December 29th, 2018
This is always the worst day of the year for me and the reason we started going on cruises over Christmastime. Twenty-one years ago, I lost my Mom.
This day and most of the month of December of 1997 was awfully terrible for me and my family. I was diagnosed with Lupus and while both my Mom and I were in the hospital together, she collapsed and was rushed to another, more specialized hospital. By the time I got out of the hospital, we thought she would be okay but her condition got much worse and on December 29th, 1997, we said our good-byes.
She was the glue that held us all together and she was a huge part of my life and there has been a terrible void in my life since then that will never be filled. By the time I had Kira, I felt like I was almost done grieving her loss and then Kira was born and she gave me this inexplicable bond to my Mom that I had never had, which was weird because she had been gone for 9 years by then.
But I was a Mom now and finally understood a Mother's love and how much my Mom loved me and what she sacrificed for her five kids and what she went through. It's a catch-22 most days because as close as I feel to her, I grieve her loss so much more now. I grieved the loss of a Mom already but now I grieve the loss of her as a Grandmother to Kira, her wisdom, her experience, her love, patience and kindness. I grieve (sometimes in anger, oddly) the loss
for my Mom at missing so many years with her grandkids, both the ones she had met and for the two she hasn't).
Sorry, I am rambling.
My point was that, at home, on this day, I always spent the day alone, just wanting to withdraw from everything. And honestly, the entire month of December I've always wanted to just skip. My mom loved Christmas and I hated it because I couldn't spend it with her anymore.
So, back in 2016, when the opportunity came up for our first Christmas cruise, I jumped at the chance to just get away from everything, in the hopes that I would be distracted enough almost, to enjoy Christmas again. And I did. And in 2017, on the 20th anniversary of her death, we returned to Galveston and cruised and it was a little easier than the year before and this year was a little easier than the previous one.
I think it's because I am no longer associating Christmas with my Mom's death. Instead, I think of the cruise now and Texas and being a million miles away from everything that reminds me of her and although I still miss her greatly, and always will, I have also started to enjoy Christmas again. This new tradition with my family has given me the happiness around the Holidays that I haven't had in so long.
So, I woke up that morning, looked out at my view and thought about how lucky I was and I knew that my Mom was watching over me. Although I was quietly grieving, I was content and I knew she would be happy that I have found my way to get through this day without her.
And then I smiled even more when I went out onto the balcony and saw the wedding happening down on the lawn.
Looks like they picked a good time to get married because some weather was coming in very, very soon!
We got up, got showered and dressed and then headed off for breakfast just as the rain started.
You all probably know my love for the rain by now, so you know how happy this made me.
Rob was happy to be eating at Waffle House again
I had already begun before I remembered to snap a pic of everything, sorry
Over breakfast, we talked about our plans for the day. We were originally going to go to Seawolf Park and then do some Go-Karts but with the rain, that wasn't going to be happening.
Almost everything fun in Galveston is outdoors so we decided to drive back up to Webster and see a movie. Going to see movies is our thing and two movies that we really wanted to see had come out since we left home.
After a quick stop at UPS to mail a little package to a good friend, we headed back to Webster.
And to the theatre! We had wanted to see Aquaman but the times didn't work out for us so we went to see Bumblebee.
I am super glad we did because we all loved it
Rob and Kira got some popcorn and drinks and Kira proclaimed how much she loved seeing movies in the States (a first for her!) because the drinks and popcorn were ridiculously HUGE!!!
There were closer theaters but we had driven to Webster for the Luxury Loungers, as they called them. We have a brand new Cineplex just a few minutes away from our house that has this type of seating so we're a little spoiled now.
I was loving these more though because the foot rest was almost flat, ours have a bit of a bend in them and I love these ones way more.
Note my socks. Actually they are Kira's socks that I had to steal because I didn't even bring socks. I loathe socks so when you see me wearing socks, you know it's cold out
And of course they played a commercial for Disney World
Living in the western part of Canada, we will see the odd
Disney Cruise Line or
Disneyland commercial but
never Walt Disney World!
After the movie was done, we headed over to Kohl's in League City because I had me some Kohl's Cash burning a hole inside my pocket
I went alone though this time.
It was getting late now and time to have dinner. I had wanted to try Miller's Seawall Grill but by the time we got there, shortly after 8pm, they had closed their doors.
So, we went somewhere we all love and know
Kira's chicken strips with separate plate for fries, weird!
Rob got the same thing as last time...
And I got the fajitas...
There was so much chicken, I couldn't eat it all
And we got a Key Lime pie to share
And this was my kid, the entire time.
I think she was done with vacation and just wanted to be home, in her jammies, in her room.
We went back to the hotel and I actually managed to talk her into swimming with me.
This was the little lounging area on our floor next to the elevator.
And the lovely fire pit, where Rob hung out while we were swimming. It was a very cold night, I think it was about 6ºC (about 42F) but the water was soooo warm, it was lovely!
Rob took some photos before warming up at the fire...
Then we got some hot tub time
It was so hot, it was fogging up her glasses
They stuck around until I had had enough of the pool. The great thing about this pool was that they were open until 1am during the week and 2am on the weekends
Disney needs to learn from them
We enjoyed the fire until about midnight and then back up to the room.
We tried to fall asleep but this was the night with the loud, rude neighbours. I won't go into detail about it except to say it was a crappy end to a wonderfully non-crappy day.
Thanks for listening to me babble, guys
One last day as we headed home the next day.
