Beth's Journal-Bring It!

[lulu201]

, , . Oh, honey, life can be so trying at times. Sometimes it seems like we're almost drowned in the junk of it all. Hang in there, OK?

Erin

 

[toystoryduo]

Beth. You will be in my thoughts and prayers today, sweetie. I'm sending Katie some so that she will feel better soon.

Take good care of you!

 

[Strings]

Well, i have some wonderful friends. Libby, a coworker, called to see if we could do coffee today. I talked with her about what is going on, and she came over for the morning to watch Katie. She said I needed coffee and a good workout. It was positively the nicest thing anyone could have done for me today. I went to the Y and Starbucks. I will do the grocery shopping toight after Katie is in bed. Katie is feeling better. I may let her go to school tomorrow. I have a horrible headache. Migraine potential, we'll have to see. I know it is related to stress and too little sleep. Won and I still haven't resolved anything, but I am at least calm about it now, or should I say for now.

Meals today...
B: Eggs and ww toast.
S: Latte.
L: ww luinguine with alfredo and salad. (OG carryout.)
D: I am making grilled chicken and broccoli. I m pretty nauseated right now, may have tea and toast myself.

I'm off. I'll get to journals as soon as my head clears.
Beth

 

[keenercam]

Oh, Beth, I am so sorry you are going through so much right now. I wish I lived closer so I could at least offer to help with Katie or bring you your favorite coffee.

I really do understand how you feel about what happened with the korean name -- UGH! I don't know what to say to make you feel better, except that maybe you can find a bright spot in the happiness Katie is feeling right now. I know it is such a bittersweet situation, but you'll come through it. Ethnic traditions are sooo hard to overcome. Believe me -- I know.

All I can do for you right now is to remind you how many people care about you here.

Sending prayers and that Katie will feel better by morning physically and that you will soon feel better physically and emotionally and psychologically.

Take care of you, Beth.

 

[Strings]

I am feeling much better this mornng. I got lots of sleep, and the headache is just a twinge. Won and I have not yet dealt with our issues. Ill be honest. I expect an apology at least. Katie is feeling better, and I am sending her to school today.

Plan for the day...
Cardio at the Y.
Grocery shopping.
Katie will need a nap.
Ballet class?
Journals.
I also need to start laundry.

Meal Plans...
B:SBD cereal with milk tea.
L: Salad
S: Apple with peanut butter.
D: Stir fry.

Gotta run,
Beth

 

[Strings]

The chinese was great last night, spicy sauce and lots of fresh veggies, but boy did I get the munchies during Lost. I ended up eating cereal, better than the chocolate brownies Katie made yesterday. Oh well.

Won and I are stuck in a battle of the wills right now. Something is going to give today. We have a deal. I cook dinner, he dos the dishes. Dishes haven't been washed since Monday. He does this every time he gets angry with me. It is incredible childish, and I usually end up doing a huge pile of dishes. I am not going to do them this time. My turn to be childish. Of course, I had to fill Pez's water dish in the bathroom, and I will need to figure out something for dinner that I can grill because all of the pots are waiting to be washed. Petty, I know.
Plan for today...
Laundry.
Y for weights and cardio.
Clean the pit that I call a house, so that Won and katie can trash it over the weekend.
Meal Plan....
B: SBD cereal and tea.
L: Salad and ham/cheese rollups.
D:Grilled Italian chicken green beans and salad.

I'll hit journals during my tv time.
Take care,
Beth

 

[keenercam]

Good morning, Beth! Great choice on cereal instead of brownies! Bet that made you feel great, right?

UGH! about the dishes. You may even want to consider microwaving something so you don't have to deal with pots or the grill. I hope you guys get past this impasse soon. I am sure the tension is not great for anyone.

Have a wonderful day! It is absolutely gorgeous here. I hope it is there, too. Maybe you and Pez can get outside for a short walk in the sunshine!

 

[lulu201]

on your day, honey. Grill? Microwave? Naah, you've got to do Outback Steakhouse take-out or something! Serve it on paper plates with plastic utensils! He'll get the message!

Oh, Beth, I hope this whole thing can be resolved between the two of you soon. It's no fun for anyone, I'm sure.

,
Erin

 

[Blueeyes101817]

hi beth--sorry i havent read in a couple of days..so i am just getting caught up..
i am so sorry about everything going on with katies Korean name..i can just imagine how furious you were, and i dont blame you!
hopefully won will back down and start talking and apologize to you soon...i agree you should go eat at a restaurant..no cooking allowed :0 have a great nigth

 

[Strings]

I am so sorry that I didn't get to journals. I decided that we needed to hash out this issue. Is suppoe we did. I am still not satisfied. He still thinks I am overreacting, and he didn't apologize. At least we are talking again. I went to bed at 10PM.

Weighin was at 222. I am down 3 pounds. That is more like it.

My tummy is a bit upset today. I am still going to the Y for some cardio, but I will listen to my body. If I need to take it easy, I will.
Today starts another work weekend. I work 12 on Friday and Saturday. A 16 on Sunday. I then pik Katie up at 1145. We have dance Sat evening. I will probably do journals Monday or tuesday. Sorry.

Plan for the day....
Cardio at the Y.
Quick stop at the grocery store.
Put away laundry from Yesterday.
Pick up Katie.
NAP.
Work.

Meal Plan...
B: Eggs and tea.
S: Apple with peanut buter.
L: Salad.
5PM: eggs and latte headed into work.
9PM: Ham/cheese rollups.
2AM: Salad and apple.
7AM: SBD cereal and tea.

