DoeWDW
I've been a bit naughty since you've been away
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Sadly, Amanda, I did NOT do my Pilates last evening.
I could make lots of excuses about being busy, having battles with my DD, going shopping for Halloween costumes for the kids, etc., but if I honestly look at how I spent my time, I could have done it if I really wanted to. I could have carved out half an hour and I just didn't bother. I was my own worst enemy last evening, with no exercise and very poor food choices involving a few glasses of chardonnay, some chips & some microwave popcorn.
DH and I had an intense political discussion and I just was not focused on how often my hand was travelling to my mouth.
Today is a new day, a new chance to treat myself in a healthy way. Maybe I should go back to what worked in the past:
1. Devotions - a new daily habit I'm working on to help me stay centered and focused.
2. Meds & vitamins
3. Water - lots of it to flush out all the toxins I ingested last night.
4. Food - sensible and healthy choices fit for my dainty
tummy.
5. Exercise - 2 miles of walking AND 20 minutes of the Pilates that I didn't do last evening.
6. 20 minutes of life analysis to think about why my eating has spiralled out of control.
These are not "wish list" items but are important and must be a priority to me. I've got to take good care of me or I won't be able to take care of those around me or the other areas of my life - wife, mom, employee, etc.
I'm tired and my tummy is feeling the effects of that chardonnay, but I must focus on my healthy living goals and move forward.
EDIT: 9 AM
1. Devotional
- it talked about giving my fears to God, and about being an overcomer, not settling for just being a survivor. I've been doing a lot of "just surviving" lately.
6. Life Analysis
- spent 20 minutes and made some progress, more to do though to truly identify those things in my life that make me fearful or uncomfortable or anxious - will do more of this later.
EDIT: 9:45 AM
2. Meds & vitamin
3. Water - finishing 1st mug
4. Food - B = a blueberry bagel with a little butter - a decent choice considering my tummy's reaction to the wine from last night.
I can see that I'm practicing "work avoidance behavior" this morning. I'm going to get off the DIS and get started on those projects - yes projects with an s - that are causing me to feel fearful, anxious and uncomfortable. The only way to make the feelings go away is to tackle the projects, not avoid them and eat to give myself a false feeling of comfort.
EDIT: 1:15 PM
3. Water - only 2 mugs so far - gotta drink!
4. Food - L = the innards of a chicken cheesesteak and as little bread as I could get away with, and a wild cherry Pepsi for the caffeine.
I actually napped during lunch hour - am just so tired. Work is going a bit better - I got a warm pep talk from a wonderful co-worker. She felt I was taking a situation too personally and the person at the heart of the problem is lashing out in frustration at anyone and everyone, not just me or my performance. I felt better after our chat!
EDIT: 8:45 PM
I did great in all areas today for the most part. I did get my walk in with DH - we did 3.75 miles instead of 2 miles.
Food at home this evening hasn't been great but c'est la vie! No Pilates yet but the day isn't over. 


Today is a new day, a new chance to treat myself in a healthy way. Maybe I should go back to what worked in the past:
1. Devotions - a new daily habit I'm working on to help me stay centered and focused.
2. Meds & vitamins
3. Water - lots of it to flush out all the toxins I ingested last night.
4. Food - sensible and healthy choices fit for my dainty

5. Exercise - 2 miles of walking AND 20 minutes of the Pilates that I didn't do last evening.
6. 20 minutes of life analysis to think about why my eating has spiralled out of control.
These are not "wish list" items but are important and must be a priority to me. I've got to take good care of me or I won't be able to take care of those around me or the other areas of my life - wife, mom, employee, etc.
I'm tired and my tummy is feeling the effects of that chardonnay, but I must focus on my healthy living goals and move forward.
EDIT: 9 AM
1. Devotional

6. Life Analysis

EDIT: 9:45 AM
2. Meds & vitamin

3. Water - finishing 1st mug
4. Food - B = a blueberry bagel with a little butter - a decent choice considering my tummy's reaction to the wine from last night.

I can see that I'm practicing "work avoidance behavior" this morning. I'm going to get off the DIS and get started on those projects - yes projects with an s - that are causing me to feel fearful, anxious and uncomfortable. The only way to make the feelings go away is to tackle the projects, not avoid them and eat to give myself a false feeling of comfort.
EDIT: 1:15 PM
3. Water - only 2 mugs so far - gotta drink!
4. Food - L = the innards of a chicken cheesesteak and as little bread as I could get away with, and a wild cherry Pepsi for the caffeine.
I actually napped during lunch hour - am just so tired. Work is going a bit better - I got a warm pep talk from a wonderful co-worker. She felt I was taking a situation too personally and the person at the heart of the problem is lashing out in frustration at anyone and everyone, not just me or my performance. I felt better after our chat!
EDIT: 8:45 PM
I did great in all areas today for the most part. I did get my walk in with DH - we did 3.75 miles instead of 2 miles.

