Cam's New Lease on Life Journal (comments welcome!)

[keenercam]

Thank you so much for your support, Julie and Heather and Chris. I have been so crazy busy that I haven't taken time to journal here. Fortunately, I have been practically religious about journaling every bite in my WW journal. Have still been staying within points. I had a "splurge day" on Sunday at my Goddaughter's birthday party, but that just means I ate a piece of breaded chicken cutlet that I might have otherwise resisted and a whole cup of rice w/groundbeef and raisins and nuts in it. The food was delicious and I was able to limit myself to 2 bites of cake and 1 bite of cheesecake crust. Once I got home, however, I ate most of a small caramel apple with nuts and a caramel apple with sprinkles. I am going to clobber my friend, Chrissy for sending those home with me. There are two more "sprinkle" apples in my fridge that I will ask Howard to throw away today.

Life has been very pressurized in our house recently as we waited for Jenn's SAT scores (average; not great) and while she is working on her early decision application for her first choice university. We did her resume last night, and I think once she saw all of her accomplishments, activities, etc. listed on one (very crowded) sheet, she started feeling better about herself. I am really trying to think very positively about her early decision application, but I have to prepare her for the likelihood that she will go into the regular applicant pool and may not have a decision for months. In the meantime, she is barely paying attention to the numerous invitiations she has received from other colleges to apply without a fee or an essay, the letters she has already received indicating she'd be accepted to a private college's scholars program, and the letters indicating she is pre-qualified for several very significant institution-specific scholarships. She has her eye on the prize and I have to give her credit for that, but am also working on getting her to take advantage of those other invitiations, so that she will have more options. I will be SO GLAD when her college decision is finalized.

Training is going well. I am right on track with the MfMWtH program, in week 4 -- hard to believe. I am scheduled for 5 miles on Saturday, but want to do a 5K for Toys for Tots on Sunday, so I have to figure out how to make that all work, especially since I have developed a pain in my left knee since Saturday. I should have been icing it over the past several days, but haven't made the time to do that. Today is a "rest" day, so I will rest tonight and ice it.

Food today--
B: lite EMs w/lite turkey & 1 sl ff ch (4); coffee w/creamer (.5); fiber yogurt w/kashi (1.5); water
L: fat free tuna salad (1) on flat out wrap (2); crackers (2) w/lite string cheese (1)
S: apple (1); fat free sour cream & onion pringles (1)

Oh, almost forgot -- the WHOOSH fairy seems to have visited. I think I may be past my 6-9 range stall. Now down to "4.5". Hoping it continues to move down instead of creeping back up into that horrible stall range. At least in the past, as strange as it sounds, once I've gotten below the number ending in "6" on the scale, there is pretty steady downward movement. Hopefully, with the stepped up (excuse the pun!) half-marathon training, it will all be downhill from here.

 

[toystoryduo]

Hey Cam!

Sounds like you have been busy. Way to go staying OP!

I'm sending some for your DD's college decision. WISHing her the very best!

I hope you have a great Wednesday! Thank you so much for your encouragement in my journal.

 

[keenercam]

I'm sending some for your DD's college decision. WISHing her the very best!

Thanks, Tracy! Usually, if she were to act like her whole future is at stake, I'd think she was being a drama-queen! But, the fact is, this is a very important decision and I am kind of glad she is taking it this seriously!

I hope you have a great Wednesday! Thank you so much for your encouragement in my journal.

Always my pleasure. Just wish I had something to contribute besides and !

Well, I just succumbed to 2/3 helping of fat free sour cream & onion pringles. UGH!!! It's less than a point, but I am more frustrated because I know it is stress eating.

Off to find some chocolate!

 

[eeyore25]

Hi Cam!

So sorry that I have been mia.....just getting caught up on your journal....

You are doing such a great job! Keep up the good work

Hope you had a great day and a wonderful Thursday!

 

[Mykelogan]

Hi Cam!

Long time, no see me in here! hehe SORRY! Thank you for your continued support in my journal. I really appreciate it!
I hope that all is going well with your training and your DD's college decision issues. That is a very important decision for her to make and I wish her the best! I actually applied Early Decision myself. Chickened out after I mailed it in, so I was supposed to just be put in the regular admissions pile, but the school messed up and accepted me ED anyway. So I had my ED acceptance but was not bound by it because they messed up. I ended up going there anyway! hehe I was so excited to know in December where I was headed while everyone else I knew still scrambled. hehe So I know some of what she is feeling!

