Thanks guys…
I really appreciate the concerns and offerings. Like I said, y’all are good folk.
I really didn’t want to come off as just being whiny and figured that the real lesson was to remind myself and those I know that no matter what, it could be worse.
But then again, context is the real difference between information and understanding.
So at the risk of being whiny, here’s the story (and don’t feel like you actually have to read this)…
I took a bit of a trip couple days ago. Total distance traveled: 5 feet; speed at impact: 32 feet per second/per second. Gravity is an unforgiving thing ya’ know. Anyway, I was out back to grab a few tools from the shed for a project when my feet came out from under me while descending the inclined walkway that accesses it (damn rain and wet leaves). Bang, just that fast; landed square on my back. Probably whacked my head as well but at the moment the only thing I was conscious of was that I couldn’t move. Nothing was working. Couldn’t feel the legs, arms flat where they landed, fingers curled up in a ball, nothing responding to my thoughts. That was about 30 seconds of true terror.
Then I noticed that I could lift and move my head but that was still about all at the moment. I tried to holler out to the house but DW was working at the other end with the radio on and wasn’t going to hear me. Time for drastic and foolish measures (because I’m stupid like that). I figured I needed to see what bits of meat I could get any control of. Tried for the toes first and they could wiggle (a very good sign that). Fingers?, still no go, but now I had a pins-n-needles sensation in both arms (and that wasn’t good, but beat the previous nothing). I refocused on the lower body and after a bit was able to get the legs to move a little at the hips and then to raise my arms to where I could see ‘em. Fingers still curled up in a useless ball but I could probably roll if had to and I figured that I probably had to.
Slowly I decided to roll to the left and let myself drop down off the slick ramp and onto the ground. Some more effort and I got to my knees and then I was able to get up on my elbows. Tried once more to get the fingers to do something, anything, bit still nope. I took the backside on one hand and pushed at the other hand’s fingers just to get them to move, then repeated the process the other way. That seemed to remind my brain that I still had them attached and I figured out how to at least get them to wiggle. Next step, use the edge of the inclined ramp again to try and get vertical. Wasn’t quite working through but I got halfway up and kind’a flopped my torso over onto the ramp and caught my breath for a moment or two. The legs could move but there was no strength for lifting at first so, focus when back to the arms. I was able to reach and somewhat grasp the tools that I’d dropped so I spent the next minute or two tiring to get control of the fingers. It took a few tries but I was starting to rework the process out in my head and got the tools tucked into one pocket. Next step: can you get up? Another long process of concentrating and using the ramp for leverage but I pulled that off finally.
How long was I down? I really don’t know. My sense of time was going to way off for the rest of the day but I suspect a decent estimate from the fall to getting back to my feet was maybe ten or fifteen minutes. Still very short on strength but I began to shuffle my way into the house. Obviously this now had DW scared. We figured that since I was up and about that an ambulance wasn’t necessary (and it would have taken me to facilities I’d rather not patronize anyway) so we got in the car and headed to the nearest urgent care center. By the time we got there I was able to walk relatively well but slowly and had worked out how to move everything again. They checked me out at the center but ultimately referred me to a full emergency room where a CT-scan could be done.
Another trip, more paperwork (and the time it took to refigure how to hold a pen and sign my name) and they did a scan on my lower back, shoulder/neck areas and head. The worst symptom at this point was the pins I was feeling in my hands and forearms (imagine getting dozens of tetanus shots in your finger tips and palms simultaneously and having the process repeat non-stop). Since I didn’t land on my arms of hurt them in any apparent physical way these Docs were concerned that what was happening was probably in my skull (as it was effecting both sides). When the images came back there was much good news and some puzzling news. First off, no swelling or bleeding in the brain; no ruptured or slipped disks and no discernible fractures in the vertebra. What they did find was that I have “Stenosis” of the spine. That is where the openings in the column that the nerves pass through are shrinking over time. It’s congenital and obviously not a result of the fall but is likely leading to some contact between the narrowed bones and the now stressed nerves headed out toward my arms. They also found that one of the ligaments in my back has calcified. Basically I’ve got an extra bone that most folk don’t have. Don’t know yet how that plays in but it may have helped strengthen that part of the spine and might have protected me somewhat form the fall. They released me from Emergency with steroids, a mussel relaxer, some decent pain meds and a referral to a back specialist.
Since then things are improving, but aren’t quite right. The needles sensation has left most of my fingers and has been replaced with a burning pain that is sensitive to touch and cold. That runs from both index fingers up to either elbow. Neck is sore and stiff but the lower back seems to be mending. I have an appointment this the spine doctor Friday but am restricted by the meds from being able to drive (which has ended a long planned trip this weekend… stupid, stupid stupid!) but it could still be far worse. At least I have been allowed to work from home this Closing week. Still have to be logged in and working by 6am, but I’m also still employed, so I’ve got that going for me.
Well, that's the story.
Like I said, The important part is just remembering to prize and respect all that we do have.
Cause in the blink of an eye it can all disappear.