depression is back....

[Kennywife]

I just feel so bad. I have reoccurring depression and it's back. I feel worthless right now. It's been a rough year financially and even though things are finally beginning to look up a little, I just feel beaten down.

We had to move all my work trips to next year b/c finances couldn't handle them, been sick, had a cancer scare (me..they thought I had ovarian cancer, turned out to be fibroids), seizures acting up, and now hubby and I are snipping at each other over just little things.

I don't want to study for school, but I did anyway and did very well on my work. I don't feel like working or doing anything. I just feel blah.

Sorry for being a whiny butt. I just needed to get it out.

Anna

 

[teacups]

Hang in there. Life sucks sometimes, but somehow always manages to get better again. Sorry you feel like this now.

 

[locolala]

Oh hun, I'm sorry you're having to deal with all that crud. I've dealt with depression for 10 years so I know how you're feeling. Are you able to take daily walks? Exercise and sunlight are AMAZING for depression. Find something you can do everyday that brings you joy, even if it's just sitting outside and looking at the local wildlife. Plant a fall garden if you can, even do small window boxes if you live in an apartment. I promise you, finding something to make you smile, even for a second, will help!

 

[AnnR]

I am depressed too. I take medication for it but it seems like it is just a bad year all around. I know a lot of people who are not happy right now. I have to believe it is going to get better.

Do you take any medication? I know a lot of people don't like to but your brain chemicals do go haywire sometimes and you need something to help fix it.

Try watching funny movies if you can. Or reading a good book, just stay away from ones that will bring you down, read lite books.

Anyhow, I hope you feel better real soon. Do take walks and go outside, it does help. Nature can help heal. Light outside is much brighter then inside even on a cloudy day, it has been proven to improve mood.

Take care of yourself.

 

[Chris2597]

I hope you start feeling better. Depression can be debilatating. Have you talked to your dr? I agree with another poster that brain chemicals can get out of whack and meds can fix it fairly fast.

 

[Normangirls]

Hey! From one Anna to another!




Hope you find something that helps.


Anna

 

[ginna74]

I know how it feels to be depressed... I am bipolar 2 and have a really hard time sometimes. I hope you get out of it soon and things get back to "normal" .

 

[spacemermaid]

I'm sorry you're feeling bad right now. It's good that you did well with school! Keep up the good work! I've had clinical depression for 10+ years (it comes & it goes), and I've found that if I can find even one thing that interests me & that I can "throw myself into", I'm not completely debilitated by it. It sounds as if you've found that with your school. The health scares I'm sure have not helped & I'm sorry you've had to deal with all that on top of everything else. I second the poster who suggested watching funny movies & reading good books, or just try do do at least one little thing every day that you enjoy. It's no fun being depressed & I hope you start to feel better soon!

 

[a1tinkfans]

Anna
Hang in there...
Get OUTSIDE, get some sunlight and take a WALK, even if for 5 minutes. It can elevate your mood.
You are not alone and many here are thinking about you!

You can do it and YOU WILL Try to find something, anything to keep you occupied and your mind OFF the blahs....

 

[Tigger&Belle]

I'm sorry you're going through all the crap. I was diagnosed with depression about 2 1/2 years ago, and was in a pretty bad place by then, but was suffering undiagnosed for years before that. I'm on a new med now, which may be helping. Interestingly enough, right now I have the most external things ever to be depressed about (just separated from my husband is the biggest thing, with everything to go along with that), but yet I'm not usually feeling depressed. What's made a lot of difference to me is learning that right now I have every reason to be sad and that it's a normal emotion. I'm not trying to hide from it, I'm reaching out for help, I'm under the care of professionals, and things are ok.

You have a lot going on...try to give yourself some leeway. If you're not under the care of a pscyh, make an appt. Be proactive about your health, even if you'd prefer to hide under a rock (not saying that you're that way, but that is how I tend to be). And remember, no matter how bleak things sometimes seem, "this, too, shall pass".

