Dawn's Journal/Journey (post's welcome)

[panfan]

Hi fellow Wisher's ! As some of you may know I started "wishing" about 6 weeks ago...July 6 to be exact! So far I have lost 10 lbs...which by the way was in the first couple of weeks. I spent a few weeks "slipping away" and re-gained composure again this past Tuesday .

Up until now I have been reading through some of your journals. Very Aw-inspiring ! Great Job everyone! But until now I have been super afraid to start a journal of my own.....Going out on a limb now and gonna give it a shot! I feel I need to be held "accountable" mostly to myself and also to anyone who may be reading. It must give some of you great joy/pride to be able to look back and re-read day1, day10, day50 etc and see how far you have come! At this point I do journal in a book but am going to try this also!

So Here Goes.....My name is Dawn...I am 35 years old and have to sons ages 3 and 8. I have been happily married for almost 14 years. My husband and I run a small restaurant that has been in my family for 23 years.....This my friends is a whole other story ! They hours are long....and the food is plentiful! I enjoy spending the time I have with my family and of coarse WALT DISNEY WORLD! We are DVC members as of last year and can't wait to go again!

I basically am trying to follow the rules and regulations of South Beach. If I don't do everything exact , I am not going to be too concerned....after all If on any given day...I eat healthy and manage to excercise...I am doing better!

I also will add as part of my "introduction" ...I've had food issues all my life....not in the form of being overweight necessarily...but in the form of being a ballet dancer in my teen/early20's. I was made to stand on a scale twice weekly since the age of 12??I don't know ...around 7th grade I guess. I can remember at one of my first weigh in's ...I was 92 and told I must get down to 85 by the following week! I know there are many issues in the dance community and those that are familiar can relate....Lets just say ....I was never destined to turn out to be a ballerina as I am only 5ft3 and shaped "like a woman"! Years of this, however resulted In a very negative self image and eating disorders. I am okay now and basically trying to loose some weight and get healthy!!! I already dropped 10 lbs and probably would be good with 30 more gone. It might not sound like a lot to some of you who lost so much....I almost feel embarrased. But I have lost and gained the same 40 pounds over and over...with dieting and then binging...slipping etc. I just need to do it the "healthy" way this time and learn that it is a LIFESTYLE! That Is why I thing the SB is such a great HEALTY way of eating!

Enough of that now. About the "journal". I have had two great days so far and today is not quite as "perfect". But I am gonna post what I actually ate so I can be accountable! See...normally don't work on thurs but certain circumstances at the restaurant had me there at 5 am today...

Brek: 1/2 pumpkin muffin ( I know, I know )

Lunch: Egg white omlet w/little ham and cheese
Snach: Proten Bar
Dinner: 6 oz NY strip steak on top of salad with extra veggies
blue cheese dressing.

I don't know what snack will be for tonite but I think I will do the right thing since I just poured My heart out to everyone!

Sorry so Long and Thanks for listening!!!
Until next time

 

[panfan]

It's Friday morning and I am planning my day....Busy weekend a head! Have the morning off but have to plan the dinner menu for work tonite and bake 2 peach pies at home . Nolan has his first football game tomorrow so I have to work DH hours 4:30 am to4Pm instead of mine ( I usually go in at 7am) Work is also till about 10 pm tonight. If I can get through this week end and next ( a few employees in vacation) ....and school started..we will be "home free"

Now about food....didn't do too...too..bad yesterday. Although my choices were not perfect...and I didn't excercise...it could be worse. Got all my water in as that is never really a problem. Today I am going to try for a steller SB day to kick off my busy weekend. Also have a housewarming party to attend after work tomorrow so I doubt excercise is an option for tomorrow...must get it in this morning while pies are in the oven! Just Do It ...I say to myself.

Well...here's to a good day

 

[KLH 1973]

Welcome to wish and I hope you love it as much as I do. Gosh I have no clue how you handle the temptations of running a resturant. You would find me in the dessert tray for sure. What do you do being around the smells all day? Sounds like you have a very full day...are you to pooped to work out after? Good luck on yours sons football game it should be fun to watch.

