Alright, here we go!
We arrive in Orlando on December 2nd. Flight was good, all went well. The kids behaved and we landed early. We got checked into Saratoga and since we were exhausted we ditched the idea of going to Downtown Disney. We ordered a pizza instead and they said it had to come to Saratoga. For one pizza, and order of bread sticks and a 2 liter of soda, it was $45.
The next day we got up and headed to the Animal Kingdom. A lot of my family members and friends joined us for which turned out to be the warmest day of the entire trip. We went on the safari several times. I am fine with one time, but I don't like zoos and on the 3rd ride you kind of zone out. At least I do. Everyone wanted to do different things and my dream of having everyone doing everything together went out the window. On the 3rd Safari ride, out of nowhere I had a panic attack. That was embarrassing. I could not breathe, I was sobbing, etc. I guess the stress was catching up to me.
We went to the Nemo show, I lost my phone but thankfully found it. There were so many things we wanted to do but Torrin needed a nap and so did I. We went back to the hotel to rest up for Mickey's Very Merry Christmas party. I was so excited to go to the party but somehow, someway, the night turned out to be a mess. At first it was great. My family all went on the Haunted Mansion, Pirates of the Caribbean, had cookies and hot chocolate (which we needed as it became cold). We decided to head to another ride, and along the way my parents stop to get my nephews popcorn. Bryan said to keep going and we should do our own thing. I lost it. I wanted everyone to be together. Bryan said the kids are hungry and we need to eat. I said we were going to eat after the Haunted Mansion. Well, with so many people it was a mess. I finally just broke down in front of the Liberty Tree Tavern. I went in and asked them if they could fit 17 people for dinner-which was not even remotely possible when I called, but when you are sobbing in the happiest place on earth, they will help you out. Three cast members hug me, and I go outside telling everyone they will seat us. My brother asks whats on the menu, other people say they have been eating cookies and are not hungry, etc. It made me cry even more. I wanted to do something nice where we could all eat together, but nope. I wish I would have realized before the trip that not everyone is going to be together all of the time. So I go back into the restaurant and I sob telling them we do not need a table after all but I appreciate their willingness to help. I keep crying, they ask me what is wrong and I tell them I am getting married, my fiance is being a jerk, and my family can't make any decisions. They tell me they are going to take me over to the Christmas shop to pick out an ornament. I am crying uncontrollably as we walk over there and in the shop. I have no idea what I want to get. If I had been in a happy mood, I would have gotten something wedding related. Here is what I chose:
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My reason? Because if Bryan were a Mr. Potato Head I would rip off his nose at that moment. I know-such a loving fiance right? I feel bad but I do love the ornament and it is cute.
After the meltdown, I continued to melt down. People went to Space Mountain and no one wanted to see the fireworks. This made me even more upset but I decided there was nothing I could do, so I continued to wait in line for the 7 dwarfs. When I worked at Disney I only got 5 of the dwarfs in a pictures, and finally, all 7 were there. At least that was good! The weather was getting colder and the kids were getting restless so we headed back to our room. The evening was a total let down and Bryan and I were livid at each other.
We put the kids to bed, I went into bed, put my eye mask on, and wanted to just sleep it away. Bryan said we had to talk about what happened, which turned into a huge argument and then the threat of calling off the wedding. It was a mess and I was a mess. I am not sure what the end result was, but I fell asleep and hoped for a better day on Saturday.
Saturday arrives and Torrin has a 101 fever. The weather is very cold but it is expected to be the warmest night of the rest of the week. I really wanted to check into Boardwalk before the end of the welcome dinner. Bryan was not for this, but I really wanted it out of the way. Two of my bridesmaids came to the room and put together the boxes with the ornaments and the place cards on them. I am so grateful for that. While they did that, Camden went to the parks with his great grandparents and Bryan, Torrin and I all went to the outlet mall. We needed coats, hats, gloves, etc. We spent a fortune just to try and stay warm for the rest of the trip.