Good luck balancing the 5mile sof training and the 5K this weekend!
Have a great night!
Mike

 

[frogmommy]

Hi Cam

What an exciting time for your DD. I agree, it's great that she is taking it all so seriously.

I saw that you were frustrated over some stress eating. The thing is, you limited it to about a point, right? So even through it was stress eating you were able to make a good choice for yourself.

Have a good day.

 

[keenercam]

Thanks, Mike & Heather! I really appreciate your support.

Well, last night was one of those "voracious" out of control eating nights and I used 6 FPs!!!! UGH!!! I just couldn't seem to get enough food. My stomache was growling constantly and I still can't figure out why. The bad thing is that today it was so loud and so hungry that I had to eat a bowl of (weightsmart) oatmeal mid-morning or I would have eaten everything in sight. I have heard other full and 1/2 marathoners say they are going through the same thing, but this is ridiculous! I am going to try to be really good tonight and just ate a banana to tide me over through my workout. Will probably call Howard on my way home (about 7:30, probably) to ask him to start something for me for dinner so that I don't walk in the house and start eating everything in sight.

Today's food so far:
B: WW breakfast sandwich (4); apple (1); coffee w/cream (1); water
S: weight smart oatmeal (3)
L: light multigrain EM w/lite turkey (2); 2 light tortillas (3) spread with 5 cubes laughing cow light swiss (1)
S: banana (2)

I'll probably end up using my 3-4 APs that I earn tonight, but I am definitely going to make a HUGE salad to fill up on at dinner.

 

[Cruise04]

Sorry you are struggling lately. I hate it when I eat and then just can't seem to be full. That's when I'm the worst.

Hang in there - you are doing a good job. It will pass I'm sure.

Keep on
Chris

 

[MagicalMom]

Boy your training sounds like it's going great! I know stress eating can be terrible, but it sounds like you are staying strong.

 

[Blueeyes101817]

sorry you are struggling lately...its been rough over on this end lately too..maybe its the weather getting colder? who knows !
you are doing great and im sure you will be done with the struggling soon
have a great weekend

 

[gradtchr]

Sorry that you had a rough day the other day, hope all is better now.

I just really really really wanted to say thank you for manning the October challenge. You will never know how much it was needed/appreciated by me. It was certainly the motivation I needed and I truly appreciate the time you put into it!

 

[toystoryduo]

Hi Cam!

How did your weekend go? I hope you had a good one!

Have a wonderful Monday!

 

[Mykelogan]

Hey Cam!!

Welcome to november! Hope you are doing well!!
Thanks so much for your continued support over on my journal!

Mike

 

[keenercam]

Hi, everyone! I am still here, just not posting much due to time pressures and work commitments.

The weekend was great, except that I ate too much! Definitely made use of those FPs last week! I totally grossed myself out on Halloween eating candy. I am NOT a candy person, and yet, for some reason, I was completely powerless to resist. I overestimated that I ate 10 points worth of candy, took the hit to my FPs, and moved on.

The scale was down another .5 this morning, so I can see that 40 lb WISH clippie right within my reach. I am now only 9 pounds from the weight I want to be for the 1/2 marathon. I think it is 9 1/2 weeks away. I am NOT good at losing more than a 1/2 pound or so in any given week, so I will really have to buckle down and focus in order to get to that goal, especially considering the holidays! The real problem is that I have been absolutely voracious on days I work out and the mornings after. I have to figure out what kinds of foods I can use to effectively fuel my body and my hunger.

Our trip to HH is less than 3 weeks away, and the thought of it is really sustaining me!

Half marathon training is becoming so much more demanding, and there is no light when I leave work. This is very frustrating. And I think I have to move my LW from Saturday to Sunday this weekend because of DD17's SATs Saturday morning. We have to pray that her testing site can take her as a walk-in, since we didn't register her for this testing session. UGH!

Funny thing is DS12 has to sit for them very soon, too. He was selected for the Johns Hopkins University Talent Search and whether he gets in or not is dependent on an SAT or ACT score. I have to figure out when he can take that and then get him registered for it. The more I think about it the more I think he should take the ACT so that there won't be the inevitable comparison between his score and Jenn's on the SAT. Will have to give that some thought.

Alright, I have to get back to work. More later. I hope to catch up on journals in the next couple of days too, now that the October exercise challenge is done and finally updated.

 

[NYcpa]

Cam - I'm at the same place you are for the marathon training. I agree with you about it being dark when we get done with work. I just resort the the treadmill and the stationary bike for the cross training. I can't imagine doing the LW on the treadmill. My pace is better outside but the CNY winters are approachihng.

