Hi-
Well I actually have time for a real journal posting today! It's about time.
I feel like everything is back on track now after the holidays, diet wise and just in general. DH is back at work, DS is back in preschool and everything is rolling along. I've been running myself ragid trying to set up a workshop for the organization I volunteer with, teaching, and taking yet another online class. So, status quo.
I have a job interview coming up as well. I have to go back to work full time in the fall. I'm having a hard time with the idea. I'm ready to go back to work in many ways. I'm 36 so I know it's time to start focusing more on my career, and I'm definetely ready to eliminate some of the debt we have built up the last year. BUT in my heart I think it's too soon to leave my DD. I know I am lucky that I've been able to make staying home work as long as I have, and I am so thankful. However, I know it's too early for her. She will be just over 2 in the fall. She would be much better off if I could hold out for another year, but it's not possible. My DS was also 2 when I went back to work for a year, and boy was it rough. We had a wonderful caregiver who kept kids in her home, but even so it was a very difficult time for us all. Too make matters worse about the current situation I am not sure if our caregiver will have space for DD. Child care in SC is adequate at best. I don't know what I'll do if DD can't be with the CG. Our next door neighbor had a baby over the summer and has gone through 3 child care situations since October. So, I'm scared.
I'm also wondering how in the world our family will even function, not to mention how will I be able to devote any time to my diet and health? I know women do it all the time, but they have to sacrifice so much. I'm disturbed by the whole thing.
OK, moving on. I've done a really good job this week especially with the workouts. I think the diet has been going really well too. I haven't been writing down my meals, but I have been keeping a mental tally of all my points. I've been where I need to be, but the scale isn't reflecting any losses. In fact, I've been at 179 every day EXCEPT today when I was 180. Grrrr. I really want to lose at least a pound by Sunday. I'm not giving up on it.
My DH had planned to be gone all weekend, but now he's on the fence about whether or not he will actually go. He does revolutionary war reinactments. He has band duties planned for just about every other weekend for the next 2 months, so I wouldn't blame him for staying. I think we are both going to be crazy by the time March rolls around.
Ok, I think I have about 1/2 hour before I need to make lunch for everyone. I'm off to catch up on some other journals.
OH - I almost forgot - AMY!!! Ty for posting and for supporting me!!
