Desiree's There and Back Again Journal - Comments welcome!

[myhandd]

Desiree,

Look at it this way, you guys only lose to us what every 13 or 14 years, you've had a long time to prepare.

What an awesome game for you guys against Auburn! That took major guts to go for the pass with that little time left.

Talk to you later!

Dax

 

[myhandd]

Desiree,

The fam and I will be at WDW from Nov. 25-Dec 2 at the Wilderness Lodge! Wanted to let you know!

Your Tigers are still rolling....

Did you see my bball Wildcats lose to....yes I can say it, I think I can say it.....Gardner-Webb. Is that really a college.....they aren't supposed to beat us, don't they realize our jerseys have KENTUCKY written across them????!!!!!

Anyway, I will try to post pics after the trip...

Later!

Dax

 

[Desiree]

Hey Daxx, Where are those pics?!?!?!?!


I say as I sneak back in here. I am so very sick of this yo-yo. I'm sick of not telling people that I'm on a diet because I'm afraid I'll fail again. I'm ready for a change not just in my habits but in my life. I'm sick of having to squeeze into our basketball seats at the PMAC. And toes? What are they? Do they belong on your feet? I wouldn't know as I haven't seen 'em in a very long time. I'm so tired of avoiding my friends for fear of what they think when they see me. I'm just plain tired.

But I'm determined. (Yes, I know I've said that before). I've got some strong allies with me now. My husband is going to do this to. My mom, who is a big inspiration has already lost almost 40 pounds. (We started last year at the same time so that's the point where I "should" be). And my daughter, I need to teach her the right way to do things before she falls into the same trap. She's 13 now and I don't want to see her make the same mistakes I made.

I did manage to loose about 22 pounds but as of today I've gained back 10.6 towards my original all-time high.

My immediate goals are as follows:
* No more sodas. I've done this before many times so I know I can do this again
* More water. Again, I was at a point where I was drinking about 100 oz. a day. I need to get back to that point where I crave the h2o.
* Get off my keister. I have no more excuses there. I just need to do it.
* Log onto Sparkpeople every day and track everything.
* By February, try to get under and remain under that nasty 200 number.

Well that's about it for now.

 

[Desiree]

Well I'm off to a pretty good start! I tracked all my food yesterday and did the elliptical for 30 also. Today I did 30 more and the food looks to be right on track for my daily 1200-1500 target. So far so good! I also signed up for the Biggest Loser challenge here on WISH so I know that motivation will help tremendously also!

Is anyone doing the C25K program? I'm thinking of giving that a try. I may wait until next week to start as my BIL has been staying with us since he's on break from school and I have a really big issue with exercising with non-immediate family members around!

 

[Desiree]

Wow wow. Bumping this up so I can dust it off again. I'll post an update later. Been quite a while since I've been here.

 

[Desiree]

Wow that's quite a pattern I've built there. I never quite seemed to do any more than about 2 months consecutively.

Since my last post on this alot has happened. In July/Aug of '08 I developed blood clots that stemmed from an initial blood infection. I was immobile for roughly 4 months (and hospitialized). Some of the clots turned into some pretty painful dvts and my legs have not been "right" since. But since they found out that I have the clotting disorder, I've been taking my Coumadin faithfully.

August 22nd of this year I started back with a lifestyle change this time, instead of dieting. On that date I weighed in at 240. Only 4 away from my all time high thus far. As of today I'm at 222. So 18 pounds in just about 2 months. I'm very pleased. The inches are coming off slowly too. I started C25K a few weeks ago as well and trying to get to the gym at least 5 times per week.

This has indeed been the longest stretch of time that I've done this and *hopefully* this time there is no stopping now. This time it does feel different. I've got to make the change for me and my health. Also my daughter (who is 17 now.. gosh where has the time gone!?!) has put on quite a bit of weigh herself. I have to set an example for her.

