Taryn--

Birthdays are really hard for me to. I don't why, but it is a huge reminder to me of what crappy parents I have. I am trying really hard to be positive about it and celebrate my accomplishments, but I'm getting a little weepy just thinking about it. I know your Daddy is looking down on you and smiling. He would want you to be happy for your birthday, and be proud of yourself, and how well you've handled such a tough summer.

147 was my original goal, and I feel like I am in the best shape of my life, but I would like to lose, maybe another 5-10 pounds. I still have that 135 college weight in my head--the weight where I thought I was fat.
Rose

. I know it has to be hard to hear how close I am to my parents, yet you stay so supportive. I think the bottom line is that our relationships with our parents have such a HUGE factor in our lives, good and bad, and for me, with my girls still at home, scares me daily to know how a comment when I am in a bad mood, etc. can scar them for life. You and Maria have both made me super aware of this this year, and I thank you for helping me be a better parent. Don't get me wrong, I love my girls tremendously, but unfortunately since they are home with me when no one else is, can bear the brunt of my frustration, exhaustion if I am not careful. That makes the situation sound worse than it is, I hope you get what I am saying. I expect so much of myself, and them sometimes, and you have let me see that while expectations are healthy, the way I vocalize them is of utmost importance. As for your weight, I think you were smart to move to maintenance until your mind catches up, but I get it. When I am in big losing mode, I toy with "how few calories can I eat today to get more weight off" and "how low can I go". You are not alone. There is a huge mental aspect to weight loss, as we have found out, and we need to watch that as carefully as we do the diet and exercise components. Another hug, just because that's what I would do if you were here. I'm so thankful to have you as a friend! You've gotta post more pictures after your race, can't wait to see the new "do"! Good job with no exercise yesterday. Would you have thought 9 months ago you would be saying you are an exercise fanatic and would need coaching not to? Amazing, lady!
I ended up getting motivated by the music and completing my workout!!! Even when I was done (and still 15 minutes from home) I didn't use the umbrella... it was nicer to walk in the rain. I was soaked by the time I got home.

I'm sure the people driving thought I was crazy.
Nat, something about running in the rain makes me feel a lot more hard core than I am, and is motivating! Glad you went for it!
I think whats really helping me this time, at the help of my dietician, is finding out that Im not average. Consuming 2000 calories a day for the average person is fine to maintain weight, but for me it will make me gain weight. For a person of my height, its more around 1600 calories to maintain weight. So to lose weight, I have to consume 1100 calories. Its been difficult but it has really helped my weight loss.
That's something that takes time for everyone, and so glad you've gotten on board. It can be very frustrating to realize that our individual bodies react in different ways. Example, I had a bad weekend with food, really binged Sunday and had pizza Saturday. Now, most people can have pizza with no ill effects. Me, I gained 10 pounds in 24 hours. Knowing I have to be more careful than many is maddening at times, but making these discoveries is key to living healthy lives!
I have always been bigger than my friends, although I never felt that big - I still don't feel as big as I am. It's not until I see my jeans held up in front of me that I realise how big I've got. My mum, as a small lady, has never understood my struggle and always comments whenever she sees me on how big I am and how much I need to go to the gym and the kind of things I eat. There's a whole issue there that I need to work through. I've never been part of a group for something like this but so glad that I found you at the beginning of my journey!I look forward to getting to know you all!
Welcome Cheryl! We look forward to getting to know you, too.

I think the comparison factor is huge, and can mess with us mentally. I look the best I ever have, people I've known forever don't recognize me. Yet, I still weigh more than my mother, even though her clothes are big on me. She's only 5'1, I'm 5'7. I had another instance where a lady at school, that I thought I was thinner than she was, has lost weight and recently told me her weight. It was a full 25 pounds less than mine. Yes, I am at least 6 inches taller. I am constantly comparing myself to people, and asking DH - do I look like her? Sometimes, I am being wayyyy tooo optimistic, and sometimes, it is someone I looked like 60 pounds ago. I know this isn't exactly what you were referring to, but others comparing us to them just doesn't cut it, and vise versa! It will do nothing but bring us sadness!
Just checking in again. CLeaned DD2s room. She's been sleeping on the couch for the last 2+ hours. This bug really took a lot out of her. Our schedule has started to get crazy already. I also sell children's books on the side for extra Disney/Christmas money. This thread is so addicting!!!!!!
I didn't know you sold books? How did I miss that! Hope DD will be recovered completely by the time school starts, so she doesn't start out at a disadvantage! Empathize with your schedule! We'll make it, somehow!
I was definitely doing some mindless eating. Luckily I caught myself pretty quick. I made it through the day without going to the Y.
See, another mental game. Mindless eating. Where does that come from, why do I do it, and why can others without repercussions? Good for you catching it quickly! Mine is always chunks of fruit while I am at the computer, and I end up with a tummy ache!
I am Maureen(Lisa feel free to post next to my username), 37yo and married.
Maureen, heard yesterday that Earl is headed your way. Check in a lot so I don't stress, okay? I have an aunt in VA Beach, and thought of you first!