Kristin

P.S. vent as much as you need and never be afraid

 

[ZerasPride]

Hi Dawn!

It's just me checking in on you. You don't know how excited I was to see that you are posting a journal. You are about to embark on a wonderful journey of self-discovery even if it is in such a public way. That made me nervous as all get out at first. Now I just write how I feel and hope everyone understands or at least tolerates my ramblings and babblings. I have found it helps so much but you must already know that if you keep a handwritten journal too.

I'm so sorry about your food issues. Speaking as someone from the opposite end of the dieting spectrum, I can just imagine how difficult it must have been for you to try to fit into someone else's imagine for you. What a wonderful job you have done in getting a handle on it.

As you know I'm on SBD too and just love it. I know you will be successful in getting to the weight you will feel comfortable with. One thing I have learned from posting on this board is that it doesn't matter if you have 10 or 110 pounds (or more) to lose, it's important to you to take that extra weight off and therefore important to all of us so we support each other all the way to goal.

I'll be checking on you often to see how you are doing. Take care and have a wonderful weekend.

P.S. I admire you so for being able to work around all that food and stay on program. What a great job you are doing!!!!!

 

[Princess Michelle]

Welcome Dawn, WISHing you the best of luck in reaching your goals!

 

[panfan]

Thanks to KLH 1973, ZerasPride, and Princess Michelle for stopping by and wishing me luck!! I need it!

It was a very stressful weekend and beginning of the week at work and home! The "light at the end of the tunnel" wont come until everything is back to normal at work....September 6 ish. All "mommies" will be back to regular hours and vacationers will be back. I have a little time this morning to journal before heading out to my 12 hour shift. Don't see ANY days off for me until September 6 th!! Having your own business has it's rewards but sometimes........

Anyway....as far as the program and WISH.....weekend wasn't too...too bad. NOt enough time to journal everything. Hopefully in a couple of weeks I'll be able to check in daily ....as it will keep me OP better! Only excercised once and eating was pretty good.I am looking into the New WW program and maybe thinking about combining it with my South Beach....just to kind of keep portion contol in line. I don't know yet....still investigating!
Just "plugging" along right now and trying to make the right decisions about what I am eating during this stressful time of year for me. ( it happens every year this time...not much can be done about it )

Until next time.....
And thanks again to those who stopped by to WISH me well!
Have a HEALTHY day!

 

[panfan]

Well.....I think I have "turned my week around"....j
Had a pretty good morning!
Brekfast was an eggwhite omelet with a little ham and cheese with one piece of ww toast (dry)

I did manage to excercise too.....30 WATPounds! ( will start back to The Firm next week)

Off to eat my Lunch...a salad with extra veggies with a grilled chicken breast on top.

Then it's off to work.....Hopefully I will keep control. I think since I had a good day...and excercised....I will be fine!

I plan on dinner of Chicken Scallopini....(easy to do at work...our dinners at my restaurant are mostly Italian.) I just take a chicken breast and slice it julienne with some mushrooms, green bell peppers and onions and sautee it all together....add a little red sauce and parmasean ( just a sprinkle) and I'm good to Go! Just have to resist the fabulous "South PhillY' brick oven baked Italian bread that we get delivered fresh! It's normally not a problem...as the desserts arre! I am bringing my sugar free jello to fill that spot.

Until next time...
Have a healthy day

 

[ZerasPride]

panfan - it's just me stopping by to see how you are doing. Your disposition sounds sunny and positive. That chicken scallopini sounds delicious! Keep up the great work!

 

[panfan]

Just a "quicky" today....
Long work day again
Week one of the stress at work is almost over...just gotta get through the weekend....and through week two!! No time off in sight!! Oh well....