Have a great rest of the week.

 

[keenercam]

Cam - I'm at the same place you are for the marathon training. I agree with you about it being dark when we get done with work. I just resort the the treadmill and the stationary bike for the cross training. I can't imagine doing the LW on the treadmill. My pace is better outside but the CNY winters are approachihng.

Have a great rest of the week.

Thanks, Kathy! I did my mid-week walking last week at the fountain walk, and it was really cold there with the wind blowing across the water. It is lit, though, so that is good. When I was leaving there, right after 8 there were some wild looking kids showing up to skateboard, and there had been some scary looking men hanging out in a group earlier, but fortunately, there were other people there walking their dogs, etc. It is going to be even darker tomorrow night, when I try to do my warm-up, then 40 minutes, cool down, and then form/stride drills. I'll just have to work to get there by about 6:30 so I can wrap it up by 8. Still scary, though.

 

[toystoryduo]

Morning Cam!

Stopping by to WISH you a wonderful Thursday! Take care!

 

[keenercam]

Thanks, Tracy! Looking forward to eating smart today and getting in a great 1/2 marathon workout tonight.

B: sugar free cinnamon roll (2); lite yogurt w/kashi (2); coffee w/creamer (1)
S: sugar free candies
L: lite english muffin w/spread ff cheese & lettuce (1); "free salad" w/2 lite string cheese cut up (2); homemade chicken noodle soup (fat free broth w/yolk free egg noodles) (3)
S: fat free pringles (1) <---- there! I've done it. Instead of eating them spontaneously and feeling guilty about it, I am going to just plan for them. That will give me something to look forward to for that mid-afternoon hunger surge.
D (just something small before I leave my office) -- soup at hand tomato (2)
real dinner (9:15 UGH!) -- not sure yet. Probably a WW or LC frozen meal.

I bought some sweet & low hard candies that I am hoping will help curb my hunger today. I can't get over how HUGE my appetite is these days.

 

[keenercam]

All of my best intentions seem to fly out the window from late afternoon on, especially on days I have a heavy-duty workout. Yesterday's food ended up being:
B: sugar free cinnamon roll (2); lite yogurt w/kashi (2); coffee w/creamer (1)
S: sugar free candies
L: lite english muffin w/spread ff cheese & lettuce (1); "free salad" w/2 lite string cheese cut up (2); homemade chicken noodle soup (fat free broth w/yolk free egg noodles) (3)
S: fat free pringles (2) <---2 servings, instead of 1
D: (here is where things went really bad as I didn't get home until 9:30 and then I ate for about an hour!)
lite tortilla w/turkey & lettuce (2)
ww pot roast dinner (4)
veggie egg roll baked (3)
2 philly swirl pops (2)
baked tortillas (1)
fat free devil's food cookie (1)

Let's hope I can be a bit more disciplined today.
B: 2 lite tortillas w/1 oz turkey & 1 sl ff cheese (6); coffee w/cream (1)
L: "free" salad (0); tomato basil soup (this looks and smells so good -- 140 cals; 3.5g fat; 6g fiber -- 2 points)

I am planning on about 45-60 minutes of cross training tonight, so I have to find a way to stave off my hunger before I go to the gym so that I don't overeat when I get home.

cross-posted from the training thread, so I have my progress information here:

Well, I am glad to report I was able to do my 40 minutes last night and then 4 sets of stride/speed drills. My knee was so odd yesterday -- it kept clicking and rubbing and it felt like it had to "crack" like a knuckle -- I think someone else described this sensation a couple of weeks ago. I think wearing heels all day yesterday did not help. Most of the first mile was painful last night and I kept thinking "I cannot do this. What if my legs feel like this on 1/7?" And once again I reminded myself of all you have taught me and the encouragement and just figured I'd push on, even if my pace wasn't great. Lily's "You have to put in the steps" became my mantra. Thanks Lily!

I am still astonished at the concept that the human body can feel so different from one day to the next or even one hour to the next. My legs literally felt like lead and I had no energy at all whatsoever. My time ended up being 52:04 for 3.24 miles (16:04 pace), so it is good to know I can pull that off even when I am at what felt like my "worst".

I am now convinced that I have to be more proactive about fueling my body. Get back to taking my vitamins every day (they got packed when my office was being painted/carpeted, and I haven't put them back on my desk yet) and eat something energizing before I leave my office to go work out.

Tonight is xt (probably elliptical) and my LW of 6 miles will be Sunday instead of tomorrow, I think, due to time issues.

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Cam--you are doing great!! im so happy for you!

have a great weekend