Oh lord...I'm crying buckets here...let's see...maybe all the floral I'd like and maybe a ceremony in front of the castle followed by an amazing reception with dancing and yummy food galore. I'd love for more than just 18 guests to be there because it was so hard to just pick 18. I'd want DF's family to stop acting like this wedding is such an inconvienience...especially when others in my family want so badly to be there...and I'd give anything for my recently deceased mother to be there since it is for her that we are having a DFTW. God, I miss her...I'd give anything to be with my mother just for those few hours...
I'm sorry...I'm having a rough day. DF's family has driven me over the edge (don't get me wrong, I love them...they're just so self-centered sometimes)...I've had a few beers and I miss my mom tremendously...darn it...life is so unfair sometimes...