Been doing fairly well...didn't excercise yesterday.....
will get some in today in a few minutes....
Food intake has been okay but not perfect.
Can't wait till after next week is over and I can spend more time journaling and keeping track. I do much better then!

Here's to a good weekend.....and trying to stay as best OP as possible!

 

[DoeWDW]

Dawn, welcome to the WISH Journal board!! It looks like you're off to a great start! Eating healthy and exerciising when time is tight - so difficult!! Just make the best choices you can and hang in there until the pace slows down a bit.

Thanks for the chicken scallopini recipe - you've given me a new idea for dinner! My DH will love it! I'm going to try to make it this weekend (minus the shrooms - DH doesn't like them ).

Hope you have a great day!!

 

[Strings]

Hi Dawn,

Welcome to the WISH Journals. Wow, your schedule is a killer. I applaud you for staying OP. Make the best choices you can. When things slow down, you can be perfect then Take care of yourself this weekend.
Beth

 

[panfan]

Thank you to DowWDW and Strings for stopping by and giving me some encouragement....I need it!

I actually had an unexpected day off from the rest. today! Although it was still stressful. Took the kids to the Grocery and Target and my 3 y/o ds was "possesed" in Target.....so much for a relaxing day......Anyway...........

The past week or so , I have been doing okay...not perfect...and really no excercise. I still intend to do "Full Swing" starting next week when things slow down a bit at work and kids start school. Ds age 3 is doing 3 1/2 days a week at pre-school Montessori and I should be able to do some running -around and excercise during those times ( I work mostlly nights during the week and days on the weekends.)

I bought a new "paper" journal in Target today to start off fresh with the month of September.....even though I started today.....Already wrote some stuff in it and set out my goals.....
I like the on-line journal but still feel that by "book" version really gets me through. I carry it to work /shopping etc.....
I have set out lots of goals to be a healthier/better person. Some stuff that doesn't revolve around food like trying to spend more quality time with children...now that school starts soon it is more of an effort and I will miss them. It's bitter sweet....love going shopping /errends by myself....especially after today's episode!

I would love to read through South Beach Book again .....just to refresh and renew memory...however I lent it to my sister and probably won't see her for a few weeks. Maybe I'll just buy a new copy....we'll see.

I plan on excercising tonite while DS8 is at football practice.....I must think to myself ....it is only 30-45 minutes out of my day and the old Nike slogan.....
YOU CAN DO IT !!!

Going to WDW in December and have my "DISNEY WORLD CLOTHES" I like to wear and I am no where near that weight now.....so I have another goal. I have a pair of Mickey Denim over alls that I always like to wear on the plane ( a little wierd I know) They haven't fit for my last two trips so I am trying for this time......Another goal!

Well off to do some Laundry and household stuff.....it's all a mess since I haven't been home that much!

Plan for today.....the rest of it at least.....

Dinner......A large salad w/extra veggies...and protein either chicken or Salmon...( have both ready to go)
Snack.....Sf popcicle.....love it and must start reaching for this at night again....like when I was doing so well.

Already ate.....
Brekfast......Protein Bar
Lunch....tuna salad on whole wheat roll

Must be careful w/ carbs for the rest of the day...
Hard to believe back in the beginning of July...I went 2 weeks without eating ONE SLICE OF BREAD!!!! And excercised EVERYDAY........I must get back to that place!!!!!!!

Until next time

HAVE A HEALTHY DAY!!!!!!!

 

[Princess Michelle]

Dawn, you are doing really well considering the time limitations you have right now. I'm excited to see what you can do when you have more time to work with. I know you are going to be sitting on the plane in those Mickey Overalls when you go to WDW in December, hey, you might even have to buy a new pair, a SMALLER pair!

 

[panfan]

I have vowed to renew, re-energize and basically start today with getting down to serious business. I haven't been "that bad" the last few weeks but now I really want to get down to business

I have signed up for the Thanksgiving Challenge and September 1000 minutes of excercise Challenge!!! I really need the excercise challenge and hope it keeps me motivated to get moving everyday!!!!!