When we got back, my two bridesmaids and I went to the Boardwalk. We checked in, hung my dress up and got organized. I was thrilled to do this! I did not want to get back to the room after the dinner and have to check in, unpack, etc. While we were doing this Bryan called and told me a room opened up at the GF and we could move the welcome dinner inside. Long story short, I wanted to move it inside but I told Bryan since his Dad was paying for it, it was their decision. They ordered heat lamps and decided to keep it outside as to not confuse people. I let it go and hoped for the best.
After I took my bridesmaids to their hotel, I went back to the room. Torrin was very sick and we were not sure what to do. There was a lot of tension between Bryan and I and I was not feeling good about it at all. I was getting married the next day and all of a sudden we were freaking out I think. Time was passing quickly and I had to get ready. Bryan and I were fighting and he said he did not want to talk about it. I said I was not going to go rehearse a wedding with someone who would not even talk to me. I need the warm loving feelings back. I had to get ready, and after I got out of the shower, I stood there, in grey slipper socks and nothing else, sobbing. Bryan came in, and I am sure I was a beautiful site to behold. Naked crying girl with slipper socks. We had a good talk, although it was weird in my state of nakedness, and worked it out. Off we went to the rehearsal and the welcome dinner. (Don't worry, I put clothes on). I asked my friends and family if it was normal to have so many issues before the wedding and they all told me they thought they could not go through with the wedding, either them or their hubby's threatened to call it off, people threw the ring at the other person, etc. I felt comforted knowing we were not the only dysfunctional couple out there.
We get to the wedding pavilion and of course my Dad and other people are complaining how hard it is to get anywhere on Disney property. Ask directions people! I learned the GPS does not recognize Disney roads as "real" roads so it takes you all over town. Oh well, everyone made it and we were ready to roll.
Jack Day was there and he was so adorable. I felt like I had known him a lifetime and he was my grandfather. He took me aside and told me I was one of the most beautiful brides he had ever seen. I said, "Oh Rev. You must say that to all the ladies." He told me that is not true, I look like an angel, and if he did not say anything about my looks, then I am in trouble. He was so sweet and I looked forward to having him at our wedding the next day.
Rehearsal went well. I asked if it was my unity candle holder on the altar already and Maxine told me it is just a cheap one they use for practice. Sad thing is-it is identical to the one I bought....which I wonder what I should do with it now that it is over. Same with the unity candles. Do people keep them? Sorry-off track.
After the rehearsal we headed over to the GF Marina for the Welcome Dinner. It was so cold, people complained, they could not find it (I had only seen it in pictures so I to was lost), it was dark, etc. I tried not to let the voice of "we should have moved it inside" overtake my brain. I wanted B and me to give a speech, thanking everyone for coming, etc but people wanted to eat so the line began. No one could see the food, so they brought in some tiny lights. I just wanted one person to tell me the night was good instead of hearing how cold it was, how I should have gotten married in the Bahamas where it is warmer (apparently I should have predicted the weather and informed everyone of the unseasonable temperatures Florida would have) The food was good. People did tell me the brownies were amazing. I did not even see the brownies!
Halfway through the Roots arrived. Since they give you an e-pics session with your wedding package, and we used someone else, they agreed to come to the welcome dinner to get fireworks pictures. I adored them both and was so happy we went with them. I just had a great feeling about them! I am excited to see those pictures since Bryan and I were smiling for pics instead of watching the show.
Eventually the night was over, and it was time for me to go to the Boardwalk. I asked my sister to stay with me. She did not realize I was at Boardwalk and thought she would be sleeping on the couch at Saratoga. I told her I had a room at BW and she would have her own bed. She was happy and although I thought I wanted to be by myself, we had a great time. We went to our room, I opened some things the Roots gave me, and then I was so hungry so we went down to the BW and I got a piece of pizza. We hung out in the room and finally went to be around 1.
Next up: Wedding Day!
Thanks to anyone who is reading this!
Dani