Finding the real me in this body

[deelam]

Yesterday went well. The kids & husband had pizza for dinner. I made a Philly cheesesteak without the bun.
I did manage to go to both back to school nights. DS10 has a very strict teacher. DS10 already got a calandar mark for pulling out a pencil without asking or being told to. It will be tough for DS10, because he is very unorganized and doesn't handle pressure well. The good thing is that there are only 13 kids in his class. It's a Catholic school and enrollment is way down. We live right near Philadelphia. This area used to be a very popular location for Catholic schools. There are 4 Catholic schools within 3 miles of my home. I really expect 1 or 2 to close. I just hope it isn't ours.

DS3, his daycare had a very nice open house. His daycare actualy is a private school that goes up to 8th grade. Since DS3 will be 4 soon, I think they are really trying to impress us. They want him to stay. It's just allot of money. It would be $180 a week. Sending him to Catholic school with my older son would cost about $150 a month more than I pay now for DS10. But then you have to deal with the days off and finding a sitter. It's allot to consider since I really don't have anyone near I can count on. DS10 goes to our family bussiness on his days off. But DS who will be 4 is too young to go to the family bussiness.

Todays plan
BF 2 pieces of sausage

Lunch--I packed nothing, I'm at work with nothing but goodies everywhere. I might have to run out and buy a Rotisarie chicken

Dinner-I'm going to make a stir fry dish. The whole family likes the stir fry dishes that I make. I just add rice for them and they are good to go.

 

[CJK]

Wow, sounds like you're as busy as ever but are getting used to focusing on your family rather than on next door. It must be hard to do. Good job on walking the track. Hope you enjoy the stir fry. It's a mainstay in our family. Have a great weekend!

 

[deelam]

Stayed on plan yesterday. I think this is day 5 on program. The headache is gone. Weekends are always tough. I will spend a good part of Saturday cooking. On sunday, we are driving to Wildwood NJ, the seashore. Wildwood has a really big boardwalk with allot of rides. They have allot going on this weekend, car show on the Boardwalk, cheap wristbands for rides Sunday, and Irish weekend. DH has to work, so I thought that I would just take the drive with my kids. I may meet up with some work friends there. Though I'm fine if its just me and the kids. It will be a fun day. I just got to stay on program.

As for next door, nothing new going on. I'm just staying away. I'm really bothered by SIL still not getting involved in her daughters problems and helping MIL handle this problem. I haven't talked to SIL, and I don't plan to. If she calls me I might tell her off. So I think it's best not to talk to her until I get a hold of my anger. SIL & I used to be very good friends years ago. We always did vacations together and hung out all the time. Once I started gaining weight, she just stopped coming around and calling. She stopped being friends. So, If I ever tell her off, it won't be pretty. At this point I'd rather be done with her.

Today's plan
BF breakfast sausage
Lunch, again didn't pack a lunch. I wish I had celery or something
Dinner-applebees-will stick to something low carb.

 

[CACruisin']

I am just getting caught up. I hope you had a nice time at Wildwood last weekend and had a good week. Good for you planning something to be away from your in-laws while DH is at work.

SIL is doing what she needs to do to cope. You need to do what is right for you and your family. Keep telling yourself "Not my problem."

 

[deelam]

I've been so busy. Between soccer, band & art club along with working full time, I just don't have enough time. I've been so busy at work too. DH never gets invovled with kids activities, homework, making dinner. I feel like I'm always doing everything on my own. I'm doing pretty good on the food. I did have pancakes over the weekend. We went to a pancake house in Cape May and I treated myself. I had strawberrys & whipped cream but no syrup. Still very yummy. I have added low carb wraps to my diet.

It's still a little crazy next door. MIL stays in her bedroom. Crazy BIL & niece were sitting out front yesterday drinking a quart bottle of vodka. neither of them work. It really makes me angry that they are both so disrespectful. I am just trying to ignore it. I'll post more later, gotta go.

 

[CACruisin']

A mom's job is 24/7 isn't it? It is all worth it though. Hang in there. Strawberries & pancakes - yum! DH makes pancakes every weekend. Moderation is the key.

Have a great weekend.

 

[CJK]

Just checkin' in to see how you're doing. Sounds like you still have a lot on your plate. Just remember to take care of yourself too. Have a nice weekend!

 

[deelam]

I've been away for a while. It's been so busy at work and busy with the kids I just didn't get the chance to write. I haven't been as steady with my eating plan as I would like to be. I had a blood pressure scare this past Saturday. I was home cleaning my bathroom Saturday. I accidently flushed my deorodant down the toliet. It wedged in the toliet. DH is incompentant when it comes to plumbing matters. He was ranting and raving. I felt my blood pressure rising. So, I took the kids and went to Walmart. My kids were being so bad. They nearly knocked over my shopping cart. I was right near the blood pressure machine. So I sat down and took my blood pressure. It was 222 over 116. If that isn't a wake up call I don't know what is. I checked it Sunday at the supermarket and it was 185 over 106. I am scared to death. I guess I need to go to the doctors. I haven't been to a doctor in a while. I still have a hangup about getting on the Doctor's scale. I was hoping the low carb diet would drop my BP, but I haven't been consistant. I am a wreck right now.

 

[CACruisin']

Good to see you again! Maybe the blood pressure scare is what you needed to get back on track. Family obligations are important, but so is taking care of yourself. Are you exercising? Getting a daily walk in would probably be really good for you. It would help your blood pressure and lower your stress level. Good Luck and hang in there!

 

[deelam]

You are correct. My Blood pressure scare is what I needed to give myself a reality check. I have a 3 year old and a 10 year old. I want to live to see them grow up. This is a new me.

