Doreen's Fresh Start & Success Story! (Welcome Friends!)

[Auntmeme]

I saw your new title and had to pop in. Way to go with the 3 lb loss I am so happy for you & proud of you ( all except that hershey bar ) well I know you will be back on track soon enough. Oh yeah a 4 miles walk too - you go Doreen!

I have been sick and out of commission(head cold) and busy with other stuff, you know the normal crazy stuff So sorry I have yet to read your new 4 pages, but I will.

Here's to you starting anew!

 

[Strings]

Congrats on the AWESOME loss Doreen!

I hope you are feeling better. You have been on a roll. I am so proud of you. As for the trainer, I think it is important to find someone you are dmfortable with. The trainers at the Y help with stretching and positioning. If you aren;t comfortable with a trainer, it won't work. Ask about another trainer.

Have sweet dreams tonight,
Beth

 

[sarahsmom73]

To you!

 

[lulu201]

Hey, girl. . .how's it going this morning? Did things end up OK yesterday? I hope you got out and walked around the block at least--the weather was so nice.

Here's some for your day. I know that you've got a lot on your plate right now; just do what you can do. Remember, though, that taking care of yourself MUST be up there on the top of your list.

for you, dear WISH-sis.
Erin

 

[septbride2002]

Hi Sweetie! I missed you yesterday. I hope you are doing okay today

~Amanda

 

[toystoryduo]

Way to go Doe!!!

3 pounds down in one week is awesome! Keep up the good work!

 

[lulu201]

Stopping by this afternoon to send a little love.

Erin

 

[Strings]

Hi Doreen,

I hope you are doing ok. I know your workload is sky high right now. Remember to take care of yourself. Get lots of rest tonight, sweetie.

Beth

 

[DoeWDW]

The day is practically over - can't believe I didn't post a journal entry this morning! I was out of my usual routine and when that happens, things slip. Today it was my journal entry.

The family had dental appointments in the morning. I didn't bother going to work - not enough time left in the day to justify the commute. Tonight DH & I had a meeting to attend.

Today:
1. Devotions - Beauty comes from within. When you first met your husband, do you remember how the whole world looked brighter? That was the influence of the love inside of you. Loving God can help us see the world with more love, which makes us more attractive from the inside out.
2. Pills - taken.
3. Water - a lot but not enough for a smilie.
4. Healthy eating - honestly, no.
5. Exercise - honestly, no.
6. Bedtime - 10 PM. Tonight it will be around 10:15 - as soon as I post this.

I earned 2 smilies. I need to do better tomorrow. I am feeling more rested - had a wonderful long nap this afternoon.

Time for bed!

 

[sarahsmom73]

Here's hoping you have a great day!!!

 

[wilderness01]

You sounded so peaceful in your post yesterday. I liked actually reading about the beauty within. You are so right that everything did look so bright......something to think about.

Hope today is a nice day for you.

 

[DoeWDW]

Time to reflect on the past few days and admit things are not going the way I want them to go. Looking at it objectively, I can see that my depression symptoms were very apparent - the fatigue, not caring about food or exercise or routine chores, feeling overly anxious, spending way too much time in escape activities, etc. Why is it so hard to see these things when they first start?

So WHY is my depression rearing its ugly head? Work stress is at the top of the list (again ). There is one project in particular that I've been avoiding because I don't feel up to it. The truth is that getting through it is the only way for me to feel better. For those of you who have been with me for a while, this is nothing new, but it seems like a lesson I need to learn over and over. I can be so hardheaded at times.

Today I will focus my energies on getting this project done so I can move on to lots of other things on my desk. I'm going to pray for strength and then hold my head up high, give myself a good pep talk, and jump in to get it finished!

Today:
1. Devotional - Menu planning can lead to a simpler, less stressful life. I think we WISH-gals have figured this one out already!
2. Pills - out and ready to take with breakfast.
3. Water - on my first of 4 mugs (64 oz total).
4. Healthy eating - YES!! B will be apple w/ PB, AM snack will be 1 oz cashews, L will be a healthy wrap from the cafeteria during a lunch meeting, D will be either chicken parmesan or crab cakes.
5. Exercise - A stop by the health club after work for a trip around the weight circuit and a mile on the treadie.
6. Bedtime - 10 PM.

