I sit here and look at my 11 y/o golden retriever. I know that he is slowing down. He has fatty tumors all over his body. He is getting arthritis in his joints. He had trouble getting up on the bed. I worry about the fatty tumors squishing his chest. To date, the tumors are all 'fatty tissue'. They are getting more numerous. Every night, I wake up and nudge him a bit...just to be sure he's still 'with us'. I worry constantly if today will be the day.
So yes, I completely understand how you feel. And no, there is no reason for you to feel guilty because you are relieved. Qtip is at peace now.....keep that knowledge close to your heart. She knew you did what was needed. And I'm sure that on some level, she was thankful.
You know....the truly awful thing about having pets in our lives is that we get them as puppies or kittens, knowing that if we're lucky, we'll have many wondeful years with them only to have to make that decision for them. But, good pet owners know when the time is right. You and your dh made the right choice. Rest assured of that.
So, I'm so sorry to hear that you have lost your beloved Qtip. Truly sad for you and your dh. But, you did the right thing. The other animals in your life are so lucky to have you around to care for them and to give them love.