I bought a blood pressure cuff. My blood pressure last night was much lower. I just layed on the sofa, on my left side to lower my pressure, watching tv last night.(Rented the Adam Sandler Movie click, it was really funny) My goal was to get my pressure down. My pressure was 170 over 112 before bed. This morning it was 165 over 110. This is much better then the 220 over 116 reading. But still way to high for comfort. I did cut out salt, which I love. I also cut out high salt foods like bacon and ham. I do plan to start walking. I can't start tonight, because of soccor and food shopping for my mother who is sick. My goal is to walk around the track 2X tomorrow. I really got to handle stress better. Most days its like I'm being pulled in so many different directions.

BF
1 scarmbled egg
Lunch Veggies from salad bar
Dinner--Filet mignon with grean beans

 

[deelam]

Last night was stressfull. All that rushing around shopping for my Mom. And when I got there my Mom was in a bad mood. The stuff she told me to get her at the store, she already had. She needed other stuff. I got totally stressed out by her. Then when I got home, DH wanted me to run back out to the grocery store to buy stuff so he could make a salad. We got in a big fight over this. DS10 soccor practice got cancelled until today. The kids were starving, I made them dinner. Then homework, and DS10 was whiney because he is having problems with the whole noun/verb thing/english thing. And of couse I had to do wash, because all of DS10 black socks have disapeared. He wears a uniform to school and blacks socks are manitory. DS10 started October with 8 pairs of black socks. Now, I can only find 2 pairs. I took my blood pressure when things quieted down last night. It was 220 over around 110.
At 4AM this morning my parakeet started making allot of noice. DH moved his cage into the bedroom last night because it stays warm in the bedroom. The Bird must have freaked out. I got up and calmed him down. I've been up ever since. I took my BP soon after and it was 170 over 98. A little better.

So far, I am doing strict Atkins. It's day 3 and I feel good. I'm hoping that I see a change in my BP soon. Atkins will reduce High BP. Tonight DS10 has soccor practice. So while he is practicing, I will walk. They practice for about an hour-so I'll walk maybe 45 minutes.

 

[deelam]

I walked 2 miles last night. It felt soo good. I plan to walk again tonight.

Food was good last night. BP was lower at 159 over 108 last night. This morning it was 152 over 100. Stress must have had my BP up so high.

Today is Philly cheessteak day at work. I'll just eat the meat off of the roll. Saturday is my birthday. My Mom ordered me a chocolate cake. She insist that I need a cake for my birthday. My kids will enjoy it, but then I'm bringing it in to work to get rid of it. I don't get my Mom. She will tell me I need to eat right, then she will put candy in my Handbag.

 

[CJK]

I'm very happy to hear that your blood pressure is down. It's pretty crazy how stress can impact your blood pressure so drastically isn't it? I'm glad to hear you enjoyed your walk! It gives you the chance to clear your head a little bit.

Is Oct. 28th your birthday? Me too!!!!! If so - I hope you had a great day!! I hope you have a great week!

 

[deelam]

Happy Birthday to you too CJK!

It's been a crazy weekend. DS10 school had a Trunk or Treat. I went a little overboard with the decorations. It was really hard to find battery opperated lights, but I did. So I had light up skeletons around the trunk, webs around the trunk and spiders that dropped down when children came up to the trunk to get candy. I didn't win anything. But we had a good time. We had a little birthday dinner at Applebees before the trunk or treat. Mom got me a 6.MP digital Camera and a deep fryer. Why she bought me a deep fryer, I just can't figure out. I slipped up a bit over the weekend. But the good thing is I have walked 2 miles everyday. I feel so much better since I have been walking.
Today, The girls at work are taking me to lunch at an Italian place nearby. I planned to eat a grilled chicken sandwich.

Tonight is DS10 soccor game. I'll do my walking first. I'd like to bump up to 3 miles soon, maybe tonight.

Can't promise much on the food today. I just will try to eat healthy.

 

[CACruisin']

happy belated birthday

Great job getting the walks in. That should help tremendously in getting your BP down.

 

[CJK]

Your place sounds like so much fun for Halloween! Good job on all the walking. Hope things have slowed down a bit for you this last week. How are you doing? Hope your week is off to a great start.

 

[deelam]

I've been doing well.I have been walking, but still at only 2 miles. My food choice are ok, but not as low carb as I would like them to be. I've been trying to eat more fruit. My stress level has been pretty good. My blood pressure is high, but down from my over 200 reading. It seems to be around 160.

I've been really busy with soccer & basketball. I went on DS10 school trip to Philadelphia last week. We went to the constitution center, liberty bell and Ben Frankin's grave. It was a warm day and it was nice walking through the city with the kids. The kids had to wear their full uniforms (shirts & tie for boys), and they looked so nice! Tourist were taking pictures of our kids. I have to update my signature with a picture of the kids in Philly.

Still craziness at MIL. BIL and Niece are both still out of control. They both make me sick.

Until Thanksgiving, my plan is to eat light. Eat more fruit & veggies, and low carbs. I plan to keep walking.

 

[deelam]

This is a picture outside the constitution center in Philly

This is at Ben Franklins Grave

Here is a picture of the Boys

Another picture of the boys

 

[CACruisin']

What a fun trip your DS had and what fun for you to be able to go with them. (great pics!) Glad you are getting the walking in - everything counts. Good plan to eat sensibly, then remember moderation on Turkey day.

Have a good week!

 

[CJK]

Great pics!! It looked like it was such a great trip. Great job on lowering your blood pressure. It's a good reminder that our health is why we're doing this, and not so much about fitting into that magical small size. I hope you're finding time for yourself despite the family members that are causing some trouble for you. Keep up the great work!