I've been working as an RN for almost five months now and I'm stressed to the max

! When I was in nursing school I had no idea how much life would be sucked out of me working fulltime. I have four school-aged kids (6-10) who barely recognize me as their Mom after what they've been through the last 2.5 yrs with my school and now my job

. So how do other nurses balance their jobs and family life? I currently work nights, four shifts a week (trying to get to three 12s) and it's kicking my butt. I have no energy for anyone or anything when I am home, half awake. Nursing school did not prepare me at all for what this job is like

. I am not working on a unit I would have chosen (post-surgical and bariatric surgery pts), but it could be worse. I think I have to stick around in my current job for at least a year before I can try and move to a better hospital/job. The hospitals around me do hire some new grads, but there are so many schools putting out new nurses that the market is saturated with unemployed nurses. I originally wanted to be a nurse to supplement our income (thought it would help fund our retirement, vacations, orthodontics, etc), I don't necessarily
have to work (it pays for extras and covers the gap between dh's old salary and his new one after being unemployed 9 months) so it is hard to struggle right now with putting my kids second fiddle just to make a paycheck (okay so we are better off with my paycheck, but if I wasn't working we would survive). I don't know whether to drop to part time or suck it up and wait for a better schedule and hope that when the kids go back to school things will go more smoothly around the house, I can get proper sleep without worrying about them getting into something, and that my work days (nights) will drop to three. I know some new nurses would love to be in my shoes, but the other new hires on the unit feel just as stressed as me, so I can't be that much of a princess

. Please tell me this gets better and I will figure out how to manage my new career/life!