So far so good today....
Brekfast was eggwhites , with a little ham and asiago cheese
lunch will be.....a lovely salad w/baked salmon

I will probably not get to excercise today for I had to bake 2 pies for work /dinner tonite. I have vowed as part of my re-new to PLAN BETTER with not only food choices but Time Management!
If I only would have gotten up a little earlier today! I did spend about 30-40 minutes writing and setting up my new "book journal" with goals etc.....this helps me a lot too!

Tomorrow: I will get up early and do the excercise!!!!
ZerasPride: If you can do it everymorning early....so can I!

Well off to make my lunch and lunch for the kiddles.....and then off to work! Who knows ??? I just might surprise myself and do a litte excercise tonight after work....Doubt it though ...don't get home till around 10 pm and after bieng on my feet for 8-9hours....we'll see though!

Have a healthy Day....and I will try to too

Also....Princess Michele.....thanks for the encouragement on the overalls......I won't get a smaller size cause they are a size SMALL! I think I am dreaming thinking I can fit into them again....but here's to trying

 

[Strings]

Hi Dawn,

Those overalls might just be the thing you need to stay motivated. Keep up the great work. They are saying that you don't need to do all you exercise in one shot. A 10 minute walk around the block counts too.
Take care,
Beth

 

[panfan]

Just wanted to check in really quick before my shower and bedtime after work. Really busy tonight at work ....The customers really liked my homemade pies....and I didn't even have one little bite!!!

Snack in afternoon: pear
Dinner: My "chicken scallopini" with a little whole wheat pasta....probably only 6 or 7 pieces:rotini.
Snack: SF jello

Regarding the pear: It was really juicy and delicious! It is amazing how much you can really taste and savor flavor when you are eating more slowly and aware of what is going into your mouth! ( Unlike Krispy Kreme Pig-outs in the past...you know downing several of them before coming up for air......do you really eeven taste them ??) Anyway....just an observation.

Today was almost perfect. I plan on getting up early tomorrow to excercise...busy day a head....No work but we have orientation at school...haircuts for kids...football practice and after that 8:30 pm taking kids to my mom's to spend the night. I have to work on friday from 5 am to 9 pm !!!! To many vacationers this week then right into Sat...Sun...and Monday....We were going to close on monday but we are open. We do a big brekfast business....
Oh well....MOre $$$ for my WDW trip!!
Until next time.....

Have a Healthy Day

 

[toystoryduo]

Dawn,

Welcome to WISH journaling! You are doing an amazing job, especially with all of the activity that you have going on in your life. You are off to a fabulous start!! Keep up the good work, Dawn and you will meet your goals!

Have a wonderful day today!

Tracy

 

[Strings]

Dawn you have an amazing amount of self control. I am terribly impressed with your resisting those pies. WTG! I'll be joining you, I am working all weekend myself. Here's some extra energizing to help you through that killer shift.
Enjoy your afternoon,
Beth

 

[panfan]

It's Sunday night and I just wanted to add a quick post. Work has been a real bi**h this weekend and now we are going to be open tomorrow too!! We are usually closed on Labor Day....and was looking forward to Tuesday Off but NOw I have to go in then too. It is ds first day of school and I probably won't get to see him off

Okay enough complaining about work! Overall I have been BAD! I am definately one who NEEDS the time to post, journal, plan to do the right things! I must work better on time management...but just been too exhausted the past few days and miss the kids to boot! Only a few days left of this. I'm really upset also cause I really want to make the challenges, however, I have only worked out 35 minutes so far in September! I can still do it...just gotta do some extra doubling up.

Well .....off to bed ....another 4am rise and shine tomorrow morning.

Have a great and Healthy Labor Day

 

[Strings]

Dawn,

What you need to do now is focus on getting through the next few days. You can worry about getting back on track once this stress is over. Now isn't the time to put more pressure on yourself. I'm sending you some
Beth