Dissappointed in Life.

[imabrat]

Okay,I just need to vent somewhere.
And I know this is a place I can vent without getting a biased opinion.

For the past three months,my life has just done a 180 degree change.
I should be a normal 14 year old girl,worrying if my hair is straight enough,if my make-up is on right,or if we're gonna win our next game.
Not a 14 year old girl who's worried if her hair will ever grow back,if she'll be strong enough to eat another meal,or if she'll ever walk the same again.
It's just been sooooo tough.

And I can't help but feel angry.
At God,at Life,at I don't know who or what.
You see,between me and my sister,I've always been the sick or injured child.
Heck,It started at birth.
I had the umbilical cord wrapped around my neck 6 times and if I hadn't been born C-Section,I would've died.
I'm always the one getting an ear infection,a disease,or a broken bone.
And all I can help wondering is "Why me?"
I know it sounds harsh,cold,and heart-less,but why for once can't my sister get sick?

I just HATE cancer.
Everyone tries to relate to me when I say I'm hungry, or I'm tired.
But in reality,they have no idea!
They don't know what it's like to be a cancer patient.
They don't know what living life in jeopardy is like.
And it just angers me sooo much.
I'm so grateful for them to try and relate,but they just don't know what it's like.

So yeah, I just needed a place to vent.
To let things go.
I'm sure later on I'll add some more stuff,but for now,that's it.
Thanks everyone,
Sonya.

 

[Sparx]

Sonya, sweetheart, you're such an amazing person. Do you know that?

I can't relate to you, so I won't try to. I've been hurt, but not like you hurt. I've been tired and hungry and in pain and in and out of hospitals, but I couldn't do what you do. You're the strongest person I know and I am blessed to have you in my life.

You mentioned god, so I'm assuming you have faith. The Christian faith teaches that god will not give you any more than you can handle, and sonya, you're handing it beautifully.

My PM box is always open. it may take me some time to get back to you, but I promise I will. If you ever need me, I'm here.

 

[Sparkle_Cherry]

Cancer is a terrible disease. But I would NEVER wish it upon someone close to me.

 

[BabyPiglet]

Sonya, just remember there's always some kind of light at the end of the tunnel. Everything will work out, just keep staying strong.

I really hope life can start getting more normal for you eventually.

 

[2HOT2touch]

I'm sorry. I honestly don't know what to say, I have no idea what you are going through. I mean right now I am in tremendous amount of pain and can barely breathe because it is pre-season and I have sports like 5 hours a day, but that can never measure up to what you are going through. I would never be able to do it, I am terrified of hospitals. I think you are doing great and your complaints are justified and ligitimate. good luck, stay strong.

 

[Babyjustrun]

I'm really sorry, but I really admire people like you, people who do fight cancer. Some people just figure 'Oh you have to fight cancer, you don't really have a choice.'
But you really do. Just hold strong, if you stay negative, well you could just become just overburdened to the point where you give up. Once you have it in your mind, that you're probably never going to live the same, you kind of believe that you won't, and that you're not even going to bother to try.

But I believe you will, you've made it this far, and I really, really have faith that you will make it through. Just really, keep a good open mind about everything.
I really hope that you get better.
Is there anywhere, like a center in the hospital where you co uld meet up with other patients and talk about everything?

 

[Tinkerbell424]

I'm really sorry, but I really admire people like you, people who do fight cancer. Some people just figure 'Oh you have to fight cancer, you don't really have a choice.'
But you really do. Just hold strong, if you stay negative, well you could just become just overburdened to the point where you give up. Once you have it in your mind, that you're probably never going to live the same, you kind of believe that you won't, and that you're not even going to bother to try.

But I believe you will, you've made it this far, and I really, really have faith that you will make it through. Just really, keep a good open mind about everything.
I really hope that you get better.
Is there anywhere, like a center in the hospital where you co uld meet up with other patients and talk about everything?

I totally agree.
Sonya you are so strong. And I pray for you and keep you in my thoughts everyday.

If you ever want to vent or just talk,you can always PM me
Stay Strong<3

 

[pigletgirl]

Sonya, you are one of the bravest girls I know. I'm not sure many people would still be so strong after all you have gone through. It does feel like nothing is going right and your life sucks, but really most of us are living like that. It may not come in a physical form, but there are others more or less in your same shoes asking the same questions. Why me?

But in all of that, there is a reason for this, for what I haven't a clue. God does work in mysterious ways.

Hang in there. You're in my prayers everyday.

Stay strong!!!!

 

[DramaQueen]

Sonya my dear, I have SO much respect for you! you are only 14 years old, and you are handling this like a champ.
I can't even begin to imagine how hard this is for you. And I truly believe that you'll get through this with an amazing story to tell.

You are SO strong and so brave, and I admire you so much.
Know that you are in my prayers, and that I truly respect and care about you!




stay strong girl!! you'll get through this.
All of us at the Dis are here for you!!

 

[Disney.Ears]

Sonya

I'm so sorry this is all coming down hard for you. I can't imagine what your life has been like thus far. You're doing great, we all believe you'll make it! Because everything is going to be okay. Stay strong, lots of hugs Pixie Dust and lots of friends here on the DIS

 

[::Snow_White::]

Sonya your an amazingly strong person and I couldn't imagine what your going through.
Your very young and handling this extremely well and your very brave and I have alot of respect for you. Everything is going to get better.



Stay strong. Pixie Dust is coming.
We care about you alot.

 

[Tinkerrat]

i know i can't relate to you, but my heart goes out for
the best thing for you to do right now is pray
ask God to give you strenght and understanding while you are in this hard time
and when you asked why me
it made me think
why not me
i mean what if you didn't have cancer and someone else did
how would you feel then
anything can happen to anyone but God chooses specific people
people who will make a difference and glorify Him
i will keep you in my prayers
may God bless

 

[tinkerbellblondie19]

Cancer is one of those things-Those things that you can't figure out why only some people, perfectly good people, people who have never done anything to truly hurt anyone else in their lives, people who haven't even gotten the chance to live full lives, have to suffer it. And yet, people murder and rape everyday, and they don't end up suffering.