Can I have a hug or some reassuring words?

[imabrat]

Yesterday I was supposed to have my followup scans done for my oncologist.
Notice I say supposed to.


I freaked halfway thru. I normally don't get scared, but I got a case of 'scanxiety' which is completely normal. It's anxiety over whether or not the cancer has worsened/returned/etc.
I DON'T freak out. I've had MRIs,CTs,you name it and never been worried. I'm so disappointed in myself because I had to reschedule it.
The combination of hunger pains,scanxiety,and being on a cold hard table for 1 hour 45 min. is not good. (I'll explain later,I break the machine)
And I have PT today and since Thursday my right foot has been having strange pains. This may effect my knee and it's recovery. I'll get it checked out but hopefully it's nothing.

If I could have a little hug or something,I'd really appreciate it.
Thanks for letting me get this out.

 

[::Snow_White::]

Hope everything goes well!

 

[AmandaSparks730]

(Hugs you really big...so big, that smilies can't do it justice!)

I know what it's like to go through some of this. I have a life-threatening disease myself (although not cancer). You're not alone. PM me if you'd like, I'm more than happy to talk to you or listen!

 

[DramaQueen]

oooh sonya!!
you know what even though you had a little case of 'scanxiety' you are still SO much stronger than I would be!!! I wouldn't be able to sit though all those MRIS & CTs and all that!!
I hope everything goes well!! ANd that when you get your scan that everything is fine with you!!
You're in my thoughts Sonya! I truly hope that everything will be good with you!

 

[daughter_of_amid_chaos]

don't worry about freaking out, it is human nature.

Besides, you are still my hero!

 

[GRAHAM#1]

I'm praying that everything will be alright for you.

 

[Tinkerbell424]

I hope everything will be all right.

 

[imabrat]

Thanks guys. I really appreciate it.

What I meant about breaking the machine, the titanium in my leg screws up with the magnetics in the machine. A couple times during the scan they have to 'recalibrate' the machine, then get the test going again. 45 minute scan turns into 3 hour scan. Arg.

I also went to the doctor today because I hurt my foot in PT. The dr. thought I had a fracture, but it's just a sprain with some freaky tendon thing going on. Can I catch a break puh-leaseeeee?!

 

[AmandaSparks730]

Glad to hear that you're okay. Just look on the bright side-(hopefully) no more chemo!

Don't forget, you have us. That would make ANYONE feel better! You're definately loved by all of us here. (hug)

 

[shellybellypolo]

 

[disneychick2721]

 

[Ampris]

Man, I don't know how you stay so calm and under-control all the time with everything that goes on, Sonya-- you rock!

 

[marypops!]

Something I forgot to mention, but your last chemotheropy coincided with the Alpha Course I went to, so I got everyone to pray for you there

Hope everything turns out ok.

 

[STOPxmickeytime]

Ah, don't feel bad about it!
After all you've been through, you're definetly allowed a scanxiety freak out here or there :]