they must be getting some type of payoff from it, or they wouldn't do it. Kind of got me thinking. Everything we do, we get a payoff for it. Arguing, eating, anything. Now, we just need to figure out if the payoff is positive or negative.
This has me really thinking. My eating habits are getting some type of payoff. I want to be slim and healthy, but there is a reason that I eat the way I do and don't change it. I just need to figure out what that payoff is.
I think my payoff is to keep people at arm's length. If I don't let them into my heart, I won't get hurt. My ex had emotionally abused me our whole marriage. I think in my mind's eye, I am what he said I was. Even when I lost all the weight and was wearing a size 6/8, I pictured myself as a heavy person. I was never really thin or healthy, even as a child.
I need to work on my self-esteem issues. I never really thought I was "good enough", "pretty enough", you know all those feelings.
I just need to find what works for me. It could be part MM, and part something else. I just need to find a "click".
Ok, enough rambling. I'm going to post a few pictures of the pups for those of you that don't get on FB can see them
Love and hugs to you all
I really hope she's okay and is just busy.
Take care of yourself.
