Dis Breast Cancer Survivors Part II -GAGWTA!

[MerryPoppins]

I hope you guys don't think I'm nuts. I've had several powerful experiences that I believe were real. I know they're kind of "out there". But I feel I know y'all well enough to share.

 

[laurabelle]

No Melissa, I don't think you're nuts at all sista! I have had my share of personal spiritual experiences...

 

[jackskellingtonsgirl]

I hope you guys don't think I'm nuts. I've had several powerful experiences that I believe were real. I know they're kind of "out there". But I feel I know y'all well enough to share.

I don't think you are nuts at all! What a wonderful story!

When my very dear friend passed away unexpectedly I had a dream about him. He was showing me where he had gone - it was beautiful, very pastel. The air was very cold, but he didn't mind. It just felt cold to me, not to him. He wanted me to know he was in a good place.

I am not terribly spiritual, but I believe that dream was real. It brought me a lot of comfort at the time. My DS remembers me telling him about my dream, and it comforts him, too.

Laura - Ugh! I am so sorry the insurance is playing games! Hopefully you will have a WONDERFUL trip and return to good news!

Lots of and all around!

I am still waiting to hear from my mom about her latest biopsies. I wish she would have paid attention to when the results were supposed to be back!

 

[laurabelle]

When my very dear friend passed away unexpectedly I had a dream about him. He was showing me where he had gone - it was beautiful, very pastel. The air was very cold, but he didn't mind. It just felt cold to me, not to him. He wanted me to know he was in a good place.

That made me smile, especially knowing your friend was in a cool place...and not a hot one!

 

[jackskellingtonsgirl]

That made me smile, especially knowing your friend was in a cool place...and not a hot one!

I never thought of it like that! But I felt very peaceful after that, even though I was very sad.

 

[DeeCeeSW]

Hi Ladies,

Sorry, I've been MIA on the boards lately, getting ready for surgery, which is taking place in TWO DAYS! Needless to say, I am nervous and anxious, feel like puking, have done some crying, but on the same token, I am relieved that this part will be over with soon!

Went out for a nice sushi dinner on Saturday and tomorrow night I plan on having some sort of "bye bye ****ies" ceremony, lol.

I feel fortunate to have found this thread and you all have helped me a great deal. THANK YOU!

I'll write again when I'm able.

See ya on the other side.

Health and happiness to all,

Dawn

 

[MerryPoppins]

Dawn, hang in there. We'll be waiting for word from you when it's all over. You're in my thoughts and prayers.

Someone once told me that she visualized God in her prayer sometimes as a mother cuddling a toddler to her breast. Remember how safe and comforted we felt when we were small and mother gathered us in her arms? These next few days, try visualizing that. God gathering you safely in his arms to comfort you. It helps me when I'm feeling afraid. I'm thinking of you.

 

[snappy]

Lovely post, Merry, really very lovely.

I am loving this thread these last days.

Dawn, when I had my reconstruction in 2006, the ladies here cheered me on. I even told DH to post when I was home before I felt like it so the sistas here would know I was AOK.

Not sure if he really did, I can't remember squat these days.

I knew my friends here were praying for me, as we will for you.

If you can swing it, ask your DH to post. If not, we will see you on the other side.

Laurie

 

[Pea-n-Me]

Dawn

Sam

Merry, cool story.

Long class today, I'm completely exhausted. Never even got out of PJs yesterday.

GAGWTA

 

[NHAnn]

Merry....LOVED that story, thank you EVER so much for sharing that.

In our family, we are convinced that Avery's sister Delaney carries the spririt of DH's aunt. When DIL was pregnant, Auntie, in her late 90's, was living out her final days with my SIl (DH''s sis). SIL said DS and DIL came to visit with little Avery when DIL was pregnant. After they left, Auntie mused a bit about what wonderful parents they were to Avery, and how the new babay would have a very happy life with them. Auntie died shortly thereafter, a couple of months before Delaney was born. When she was born, DH and I both remarked that she had Auntie's eyes, and she was an old soul from day one. One day when SIL was visiting Avery and both his little sisters after Avery';s release from hospital, SIL was playing on the floor with Delaney. Delaney would have been 3 1/2 to 4 yrs old. . Out of the blue, Delaney looked up and her and smiled and said "I remember I lived with you, when I was very old!"

