Doreen's New Way of Life (comments are welcome)

[lulu201]

Hi, Doreen. My inbox is ready and waiting now. Sorry for the inconvenience.

Erin

 

[luvmy2sams]

Hi Doe!

I've been away from your journal for far too long. I'm glad that things seem to be looking up for you. The car situation sounds all too familiar to me. I'm glad your friend was able to move it for you so that you're able to relax a little bit.

Dinner out with DH tonight sounds like the perfect way to start the weekend...and the perfect way to unwind after a too stressful day!

Thank you for the encouragement you've been bringing to my journal, especially during the past week when things haven't been going that great in my world. I really appreciate you!

Have a fabulous weekend!

~Angela

 

[DoeWDW]

Well, I made it home without any trouble - YAY!

I won't be going out to dinner. My 14 yr old DD & two friends were supposed to have a sleepover at one of THEIR houses - now they're all here for the night. I don't really mind - they're all good kids and they'll have a great time together. At the moment they're out decorating the driveway with sidewalk chalk and playing hopscotch! I'm hardboiling 3 dozen eggs for them to dye later. Gotta keep 'em busy!!

Thank you all for encouraging me today. I feel much better now that I'm home again.

 

[LAinSEA]

Doreen:

You've been through the ringer today - I'm so sorry. But you have survived!

The admin part of our office are all out today - funny I thought we'd traded Jan. 2 for Good Friday this year - but the other half of the building didn't seem to see things that way. (They took off most of the time between Christmas eve and Jan. 5 too.) The only good thing about them being gone is that there is actually a place for the late afternoon TV crew to park today!

Have an absolutely delightful time decorating eggs with DD and her friends. It sounds like such fun!

-Laurie
Happy Easter!

 

[lulu201]

Good morning, Doreen! It's a beautiful morning, isn't it? I just wanted to pop over and say hello before we both got started on the day. Enjoy!

Erin

 

[DoeWDW]

Oh, look! A journal to help me on my road to healthy living!! What's healthy living again?? I must've taken a detour somewhere because I've been nowhere even close to the healthy living road.

Today is a new day, but it IS Easter Sunday. Now, I do NOT want to use this as an excuse to binge (boy, do I KNOW what binge eating feels like! ) but I am going to cut myself a little slack when we are out and about today.

So my goals for today are pretty simple. Take my meds (which I missed again yesterday) and do not binge-eat. Be conscious about what goes in my mouth.

I'm deep in the D-Zone AND trying to find my way back to the healthy living road, so I'm taking baby steps today - take meds & no binge. That's it! Anything else is a bonus.

Tomorrow I think I'll try to get back to business as usual. I miss it! I miss the structure and the habits and feeling good and feeling comfortable knowing I'm doing the best I can for me. I WANT to get back on the wagon, so I'll be moving in that direction. I may do limited goals again tomorrow but I'll be making steady progress back to my healthy living road. I feel at home there - I want to go home.

I wish you all a blessed Easter Sunday.

 

[lulu201]

Good morning, dearest WISH-sis.Happy Easter. I want to go home, too. We'll start heading for it tomorrow, OK? Today we'll just pack our bags and get ready for the trip.

Doreen, I'm praying that this Easter brings you joy and hope that never goes away. My love to you and yours,
Erin

 

[DoeWDW]

Good morning, all!!

I met my goals yesterday of taking my meds and not binging.....baby steps, baby steps.

Today is a new day! I started my morning right with my Pilates deluxe routine - felt good! Now I'm at work and ready to dive into all the tasks of my day. I can't stay on WISH today and read journals - got WORK to do! I'm thinking of everyone though and I'll be getting around to journals soon enough!

Goals today:
1. Meds & vitamins must be taken.
2. 5 mugs of water.
3. Food - 60g carbs or less.
4. Exercise - Pilates deluxe done and a 15 minute walk sometime today.

Back to business! Back to my familiar healthy living routines, my comfort zone!

EDIT: 9:30 AM
1. Meds & vitamins taken.
3. B = 5 baby carrots, 7 almonds, 1 string cheese, apple w/ PB - I was hungry!

 

[Strings]

Hi Doe,

Great job yesterday. You sound so postive today. I know you will meet all your goals today. Take care of yourself.


Beth

 

[septbride2002]

Hi Doe! How are ya today? I hope your Easter was good! Your Countdown is getting so low in numbers! I am so jealous - can I come with you guys to WDW? PLEASE!

~Amanda

 

[sharoncity]

Hi Doe!
Well, how did your Monday turn out? Good I bet!!
Way to get back to your program! And how nice that it feels good to you and comfortable. THAT is progress. That you'd rather this way of living than the old way. Good for you!
Have a nice evening. I hope it is peaceful and relaxing for you!
TTFN-
Sharon

 

[Auntmeme]

Hope your Easter went well! You'll be fine. You are such a strong woman, look how far you have come. Hugs to you

Hvae a great day, here's some sun ( since we're not getting the real thing) to brighten up your life!