 

[Louise-Montreal]

Been there- you have received a lot of good advice. Hope you are feeling better soon.

 

[hoosll]

I am so sorry that you are having a bad time. I have had cyclical depression for 40 years. One of the things I have learned is that it is a downward spiral which I make worse by magical thinking ... if X happens, I'll feel better ... the problem is that I have no control over X ... if you have these kinds of thoughts then you should concentrate on things you CAN control, take baby steps to feeling in control of things. Many depression spirals are caused by feeling helpless, at the mercy of outside forces ... that's where the magical thinking traps us ... we are looking for a sign from the external world that our life/luck is changing instead of looking inwardly to our own strength.

Hang in there. Perhaps you should start a thankfulness journal where you can record physically or mentally the good things going on.

 

[Tigger&Belle]

I am so sorry that you are having a bad time. I have had cyclical depression for 40 years. One of the things I have learned is that it is a downward spiral which I make worse by magical thinking ... if X happens, I'll feel better ... the problem is that I have no control over X ... if you have these kinds of thoughts then you should concentrate on things you CAN control, take baby steps to feeling in control of things. Many depression spirals are caused by feeling helpless, at the mercy of outside forces ... that's where the magical thinking traps us ... we are looking for a sign from the external world that our life/luck is changing instead of looking inwardly to our own strength.

Hang in there. Perhaps you should start a thankfulness journal where you can record physically or mentally the good things going on.

Very true. All that we really have control over is our thoughts and behavior. I have such a hard time letting go of the idea that I can't change everyone else, but I really have no control over there thoughts and actions. How I react, however.....total control.

I'm reading a book on mindfulness which is helping me a lot. It's called Awakening to Mindfulness. I'm learning how to live in the present day and how to live my life with respect and compassion. I've never taken the time to actually work on myself. What a concept.

 

[3jsmommy]

I am so sorry that you are having a bad time. I have had cyclical depression for 40 years. One of the things I have learned is that it is a downward spiral which I make worse by magical thinking ... if X happens, I'll feel better ... the problem is that I have no control over X ... if you have these kinds of thoughts then you should concentrate on things you CAN control, take baby steps to feeling in control of things. Many depression spirals are caused by feeling helpless, at the mercy of outside forces ... that's where the magical thinking traps us ... we are looking for a sign from the external world that our life/luck is changing instead of looking inwardly to our own strength.

Hang in there. Perhaps you should start a thankfulness journal where you can record physically or mentally the good things going on.

This is such great advice!

 

[Disneylover79]

and if you need to talk feel free to PM me and I would love to talk... please try and keep your head up... you are probably snipping at your DH because you aren't feeling well.... I hope you feel better soon

 

[Kennywife]

Feel a little better today. Kenny (DH) took me to the park for a long walk and we played frisbee golf. I studied French this morning and am now hanging out a while. He told me when he gets his first check from his new job, he wants to treat me to dinner at Cheesecake Factory and a nite at the comedy club. He's a good guy. I apologized for being snippy and he said that he understood and would help out however he could.

Anna

 

[hellokitty86]

Feel a little better today. Kenny (DH) took me to the park for a long walk and we played frisbee golf. I studied French this morning and am now hanging out a while. He told me when he gets his first check from his new job, he wants to treat me to dinner at Cheesecake Factory and a nite at the comedy club. He's a good guy. I apologized for being snippy and he said that he understood and would help out however he could.

Anna

So glad you are feeling a little better today! It will keep getting better, day by day!

 

[Tigger&Belle]

Double post.....somehow. lol

 

[Stitchfans]

Sure hope you feel better I hear that this can really be hard to deal with. No doubt if you are going through rainy season plus it getting chilly already that doesn't help. I can more than understand how the weather can affect someone's mood. If it gets too bad just pop back in here and I'm sure someone will be there to chat with you.

 

[SeaSpray]

I'm glad you're feeling better today. It's not a bad thing to vent when you need to.