Hi All-
lpizzuro123-Thanks for the balloon pictures. I remember seeing your pictures and that made me think of balloons. Apparently the people at Disney think it is tacky but I heart them.
erin W.: thanks for the compliment. Would love to write a book but who would read it? What would I write about?

I sound very seductive and sexy. I could have a hotline 1-900-HOT-DANI. Totally kidding.
So we are less than a month away and the tension in my neck is killing me. To top it off, we are putting our dog down tomorrow. She was going to be 11 on our wedding day. The boys are going to be destroyed. The sun and moon revolve around this dog. I have never been attached to a pet and in the year I have been around her, she is my buddy. She is always next to me (laying on my feet now), sleeps near me, wags her tail when I come in, etc. I said we should wait, but Bryan thinks Disney World will be a good distraction. Not so sure about that. Well, enough sadness and random, non wedding stuff.
I am finalizing the last few things. I am adding things, removing things, etc. It is all within the same amount, so it works, but since the count of people went down, I pay less for table linens, chair covers, etc. So what do I do? I decide I need more things, like the balloons. Not sure if I will do that as even the people at Disney tells me it is tacky. I am questioning having a kids table, but for 7 kids, most of which will dance and play with their DS, I dont know if I should do it. I think it might look weird and I think it will be an eye sore. They said the centerpiece could be balloons but I don't know.
I talked to Maxine and we have a pretty good schedule. I was stressing about it but did I take the time to re read the BEO and realize it had been on there since July? Uh, no. I felt like an idiot. I made my guest book last night. Engagement pictures with a white background, and then got sharpies for people to sign. I went to get the Sharpies and realized they have Silver ones so I could have done black pages. Contacted Snapfish-no luck in canceling. Darn them for being so efficient and timely. I need to not focus on the fact I could have had black pages. Grrrr. I am going to make a sign that says "Please don't just sign your name. Or "Have a Great Summer" or "Love you Like a Sister" or "2010 RULES" like they do in yearbooks. Kidding of course, but I am going to make a sign that says please write a memory, wish or something to the bride and groom. I want to say DO NOT JUST SIGN YOUR NAME. But that is not going to fly. A fabulous former Disney bride bought me the adorable house with a slot in the roof for my cards. Saw it on Etsy and fell in love, and she got it for me. Thanks C! You are the best!
My friend made me a Bride hoodie to wear while I am getting my hair and makeup done (thankfully all my friends got married and I learned not to wear something I can't unbutton or unzip) but when I washed it all the jewels fell off. I am SO sad. Need to find something but it is so much money and I am not sure if I feel ok doing it myself.
My bridesmaids are doing all the table numbers for me. I was going to cut out Mickey heads with the machine I have, put a number on them and laminate them to put in the stands. One BM (hate saying that abbreviation) said I am spending a half a million dollars (I am not even spending $30,000) and I need to put tacky back in the closet. I learned the hard way I need to stop asking everyone's opinion on everything. I bought the bridesmaids earrings, waiting for them to come so I can get them wrapped. They are simple and boring, but they were on clearance and cute. AND they were only $12. I hope they look ok.
My latest struggle is my sister is my MOH and she has a bouquet like mine-roses and daisies. Should I make hers like the other girls? Or make it like mine since she is the MOH? The moms and step mom have white roses, but I am thinking they should be red to match other peoples. Thoughts? Anyone?
Bryan and I picked our ceremony music. I wrote out our ceremony taking bits and pieces from everything Jack Day gave us. I was worried it was too much but he wrote me back and said WELL DONE all in caps, which means I am awesome. I planned on having readers but when do they come in to the ceremony? I already asked them so I need to find something. Somehow...someway. I was having issues not having the remaining two nephews in the wedding. Always wanted them as ring bearers so I made Bryans 2 boys solely groomsmen and my two youngest nephews the ring bearers - even though I highly doubt that the 6 year old who does not talk and is SO shy will do it, the 8 year old seemed excited about carrying the pillow. Hope he knows it is not a real pillow. Or a pillow pet. I told my sister in law they can just wear their black suits. Bryan thinks they should have tuxes but here is the kicker-each tux is $183. Seriously?! I am fine with the suits, but then I think yes, they should have them, but that is a ton of money to hold a pillow when the groomsmen will be in black jackets and black ties as well. Does it really matter?