So my plan is this...
*I havent had any sodas in that whole time (2 months tomorrow!)
*Eat 1200 calories per day
*Burn at the very least 2000 calories exercising per week.
*I am not depriving myself anything. I'm still eating that piece of cake if a birthday should pop up, but I'm adjusting my calories accordingly.
*I'm recording EVERYTHING. Handy little fun apps now make this easier than ever. I use Noom to record my food, weight and exercise. And I also have a c25K app that I use for those mornings.

 

[Desiree]

Oh I wanted to add...
We're just in the initial planning stages of our trip to Disney in May. (I haven't been in 5 years.. going through some SERIOUS withdrawl). I want to be at the very least in the 160-170 range if not smaller by the time I get there. This will be our trip celebrating dd's high school graduation! So my thinking is this.. I want to be one of "those" people who get up early and jogs around their resort!

 

[lurkernj]

Oh I wanted to add...
We're just in the initial planning stages of our trip to Disney in May. (I haven't been in 5 years.. going through some SERIOUS withdrawl). I want to be at the very least in the 160-170 range if not smaller by the time I get there. This will be our trip celebrating dd's high school graduation! So my thinking is this.. I want to be one of "those" people who get up early and jogs around their resort!

Great goals!! Five years without a trip. You're definitely overdue.

I was thinking about that jogging around the resort thing too. We're not going until Sept, and don't have any room res. yet, but I'm thinking if our kids come, we'll end up at POR, which is just beautiful, and would be great to jog around. Funny, a couple of weeks ago I couldn't ever imagine myself wondering such a thing.

 

[Desiree]

I know, right? That never would have entered my mindset before. I mean, I know you walk tons at WDW but exercising beforehand. I think I've lost my mind!

The thing is I can visualize myself doing that and that is my happy thought. If only I could get there.... *sigh*

 

[Desiree]

Well today isn't starting off too well. I am up a pound but my official weigh in is tomorrow.

Pet peeve of the day. It seems my family (and I'm just joking here... but it just seems this way to me...) manages to find the most UN-flattering pictures of me to tag on facebook. *sigh*. Oh well I guess I need to turn this around and use it as some incentive.

I just made our grocery/dinner lists for the week and now I"m off to go hit the store, run a few errands and hopefully get to the gym before the LSU game starts.

Have a great weekend everyone!

 

[toystoryduo]

Hey Des! Welcome Back to WISH! It's great to see you here!

I'm sorry to hear about the blood infection and clots. That sounds like some pretty scary stuff. I'm so glad to hear that you are doing much better now!

I like your plan It sounds very do-able. Congrats on losing 18 pounds so far!

By the way... Did you say your DD is 17?!?!? Wow! Time is going by so fast!

I hope you have a nice weekend!

 

[Desiree]

Hey Tracy! Thanks for the welcome back. I can't believe I started this "new" journal in 2006. Sheesh To think how many times I could have been healthy by now and maybe that would have prevented the clots. Who knows.

But the important thing is that I am back and I'm doing it for me.

Yes, you read that right.. DD is 17. I have the grey hairs to prove it too! LOL

 

[Desiree]

So far the weekend has been pretty good. I got ALOT accomplished yesterday between errands, groceries, making our dinner plans for the week and cleaning. Even made it to the gym. And watched the LSU game.

Today I will finish up the laundry, vacuum and relax! (Maybe have a margarita later). I did start week 3 on C25K this morning. I think that is the first time since high school ahem, some 20 years ago that I managed to run 3 minutes consecutively. I'm a little intimidated by next weeks c25k. It's 2 - 5 minute runs.

Well off to go fire up the crock pot. Have a fantastic Sunday everyone!

 

[toystoryduo]

Way to go on your run yesterday!

It sounds like you had a busy, but good weekend.

Have a great day today!

