I really like to run but sometimes-especially training for this marathon when I think I've bitten off more than I could possibly chew-I ask myself Why am I doing this again? I have been running for a little more than a year- the bottom line is- when I started running - I was more than 30 lbs heavier, deeply depressed, and hated the way I looked and felt- I never want to go back to being that girl- so even when I have had a bad run, even when I don't hit that milage goal or timed goal or break that PR- I take a step back- reevaluate the game plan- and just head out the door for a run with no watch, no planned distance -just me and my shoes
That's a great attitude Dottie. I don't think you have bitten off more than you can chew--you and I are alike in that I don't think either one of us are very good at cutting ourselves some slack or having faith in our abilities. I think one of my biggest problems--I do NOTHING without a watch or a mileage tracker. I am always tracking something. Minutes, miles, reps, etc. I think the never wanting to go back to that overweight girl is motivating me too, and remembering how sad I was last year when I could not run or do much of anything.
Hmm...I think my mind is a lot tougher than my body. I am near constantly plagued by some injury or another, but I want to do the miles. Not necessarily as I'm doing them, but in general I want to complete them. I love that feeling of accomplishment, saying I went 6 miles or 3 miles or 10 miles - even if it's just crossing it off on my own training plan.
When I find myself staring at my watch too much, I first try to redirect my thinking - what would I rather be doing? If I was at home, I'd be playing the 5th round of dollhouse with DD, doing laundry, etc.
So I try to appreciate what is positive (this didn't come naturally, this is something I trained myself to do the past few months) - I'm getting some time to myself, I try to find little interesting things along my path, and listen to whatever podcasts or music I want. Secondly, I'll adjust my pace for a little while - either speed up if I want to or slow down if I'd rather make it an easier run.
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Well, as Rose knows from Facebook, I completed my 13 miles yesterday. Decided to do 13.1 just so I could say I did a half.

Just before halfway, something was hurting behind my knee. I think I may have pulled a muscle - I think right at the top of the calf. It's kind of in between the calf and hamstring. My mom freaked me out by thinking it's cartilage (which I tore 16 years ago now). I was able to finish - I really focused on Chi Walking, and if I landed with a slightly bent leg as is their recommended form, it was okay. I'm icing and will see how it goes. The good news is that I had a ton of energy. I'm happy with my fuel. I took some advice from a running book I'm reading about mixing up Gu type stuff with candy. When else do I let myself eat 250 calories worth of candy corn in one day?!
I loved the bolded part Nicole! Thanks for sharing. That is a great point--what would I rather be doing? Well, sometimes sleeping, haha. But most of the time running, working out, etc is what I want to be doing.
I hope the leg is feeling better. For months after I finished rehab this last time, I expected to get injured on every run. I was so tense, I expected something to break. As Mike likes to point out--sometimes things just hurt and sometimes they hurt a lot, but that doesn't mean it's a doom or gloom situation every time. Hopefully this was one of those times, where it was no big deal!
Candy corn is a great idea. I eat all kinds of weird things, before and after running. It definitely is a continuing experiment.
The ToT day was the muggiest I've ever had at WDW! Good for you and your family for completing the 10-Miler! It is definitely on my list for next year.
So glad I wasn't signed up this year though, as I came down sick starting on Wednesday night. By Friday I had a full-blown upper respiratory monster in my chest and head; I could barely breathe. I decided to go ahead and pick up my race packet and shirt for the 5K and just see how I felt the next day. I really wanted to spend time in the Expo but decided to just get the heck out of there to limit everyone's exposure to my germ factory. Went back to our room and slept for 4 hours.
Got up at 5am and decided I'd go to the race and if I passed out half way through they could sweep me, lol. WOW - was it muggy, especially back in the trees where there was not a whisper of a breeze. I finished the run though by doing one minute intervals of jog/walk and stopped for all of the water stops and photo ops.
I hope it was fun! I'm sorry about the cold, but I am glad you were able to get out there.
Are you starting to feel a bit better with the break time, Rose? Hope so!
Thank you for asking. I am feeling better. Monday I did the elliptical for 30 minutes and piyo. Tuesday I ran with my DH. Today I ran in the pool for 50 minutes. But I have not lifted a single weight or done any ab work outside of yoga. And I might even skip my piyo class tonight.

Tomorrow I will run, and Friday I am taking the day off before our long run! I feel slightly guilty, but I am excited!
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QOTW
You're tired, you're hungry, everything hurts (and what doesn't hurt now, you are sure will hurt tomorrow), the weather stinks, etc. We talked before about how you get out the door when you just don't want to, but this week I am thinking about how I keep going when I just don't want to. Share any thoughts if you would like.
I have been thinking about this a bunch this week. As I said earlier, I think a lot of my frustration comes from the fact that I feel like every workout has to have a purpose, and check off a box, etc. I am very, very anxious about this marathon. I purposely am only going up to ~20-22 miles for training which is part of the reason I am pushing all these other workouts so hard, but it is tiring some days. And many of you know--I wanted to run a 1/2 marathon for about a decade before I finally did it. I just kept quitting part way into the training. So I think that is where the anxiety is coming from, too.
So my plan--keep pushing, but schedule a few more off days as needed. Walk more if I need to and remind myself that the goal is to finish uninjured. Period. Not worry about my speed right now--I am having some issues with the correct form for running faster in the Newton's which is making me tired too I think.
Basically, I am going to remember what Nicole said and remind myself--what else do I really want to be doing. I have worked very hard, and I can do this.
I have already warned Mike to expect a HUGE sobfest at the finish line. I usually get weepy at the end of races anyhow, so I can't even imagine what this one is going to be like!
Have a great Wednesday.