 

[septbride2002]

Morning Girlie! Sounds like you've had a rough couple of days. Me too!!! Healthy Eating is always the first thing to fall off the list. But I know both of us are going to be doing SO much better today. We have a plan, now we just need to go on auto pilot and follow the plan. You know once you put in a good solid 2 or 3 hours on your project today that you will start to feel better. Be sure to update us at lunch on how it is going.

Thanks for the PM.

~Amanda

 

[wilderness01]

depression symptoms were very apparent - the fatigue, not caring about food or exercise or routine chores, feeling overly anxious, spending way too much time in escape activities, etc.

Oh boydo I feel like a dope! I thought you were just taking an off day yesterday and really when I read your post from yesterday you sounded peaceful! It is good you are so intune with yourself. Take care. I hope today is a better day for you.

 

[DoeWDW]

Wilderness, you certainly are not a dope. Last evening, when I wrote my journal I WAS feeling peaceful. I think I just needed some time off work and a long nap to gain some perspective.

Time for plan B - I just found out I need to attend 3 different meetings today - 12 to 1, 1 to 1:30 and 1:30 to 3, and all on different projects. Guess I'll be spending the morning doing meeting prep. The big project will have to wait until that is finished. I'm taking deep breaths and praying, a LOT! I can feel this anxiety and still function. It's OK to feel the fear without letting it take over. I know that I'll feel better when these meetings are over, regardless of how they turn out.

So far:
1. Devotions - done
2. Pills - taken
3. Water - on mug 2 of 4. Gotta drink now because I won't be able to visit the li'l girls' room during my meeting marathon.
4. Healthy eating - B = apple w/ PB. I'm on track and will NOT let the anxiety take this smilie from me.
5. Exercise - I will NEED to make this a priority to help get rid of my anxiety and stress.
6. Bedtime - 10 PM. I'll be feeling better by then.

 

[pettyone]

Here is a hug for a better day...

 

[sarahsmom73]

Doe... I was recently diagnosed with depression. I had no idea that is why I couldn't sleep, was very irritible etc... Luckily I was in tune with my body to know that something wasn't right.... This is my 4th week on meds and there are things that are better somewhat, but the past week has been rough for me. I'm not sleeping well again and I am way more emotional than I have been since starting the meds... Everyone has talked about you and how you handle your depression and so for this you are more of an inspiration than you'll ever know...

I hope things begin to turn around for you!

 

[wilderness01]

Thanks Doe. I was feeling terrible if I misread your post from the night before and hurt your feelings. I am usually pretty good at interpreting how someone is feeling, must be a job related talent, so I feel better that I didn't hurt you. I agree, you are so open about the depression that it is an inspiration. I hope your meetings are going well.

 

[pearlieq]

I hope things go well for you today--I know how those meeting marathons can be!

Sending your way!

 

[DoeWDW]

I survived all 3 meetings and each of them went better than expected. AHHHHHHH (can you hear my big sigh of relief? )

Yet another update to my stats:
1.
2.
3. Water - on my 3rd mug of 4.
4. Healthy eating - B was my apple w/ PB, L was yogurt w/ almonds, snack (right now) is 1 oz. cashews. D will be low carb and I WILL earn this smilie!
5. Exercise - right after work I'm heading to the gym. It's going to feel so good to work off this stress. Plus the endorphins I'll generate will help with my depression. Working out tonight is not optional - I NEED to do this. I know I'll be tempted to just head home but I WILL earn this smilie too!
6. Bedtime - 10 PM, if I can make it that long.

I'm determined to have a 6 smilie day! I'm doing all I can do to help get rid of these anxious feelings and confront my issues head on. In a prior life, I would have gone home and eaten an entire pint of Ben & Jerry's. Not this time!! I don't know about tomorrow, but for the next 6.6 hours (until bedtime) I'm going to do the things that lead to healthy living!!