Weekly wrap-up:
OK so something is definitely "going on" with my body because I was wiped out again a few days this week, and on the weekend. As in, I took DD grocery shopping (made 3 stops) and then came home and took a nap. And then on Mother's Day, I did 5mi (during which my avg pace was about 40sec slower than I expected), went out to lunch, and then came home and took a nap. This timing doesn't seem to be lining up with when I've had a lot of fatigue related to my cycle historically, so I'm not sure what's going on. I do have a physical at the end of the month, and I'll likely be going back through this journal to plot out the days/weeks I was unusually tired and talk to my doc about it. I could be peri, it could be mineral/vitamin deficiencies, a thyroid issue, or something else. It's pretty frustrating.
This was supposed to be my first week of formal training for my 50k, and it couldn't have fallen at a worse time for timing with the kids' schedules. I had 4 (!!!) track meets this week. Additionally, DD picked up a tick on her scalp at one of them (we are assuming since she was laying on the ground a lot while playing with some other kids) that I ended up taking her to Urgent Care when we discovered it the next day to have removed as I wasn't confident I could get the whole thing out on my own at home. Once pathology had ID'ed it she was given antibiotics to knock out any potential nasties that it may have been carrying. I can handle a lot of "gross" things, but ticks really gross me out.
Anyhow, training?
Monday: is a rest day every week. DH and I went for a short 2mi hike on the trail nearby after dinner. This was after attending DS3's track meet (1 down, 3 to go.)
Tuesday: 3mi the only day this week without a meet. Alas, there were many *other* things going on, and I never managed to get on the treadmill.
Wednesday: 4mi I remember Wednesday being really busy, but I cannot remember what exactly was busy about it at this point. I know I picked DD up early from school for DS2's conference championship meet, and we didn't finish that up until after 8pm. Our boys team finished 2nd, but our 4x400 relay team is figuring things out and have gotten a few seconds faster each time. DS2 ran at 2:07 split in the 4x800m relay, but couldn't turn that into a sub-2:10 in the open 800 (which would qualify him for regionals) for whatever reason.
Thursday: 3mi I was finishing up chores just before lunchtime when DD walked into the kitchen and informed me she had a bump on her head. Which ended up being the very engorged tick. So all of my plans for hopping on the treadmill for a quick 3mi before scooting off to DS3's track meet (which was an hour drive away) quickly disappeared.
Friday: rest well I had to do something at this point since I missed all of my other runs so far. I did 3mi easy, and then 1 down-and-up of the big hill on my road before changing my pants and picking DD up from preschool. DS1 was somehow not scheduled to umpire on this night, so he watched DD for me until DH finished baseball practice so I could attend DS2's track meet without having to pause every 3min and go oh my gosh where did she go?! about DD. Because she makes friends with everyone, talks to everyone, plays with everyone, and generally has 0 fear about strangers. DS2 ran a ton of events at this meet (they do a bunch of fun/silly 4x100m relays like the coaches' relay with 2 runner and 2 coaches, the canoe relay with large inflatable dinghies where 4 runners have to wear orange life vests and carry/hand off the dinghy AND the life vests, the shot-putters relay where the baton is a girls' shot, and the jumpers' relay where the baton is a pole vault pole) including the canoe relay, the 4x200m, the 800m, and the 4x400m relay, where he threw down a PR of a 53sec split. Of course, we didn't get home until 11pm, but it was still a fun day, and not freezing cold for once!
Saturday: 6mi easy DH, DD, the pup, and I went over to the trail nearby and walked about 2mi. Even with stopping and waiting a few times for DD and DH to "catch up" we almost kept my "last 10mi" goal pace for August. Of course, I had a dog dragging me along, but still. DH had been at a baseball tournament all day, and for some reason I was exhausted from grocery shopping?
Sunday: 4mi easy 5mi easy. At some point during the week I realized that my spotify premium subscription includes audio books, so I had just started on Kara Goucher's The Longest Race. I opted for this instead of my usual playlists (which I'm getting bored with, but they help with my pacing so much) and it was a nice change. I turned off my auto-lap back in January, and almost never look at my watch during runs at this point which is nice, but also frustrating when I finish up and see that my average pace was really slow during this run. As in, my Friday run was 1:10/mi faster. I could have come back from my run and face-planted on the bed and gone back to sleep. The kids got me some beautiful hanging baskets for Mother's Day, we went out for lunch at the new Indian restaurant (omg it was sooooo good!) and then I took a nap.
I can't tell if I'm just recognizing that I'm likely to come into my 50k undertrained, worried that I might come into my 50k undertrained, have imposter syndrome, or was just overly ambitious when I signed up. I'm not super excited about the idea of the race at this point, but I also just had a horrible run and that's probably coloring my feelings. I think I've done enough Dopeys that I know how much training I'm in for, and I just "don't wanna" right now. And I'm so tired. Things *should* start slowing down with the kids' schedules this week as their seasons wind down, a lot of the seasonal chores have been caught up on, but my motivation in general has been pretty low. I don't want to go on training runs by myself, but there's no one else in my house that wants to go, or would be near my pace if they DID go with me. I'm tired of running the same routes at home, but I don't want to deal with the time or expense of driving somewhere else to run 4 or 5 times a week.