Dawn, we'll be with you in spirit for surgery and recovery.

Keeping you ALL close in my heart!! GAGWTA!

 

[snappy]

DH had a tough week, but he's ok. I think he just feels like there'll be a big hole in his heart for the rest of his life and there's not a lot he can do to change it. He knows it will get better with time, but for now it's hard to find acceptance.

Everyone's still in shock - it was pretty much the theme of the services. It definitely isn't anything anyone ever dreamed would happen. He, of course, was not only the biggest character in the family, he was what you'd probably consider the healthiest. I've known him since he was in high school so I feel like I watched him grow up, too. We had a lot of fun with him and his wife, including trips and gags back and forth. We watched his beloved dog when they traveled and I'm so glad to think of them together right now.

I understand what you meant when you said emotionally drained, Merry. Last night we were just beat. We've spent the better part of the week over the house (his parents live with them in an inlaw) and when we weren't there we were running around buying suits and nylons and such, things we don't wear too often around here. DH had the added stress of going to the funeral home with SIL to make arrangements, seeing their parents' and his wife and kids' distress, standing in line for the wake, and carrying the casket. The good thing is that both sides of the family and all their many friends really came together and felt a closeness that didn't require words. Lots of hugging going on. It was nice to know we were truly all together in our grief. The family was close before, but I think it's even more so now.

Thanks everyone for your thoughts about us. We had a good showing of family, friends and neighbors, too, which was nice. People have been dropping off food and gift certificates which was really great because I haven't had time to shop or cook, only for what I brought there.

Well off to soccer followed by guitar lessons. I'll shoot some pictures in between with my new camera. So I guess this is the part where we have to go on with our lives. Amazing how life is, isn't it?

Events such as your BIL's death, unexpected and tragic as they are, can bring families together. It is good that your family is closer than ever. It sounds like the friends and neighbors in the community were there for you too with the food and gift certificates.

I bet the pictures you take in this period following this sadness will be more poignant than ever. I am glad you have that new camera. It should bring you peace to use it. You really have a gift with photography. Please continue to share your pictures. Thinking about you and hoping you are taking care of yourself.

Staying in pj's sounds like a good plan or god plan as I originally typed. Either my typing skills are fading fast or my keyboard can't keep up with my brain, I am not sure which but spaces and many letters I think I am typing just don't show up. Not good.

Laurie

 

[lookingforward]

Hi Ladies,

Sorry, I've been MIA on the boards lately, getting ready for surgery, which is taking place in TWO DAYS! Needless to say, I am nervous and anxious, feel like puking, have done some crying, but on the same token, I am relieved that this part will be over with soon!

Went out for a nice sushi dinner on Saturday and tomorrow night I plan on having some sort of "bye bye ****ies" ceremony, lol.

I feel fortunate to have found this thread and you all have helped me a great deal. THANK YOU!

I'll write again when I'm able.

See ya on the other side.

Health and happiness to all,

Dawn

Good luck with surgery...you will be in our thoughts! My friend left a note on her chest for the surgeons.

..Take good care of these breasts as they have nursed three children and loved a few men, and I am giving them up to live a healthy life. Take care and thank you.

I thought that was great and used it to explain my own situation...!

 

[jackskellingtonsgirl]

Dawn - Sending you lots of hugs and pixie dust for your surgery!!

 

[MerryPoppins]

Take good care of these breasts as they have nursed three children and loved a few men, and I am giving them up to live a healthy life. Take care and thank you.

I love this!

 

[annrae]

Hi Ladies,

Sorry, I've been MIA on the boards lately, getting ready for surgery, which is taking place in TWO DAYS! Needless to say, I am nervous and anxious, feel like puking, have done some crying, but on the same token, I am relieved that this part will be over with soon!

Went out for a nice sushi dinner on Saturday and tomorrow night I plan on having some sort of "bye bye ****ies" ceremony, lol.

I feel fortunate to have found this thread and you all have helped me a great deal. THANK YOU!

I'll write again when I'm able.

See ya on the other side.

Health and happiness to all,

Dawn

I will be thinking of you when you have your surgery. Good Luck - your posts are so interesting - take care - hugs, Barbara

 

[snappy]

Ann, I just read in a caringbridge update on Avery that he and his family are going to WDW on a Make a Wish trip. How very wonderful!!! This made my day!!