I haven't checked the forecast, just someone told me that Earl was headed for VA/NC beaches.
My weight loss journey began two years ago at 257. It was up and down and at the beginning of May, I weighed 238 pounds. Something inside me changed that day and since then, I've lost 38 pounds, much of it as a part of the BL Summer Challenge.
What she didn't tell you, folks, is that she was the Summer Challenge Biggest Loser!!!! You had a great summer! I know you can keep it up!!! Congrats!
I'm tired of always being the biggest one around, I'm tired of shopping in "the big girls section" I'm just tired of everything that being overweight brings to a person.
You've had a rough few years! Good job of recognizing it's time to take care of you! I had that moment in January. A lot of us dealing with losses, be sure to post so we can support each other!
I need motivation and with no one to offer me another $300 prize and no men to beat, I've been struggling. I LOVE food! Seriously love it and have used it for every emotion and event in my life. It would help if I wasn't a good cook or didn't like to cook.
I wish I could give you money!

But you have a great new group of friends for motivation, now! As another foodie, I empathize. I love it! While my cooking is mostly on the fly now, I have used that passion for food to try to "healthy up" meals, and plan nutritious ones. But I still watch Top Chef, cooking channel, and food network like nobodies business!
I teach Advanced Placement Calculus. I never went above my highest weight and over the last year I have lost about 15 pounds thanks to these challenges. I would like to lose about 25 pounds this time. I am not setting a specific number because if I don't think I can reach it I know I would give up. He did not get the one he wanted but the place called him up and offered him a part time job.
Okay, first, everytime you mention calculus, I join you guys with irregular heartbeats. I am just.....in awe. I do well to do my K kids math.

You are one of the most consistent BL's, and your steadfastness always calms me down. You are doing great! So glad DS got something in the way of a job, and I hope it will lead to full time soon!
Hi Bree, Im glad I gave you the motivation to sign up for the MCM10K, I am still so sad I couldnt be there with you. Hi Jeanette, I got to tell you your pic of that cupcake is giving me cravings I think we might have to give you an alias name for the challenge just to keep me out of the local bakery.
Lindsay - when did you decide not to do the MCM10K? I totally missed that! And

on your cupcake cravings! Now, cake is not on my list. Don't usually like it. Thank goodness she's not a brownie!
Lindsay makes a good point - the beginning of the challenge does move fast, and can be overwhelming getting to know everyone. HANG IN THERE and don't get intimidated!
Since i'm new to this can you guys teel me how to copy what someone said like with the box around it. (i hope that made sence)
If you just want to copy what one person said and respond to them, click the button on the bottom right of their post that says Quote. It will give you a box like you normally reply to threads on, with their statement at the top. If you want to quote multiple people, like I did, click the + signs in each of their quotes, and the quote button on the last one you want to quote. You'll get a reply box, with all of the stuff in it, and you can insert your cursor after the little brackets with the word quote in it to respond to each one. Feel free to practice on us, it took me a few tries to get it right!
Taryn -

I am so sorry to hear this. I am already thinking of you often and hoping you find extra moments of peace to get through your busy days. I feel so bad for your whole family to have to deal with this tragedy. Please know that we all support you here.
Thanks Jen.
This is going to sound strange. I loved my cousin. He was a fun guy. But he was 20 years older than me, and I only saw him a few times a year at best. I am more upset for his parents, my mom's sister and her husband, who just found out he has cancer, and his daughter, who was very much a Daddy's girl and is 30. I don't mean to sound unfeeling, but since I see him so infrequently, the sense of personal loss isn't as strong as the worry about his family and feeling sad for their loss?

I am very close to my aunt and uncle, and his daughter was more my age and I definitely empathize with her. It's going to be a tough few days. \
I also worry about mom, she had already started moving back into a bigger depression with the anniversary of Daddy's death looming. Don't know if I've shared this or not, but every Saturday, she writes on the calendar how many weeks it has been since he died. The calendar is in front of you when you walk in the door, and seeing that multiple times a week is hard. On the 19th of every month, she writes how many months. I don't say anything, b/c we all deal in different ways, but it really bothers me.
This is gotten really long, going to continue in a new box.