Bryan and I finally picked our first dance song. He hated everything I wanted. Hated, hated, hated. Then he said Fine, pick what YOU want. So then I sobbed saying this is my first wedding, and this is the only part of my wedding I thought about when I was little and I want something that is meaningful to both of us. He said every song that makes him think of me is fast and can't be danced to. He went to iTunes and was searching for random songs. I said I did not want to pick something for iTunes. Finally we agreed on one, but I think after 2+ hours he was just over it so he picked one. At least it is done.
We were assigned our DJ. I am worried. I want our DJ to be great. I have lots more to say about this but I heard the DJs go onto the boards so I am going to shut it. Any recommendations on DJ's? Feedback? You can PM me and let me know if you don't want to post it.
Trying to think of what else. I have a dress fitting tomorrow. Have not been to the gym so I am worried. Too much going on for the gym. I should make time, but I would rather cry about the dog, work on wedding stuff, and eat some Golden Oreos. So delicious.
I spray tanned all summer, and paid through December. Have I gone since September? No. I keep thinking I better go. My fear is it rubbing off on my dress. Also, do I need to be "tan" since only my arms and chest are going to be shown?
Another random thing (I am all over the place) I forgot I get hives when I am sad or nervous or anxious. I should have bought a turtleneck dress.
Castle shoot might be moved to a later time. Apparently they are all switching in 2011 and they might do it for the December brides. I am nervous about this as I wanted pics in the "dark" with the castle lit up. Also really worried that the lights are on the castle. What will it look like when they are not on? I fear it will be like the lame neighbor who stills has the icicle lights up for the holidays in March. Speaking of that, Christmas decorations are EVERYWHERE. Lights on the houses, and the horrid inflatable things in the yard. My apologies for those who love them, but the giant Santa in a hot air balloon that says MERRY CHRISTMAS on it does not excite me. It also makes me feel pressure that when I get back from the wedding, it will be present time. I want to shop now but we can't afford it with the wedding.
Yet another random thing (let me just be honest and tell me my doctor put me on Ritalin because I was so all over the place. I think it is safe to say, it is NOT working. AT ALL)....we booked our honeymoon. We were supposed to go to St. Lucia. Would love the Maldives but we need to win the lotto first. He wanted Europe but for 5 days, not worth it in my book. If I go, I want to see a ton. Planned on St. Lucia but then our
travel agent (did not know they were still around) said to think about Jamaica. Hope I did not already write this-sorry if I did. We looked into Jamaica and for $3,000 less than St. Lucia we get the "Millionaire Suite", our own pool, and two butlers. Seriously? Who is going to want to come home to potty time, cleaning, laundry, etc? Not me. When people ask us about the honeymoon Bryan points out we have an outdoor shower. Is that really worth telling? Here is the link to our room:
http://www.sandals.com/main/negril/ne-millionaire.cfm
I went to Sandals with the ex boyfriend in the Bahamas and I loved it. Hope this one is just as amazing! I am SO happy we are waiting until February to go. I need to come down off the wedding and have something to look forward to.
I went to the ENT the other day (hoping I did not write this before) and the lady told me she just came back from her wedding and has been crying non stop since it is over. Hope that does not happen to me. Anyway, the Dr. looked in my right ear, said it looked perfect. NO! He looked in my left and said my ear drum is supposed to be a cone, but it is straight up and down and bulging. I am on Mucinex and a nasal spray. He said it MIGHT clear up in three weeks. I told him I am getting on a plane. He said I am pushing it. I have no choice. Hoping this pressure and pain and blocked feeling goes away.
Final note. I did the seating chart, felt good about it, but then I went out with 4 couples on Saturday night who are all going to the wedding. They all loved each other and begged me to put them at the same table. It is already done! Sure, it could change, but not likely. But what am I doing? Trying to make everyone happy. Then I did not realize how much these people drink. Makes me worried about the BOC but Maxine said she has only seen two weddings that did not benefit from BOC. Fingers crossed.
That is about it. Thanks for having me vent and reading it!
Dani