 

[lurkernj]

Congrats on your 3 minute run!! Sounds like your on the right path. Don't fear next week, just take it one day at a time. Next week, just take it 5 minutes at a time. I've been straying from the couch to 5K program and actually running more than I'm supposed to, still doing the run/walk combo, but adding more running, and it really does feel good when I'm done ( got up to 4 min, but will try 5 soon). I'm sure you will be fine. Find a distractor while you're running. For me it has been the DVR. I get engrossed in a program and don't pay as much attention to the time.

 

[Desiree]

Tracy - Thanks! Yes it was productive but I was able to relax and enjoy a visit from a good friend of ours Sunday too.

Lurker - Oh gosh I wish I had a treadmill. I have been running/walking outside and there is no way that I'd run on a treadmill in a gym. At least not until I loose ALOT more weight. I used to have a home elliptical but it didnt come with us when we moved. I regret that now. I ended up giving it to dh's cousin.

I didnt quite finish all my runs today. I got 3 out of 4 and had to literally sprint back home due to a bathroom emergency. So I'm trying to decide if I want to repeat this day or just move on to day 3 on Thursday. I am planning to go to the gym tonight so I won't really feel like I've missed out on that last run. I'll make up for it and then some on the elliptical.

You know what I realized today too. Before in Halloween seasons of the past, I would have already bought a bag of candy for the trick or treaters and started raiding that by now. And I would have also started buying candy to hand out to co-workers (and myself too). So, not only are my co-workers missing out on having candy lying around, my hubby and daughter are missing out too. I have no desire to even get the good stuff so I won't be tempted so even the trick or treaters may be getting the short end of the stick this year!

Ok well I guess I need to get my day started. Have a great Tuesday everyone!

 

[lurkernj]

You know what I realized today too. Before in Halloween seasons of the past, I would have already bought a bag of candy for the trick or treaters and started raiding that by now. And I would have also started buying candy to hand out to co-workers (and myself too). So, not only are my co-workers missing out on having candy lying around, my hubby and daughter are missing out too. I have no desire to even get the good stuff so I won't be tempted so even the trick or treaters may be getting the short end of the stick this year!

Ok well I guess I need to get my day started. Have a great Tuesday everyone!

Good for you on the candy!!! I don't buy the good stuff anymore either (Milky way, 100 Grand mmmmm). We rarely even get any trick or treaters (live on a main road), so most of it is left over and I will eat it. I was thinking to get some of those big nabisco cookie packs this year, then if they don't go, the kids can take them to school for snacks/lunch.

Keep up the good work on your exercising!!!

 

[Desiree]

Thanks Lurker! You too!

I ended up doing c25k back to back yesterday & this morning and today and I totally felt it. My legs felt like lead. I don't think I'll be running back to back anymore and I will totally cherish my rest days. I did also go to the gym last night too and did 35 min on the elliptical. So I'm pretty sure I will skip running tomorrow and just do my normal weight lifting at the gym either tonight or tomorrow afternoon. Then I'll pick back up and repeat a day on c25k on Friday morning.

I peaked at the scale this morning and I'm still hovering at 2 pounds over since last week. Not happy about that but my eating has been OP all week long and of course the exercise is there. I was really hoping to be in the 2-teens by next weigh in. I want to reach ONEderland by New Years.

 

[dragitoff]

Saw where you had been 5 years since your last Disney trip! God bless you! I would have been committed to a mental institute by now!

Glad you're back on the right path consistently! Keep it up!

 

[Desiree]

Drag - dont I know it! I'd be right there with you. Trips seem to get fewer and far between when you have to actually pay for them! LOL But alas, hoping that will change now. We've been in our house a few years now so just adding some padding to the ole savings account and hoping that I can start going more regularly. I have a dream to one day run one of the Disney races!

But, ironically enough my dad called me this morning and we are all going to gather at mom and dad's tonight to discuss our plans and hopefully (*fingers crossed*) go ahead and book our trip! I think choirs of angels just started singing! So now to get down to business. Is 50 pounds too much to lose by May?!