 

[snappy]

Laura, are you ready for your trip? Aren't you leaving for Vegas tomorrow? Hope you are feeling better!!

Happy trails!!

OMG that sure showed my age!!!

 

[laurabelle]

~~~***GAGWTA sistas***~~~

Dawn- I hope everything goes great tomorrow! I had a farewell party for mine too...

Yes, I'm leaving 7:00 am. Eastern time which puts me in Vegas at 9:30 am their time! I am ready to go!!!
I'll be carrying all of you on my back in the RFTC Sat. morning!

Be well sistas!

 

[snappy]

I did not know you were doing the RFTC there, Laura.

Hope the weather is great and that you have a great time with your sistas.

We'll be with you in spirit.

 

[Sha]

First, Dawn... prayers for a speedy recovery from surgery, and for the surgical team and nurses that will be caring for you

I said the other day I had a story to share with you. I can't remember if I've told this story before, but I find it very comforting. First the pre-story. When my DD was very young, she did not really have a vivid imagination. She was more serious and straight-forward...telling things like they were.

My parents had three grandchildren when my dad died....all boys. My dad loved the grandkids, but especially wanted a little girl in the mix. When he passed, my mom smiled that maybe he'd try to get her a girl the next time around. Two more grandchildren came along and we laughed when both were girls. But we never had a reason to tell that story to the kids. I wouldn't have wanted the boys to feel like he cared about them less. It was just something Mom said to me.

When my DD was two, maybe barely three, she happened upon a photo of my dad. (As a note, he had died before I was even pregnant with her.) She looked at the photo thoughtfully and told me that she knew him. I found it interesting that she hadn't asked who he was, but I corrected her. No, she had never known him. But she shook her head, and stated firmly that she remembered him.

She proceeded to tell me that he was a VERY nice man. I listened in shocked silence as she assured me he'd held her before. She remembered the day she was born that he'd held her. In fact, he was the one who had sent her to live with me when she was born. It was only then that she stopped gazing at the photo and asked me his name. "Who is he anyway?", she asked. She was pleased when I told her he was her grandpa.

I firmly believe my father was with my DD's spirit before she was born. I am comforted that he knows her and that he's nearby. It really helped me deal with losing him so young.

GAGWTA!

Merry....LOVED that story, thank you EVER so much for sharing that.

In our family, we are convinced that Avery's sister Delaney carries the spririt of DH's aunt. When DIL was pregnant, Auntie, in her late 90's, was living out her final days with my SIl (DH''s sis). SIL said DS and DIL came to visit with little Avery when DIL was pregnant. After they left, Auntie mused a bit about what wonderful parents they were to Avery, and how the new babay would have a very happy life with them. Auntie died shortly thereafter, a couple of months before Delaney was born. When she was born, DH and I both remarked that she had Auntie's eyes, and she was an old soul from day one. One day when SIL was visiting Avery and both his little sisters after Avery';s release from hospital, SIL was playing on the floor with Delaney. Delaney would have been 3 1/2 to 4 yrs old. . Out of the blue, Delaney looked up and her and smiled and said "I remember I lived with you, when I was very old!"

Dawn, we'll be with you in spirit for surgery and recovery.

Keeping you ALL close in my heart!! GAGWTA!

WOW!!!! I think that things like this are so possible and just gives me reasons to think that 2 things I have thoughts and memories of might be real after all...

1) my Grandmother had a sister who died of TB LONG before I was a thought. I for no known reason, am the only child (and youngest) who out of the blue started calling my Grandmother Mimi! Not even close to her name. No nicknames or anything. The only thing I can now tie it too is that there is a Chinese word for sister which is Meimei (a stretch maybe)...

2) I remember swearing up and down to my mom that I remembered seeing my sisters watching a tv that we had and described the scene. My mom says there is no way as I wasnt born then. The other thing is... there are no pictures of this time that they lived in because it was when my dad had to go to NY for school and the family went since it was for 6 months.

am glad to know its not just me!!!

Ladies.. it's official btw, I am graduating on Friday!!! And I am 5 classes from my AA in nursing (basically the pre-reqs for BSN). I then turned in my ID badge for school and felt sad about that.... until I got my cap and gown 5 minutes later and then was walking 3 ft off the ground!!!!