I've been in kind of a funk lately, so I guess it's time to talk. My dad was diagnosed with lung cancer a couple of weeks ago. So I've obviously been out of sorts. It is my biological dad, not my step dad that raised me. I have a relationship with him, but not as much as with my step dad.
That being said, he asked me 3 years ago when I was going thru cancer treatment if there was anything he could do. I told him yes "quit smoking" because you just can't imagine how horrible cancer treatment is. Well guess what? He obviously didn't listen.
I've looked up the type of cancer he has and it is about a 10% 5-year survival rate. Caught early, the survival rate is 30-40%. Not very good odds. He was in the hospital for something else and they caught it by accident. He's had the biopsy and next month goes in for surgery where they will remove the lower left lobe of his lung and 5 ribs. Let's just say, it doesn't look good. I will be praying for a miracle, but I also know the reality of what he is facing.
I'm torn right now between just wanting to bawl, being mad at him for giving himself cancer and being mad at cancer in general. This will be both parents that I've lost to smoking. My mom's aneurysm most likely would not have burst had she not been a smoker. So I have two dumb *$@ parents that decided I need to be an orphan due to their own stupidity! I know, 44 year old orphan sounds stupid, but that's how I feel.
I know that I would be dealing with it better if it were something else, anything else but cancer! Anyway, if I seem out of sorts, you know why. It's just going to take me a while to deal with all of this. Sorry to dump this on all of you, but hey what are friends for if not to tell me to shut up, get over it and go visit my dad!
I just don't get it. 
But I did just but a refurbished Nikon off eBay for $90. Retail value is $259.00. Now I have a bunch of Best Buy gift cards from Christmas that I am going to sell on eBay.
She must really not want this job.
Thanks! I told it with my iPhone, I think sometimes those come out better than ones I take with my camera.
Speaking of baby birds, we found a nest under the cover of our propane tank a few weeks ago that had eggs in it. Checked it the other day and the eggs had hatched!
Awww...so cute. DH was upset a few days ago because he was weed eating up on the hill behind our house and went right over the top of a next full of babies. The mother worked diligently that day and appeared to relocate them to underneath a fern a few feet away, but there was one unhatched egg in the nest.
There is a lady I work with that just had a double masectomoy (sp) and yet she still smokes and goes to the tanning salon.
Yep, it's a stage I went thru, luckily didn't last long for me.
Had to share and kind of laugh..
I live next door to a thrift bakery, sells short dated bread (Sara lee) and carries a few oddballs like candy, crackers, pop etc.
I hopped next door to get my caffeine fix and a loaf of bread.
Now during the day, the manager runs the store. She doesn't have very good people skills, she tends to stay in the back moving product even when there are a bunch of people in the store. It's a tiny place, long shelves on all the walls and a set of long shelving down the middle of the store. One of the doors to the back is open, but if someone is near the front of the store.. you can't see what they are doing due to the shelving unit in middle. There are 4 of us in the store, picking and choosing. Manager is in the back, not helping or watching.
Lady walks in fast carrying an umbrella and a big purse, I see her grab a big bag of candy. I hear some rustling and she is struggling a bit, she shoves the bag into her purse. UMMMMMMMMM okay?? I grab my bread and walk around the back side of shelving , kinda poke my head in to make sure the manager knows I'm ready. (she's rearranging bread and muttering at the bread.. hmm.. okaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyy)
Meanwhile the big purse lady saunters up to the counter, waits for a few seconds and leaves POOF! Now I didn't see, did she toss the candy back in frustration with waiting for the cashier? Or did she make it look like she was waiting and took off with the candy???
Manager slides up to the register and I tell her.. "I'm not sure but I think that lady just stole from your store". Manager glances up, does a head count and describes the lady that left. I agree with her description, she asks what it was (candy) and then just shrugs her shoulders "Oh well" .
Yeah, I bet the owner wouldn't say "oh well"
Freaking hilarious
Now that's just crazy stupid! I understand the day old bread stores are probably fairly low profit, just a way to get rid of food that would otherwise be wasted. But still.
See you when you're in a better mood tomorrow! 
I've had a couple of kinds that made me sick and they don't use those anymore. My last 3 surgeries went well...they used one that made me feel great when I woke up, no nausea, no headaches. But I've got news for you...it's really more then 4 years!
Yeah, eliminating food programs for seniors is not a good political move.. got the courts involved, made him look more of a dumb but. Guess who MN will not support in his bid for presidency?
lol.
