And now I feel like a total jerk. I talked to Michelle on the phone and she said she was sorry that I took her e-mail the wrong way.
She was concerned about my professionalism. And in person I'm extremely poised and professional, so that made me really nervous. And the thing is, she should have no idea it's me, but I had no idea they read the boards so I just used my name for my username. I thought "what? I'm going to meet some of these people in person, anyway." Bad idea, apparently.
She said, "If you reacted this way to such a tiny setback, it just makes me concerned with how you'll deal with guests if there's a problem." And I had to explain, tearing up and feeling like an idiot, that I'd had problems with financial aid this year, and doing the program was going to save me about $20,000. So my dad’s calling me every day to find out if I get in, because he’s helping me pay for school. Plus my adviser was all over me to decide whether I'm taking a leave of absence or not, since it's a pretty arduous process at my school. So I have him e-mailing me every few days. Plus I’ve been extremely sick for almost two weeks now (first a cold, then the stomach flu, now a cold again), so I’m tired and cranky to begin with. I didn’t mention being sick, except to say I had a cold since I sound odd on the phone.
Then she said she understand, and she had just been concerned. Then she told me I had an answer in the mail. Which makes me nervous. A yes answer? A no answer? Argh.
I hope my fever-induced quick temper didn’t screw me over for the whole program.
I'm really glad you got explain yourself and hopefully everything works out for the best. At this point though, I really think the subject should be dropped. It happened but you got your chance to make up for it, I just don't want anyone carrying this on long than it should which could potentially just make matters worse.
Edit: Hi recruiters!