 

[DoeWDW]

I had great intentions yesterday, and they lasted until early afternoon, when they were overcome by the voices from the EVM. I am DEEP in the D-Zone and I've been off plan. This usually adds up to big trouble for me and now is no exception. I ended up having a major chocolate binge throughout the afternoon and evening yesterday. I just CRAVED it - no other way to explain it. I'm guessing my seritonin levels are very low and my female hormones are running amuck prior to my period (sorry Dax! ).

In months past, this whole situation would have me panicked. I would wonder if I'll EVER get back on plan, will I just be out of control and gain back all the weight I've lost? Now I know that this is a temporary thing that will only last a few more days. My job is to minimize the damage and ride the wave .

I also know that it is very easy for me to feel overwhelmed at this time. I think that played into the binge yesterday. I WANTED to be back on plan but I was fighting an uphill battle - once I slipped, I lost all hope and gave up on all my goals. Today I'm going to do what works for me - I'm going to scale back my goals and celebrate the baby steps I take in the right direction.

Therefore today's revised goals are:
1. Meds and vitamins - I need them!
2. Water - 5 mugs to fight the bloating I've got right now!
3. Food - eat reasonably well and NO BINGE!! I won't be counting carbs but I won't be overindulging either.
4. Exercise - I haven't done any yet and it's a yucky, rainy day outside again. I know this would help but I'm not making any promises, because too many goals will just overwhelm me. How about if I make an effort to take more steps than usual today - take the long way to where I'm walking, use the stairs a little more, etc. That sounds reasonable.

A few more days and I'll be feeling fine and in control again. Right now, I've got the blue funk and painful water retention to deal with. Scaling back my goals seems like a good compromise - it's gotta be better than throwing in the towel and eating chocolate at every turn yesterday! At least I haven't lost my sense of humor. I'm not feeling totally sunny but I'm not as down as I've been in the past at this time - we'll call me partly cloudy!

I'll do what I did yesterday - do some work and then reward myself with a peek into a few WISH journals! Journal therapy is really great for me around this time - if I focus too much on myself, I tend to spiral down. If I visit with my journal friends, I can encourage them while taking my focus off myself and avoiding that downward spiral.

Onward I go!

 

[Strings]

Doe,

I think you are definately doing the right thing scaling back on your goals for today. Meds and water are the most important thing at the moment. Break things down to what is managable and avoid stress today. I hope that work is just routine today. Take care of yoursself today. I'll be sending your way, andd I'll even thow in a prayer or two.


Beth

 

[sharoncity]

Good Luck on your journey today Doe! I know how much you have struggled with this in past months. I like your goals and ideas for today. I think you have set very realistic goals for yourself. Here's hoping you have smooth today!
I don't have any to send you, but lets pretend I do!
here's some for your Tuesday!
Have a great day! Take GOOD care of you!!
TTFN-
Sharon

 

[septbride2002]

Hi Doe! The D-zone sucks and makes you feel like you are doing this -> But you will get through it and we will be back on our way! Really by realizing the D-zone and taking action really puts you in the driver's seat rather then the EVM. Have a great day today Doe! Remember to take deep breaths and do something good for yourself today!

~Amanda

 

[DoeWDW]

Beth, Sharon and Amanda - It's posts like yours that keep me goin'!! Thank you all!

I've taken my meds & vitamins, had 1 mug of water and had a little oatmeal (w/ some raisins & a little brown sugar) and an apple w/ PB for breakfast. I've enjoyed visiting some journals and now I'm going to do some actual WORK! Sure wish I could DIS all day, though!

 

[vald1977]

Hi Doreen,
I'm sending some more positive vibes your way to get through they day without a binge . It sounds like you have a great plan in order to get you through this rough time which is so important. Just reading about how you handle these things makes it easier for me to handle it in my own life so thanks for sharing .

 

[mickeysdsnyprncs]

Just remember baby steps are a good thing. Slowly getting yourself back into the groove will help you rather than jumping full fledge back in, a little chocolate doesn't hurt either. Just eat it in moderation. I don't keep any in the house, along with soda. So in turn I do not consume them as much. Hope this helps. Stay in good spirits.

 

[gadizlover]

Hey Doe-
I just have to say how amazing it is that you can keep up with so many journals- you are a ray of sunshine in my day when you post.

So sorry you are going thru this "challenge". I mean come on- its bad enough you are craving chocolate- but then the EVM is actually calling you over? What is up with that? I think that is a VEVM. And not just one voice but many voices? The nerve. Just a warning- be careful when you answer back that you are by yourself, people may start to talk .

Seriously though, you know this will pass, just try to tread water for a little longer, you will be back in the driver's seat again. (Gee, could I put a few more cliche's in there?)

Thinking good thoughts for ya