Ok I am off. Have a great weekend.
Beth

 

[DoeWDW]

Beth, what a week you have had!!

If I had known that the school or tradition would dictate the Korean name for Katie, and that it would be MIL's name, I'm not sure I would have given you the advice to play along. I was always under the impression that Katie could PICK a name she liked. Since she is going to use the name, at least her classmates will associate Jin Young with a very sweet, caring and beautiful Katie. She can redeem the honor of that name after PG ran it into the ground.

I hope you served take-out food on paper plates last evening. Don't you dare touch those dishes! Won will have to cook sometime this weekend and will take the hint.

I do hope the tension between the two of you eases. I know it takes two to fight and I'm usually the first one to kiss and make up in my house, but he really should apologize. Whether he agrees with you or not, he should at least be sensitive enough to see how hurt you were. Not washing the dishes all week?? Childish - definitely. Not being adult enough to get to the drugstore for Katie's meds?? Very close to unforgiveable - he'd better do some major apologizing for that one!

I know this will be a long few days of work for you. Do what you can to make your life easier. I'll keep you close to my heart and send prayers up on your behalf, sweetie.

 

[keenercam]

Since she is going to use the name, at least her classmates will associate Jin Young with a very sweet, caring and beautiful Katie. She can redeem the honor of that name after PG ran it into the ground.

I am definitely with Doreen on that! Beth, I hope you have a good weekend and that you don't wear yourself out. Take good care of you. I will be thinking of you and sending and :

Hugs,
Cam

 

[DoeWDW]

It's Monday morning, dear Beth, and you are in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[toystoryduo]

Beth,

I hope that your Monday is a relaxing one. Take care, sweetie.

 

[Blueeyes101817]

hope you were able to relax a bit today!!
make sure you listen to your body if you are too tired or sick to work out....have a great week

 

[lulu201]

Hey, Beth. Happy Tuesday. I hope you got some good rest yesterday. Try to take some time for yourself today, OK?

,
Erin

 

[septbride2002]

I'm glad that you and DH are at least on speaking terms. I'm so sorry that you are going through this yet again with you husband's family. I know many times my husband thinks I'm mad for one reason, when it really is another. I think the underlying issue here is that when you told him you didn't want that name he didn't respect your feelings and took the easy way out. I'm sure it would not have been hard for Won to talk to the teacher privately about the name situation, but he didn't want to cause a ruckus. Be sure to communicate that to Won - you are mad becuase he didn't value your feelings. If he is like my husband he will realize you are right about that and will then feel terrible.

I know how hard it is when your husband puts his families feelings before your own. When Brian and I were dating he ALWAYS did whatever his sister or mother wanted. He could not say no to them, to the point where it was really annoying. Right after we got married my aunt got really sick with bone cancer and I really wanted to go to Christmas with that side of the family because she wasn't going to be with us much longer. It took a little rearrganing of traditions but most everyone was fine with it. Then that Christmas eve it snowed, and snowed, and snowed making traffic terrible! My SIL wanted to go to her grandmothers over an hour away (with good traffic) and wanted DH to go with her. Instead of saying No because he knew it would screw up everything he went along. I was FURIOUS to say the least! He made us almost 2 hours late to Christmas and general messed up everyone's schedules because people waited for us and so on. When he walked in the door I looked him straight in the eye and said, "If you are going to continue putting your families feelings before my own then this marriage is NEVER going to work and we might as well file for divorce on Monday because I will not be second in your life." Is this dramatic - Oh yea! And it isn't somehting I suggest - but it got my point across. He has never done it again.

You might need to spell it out to Won exactly why you are mad - I suggest doing it calmly and not the way I did it because man that could have backfired on me. But men are not as in tune with us emotionally as they think they are.

Good Luck sweetie!

~Amanda

 

[Cruise04]

I have just finished what's been going on in your life and I just want to say I'm so sorry but stick to your guns. A marriage is a two part relationship - not a one part. Sounds like your dh needs to stop acting like a baby and help you out some. I'd be totally pissed by now and would have revolted big time.

Congrats on the weight loss!!!! Good job.

Keep on
Chris

 

[Strings]

Well, I am certainly not in the running for Mommy-of-the-year award. After another hellish weekend, I was tking a nap before getting Katie. Power flickered, so no larm. Yep, slept through getting Katie. They ended up holding her in the office until Won could pick her up. I didn't even hear the phone. I was so tired I ended up eating my way through the day. Today will be different.

Plan..
Walk Pez.-done.
Workout-done 2 weight circuits and 45 inutes on the glider.
PICK UP KATIE-Yeah! I didn' forget.
Grocery shopping.
Clean the living room.
Make Dinner.
Go to school's ice cream social, and NOT eat any ice cream.

Meal Plan..
B: 2 eggs and te.
L: Salad with grilled chicken.
S: Latte.
D: Baked chicken, salad, broccoli.
I will do journals this evening.

Take care,
Beth

We are home from the ice cream social. It was also a building dedication. They selected a child a random to cut the ribbon, and Katie ws the kid. It was so cute. They handed her adult scissors, and she said that she wasn't allowed to grown-up scissors. There were about 350 people there. The principal suggested the do it together, and she got to keep a part of the ribbon. She ws so excited, but got very emberrassed when everyone laughed at her comment. She rallied though and cut the ribbn. Mama was proud of her. I also stayed away from the ice cream.

Off to bed.
Beth

 

[Strings]

Uh-oh. I did somethinglast night, I haven't done since I was pregnant with Katie. I have always been a sleep walker. Our outside doors are rigged to alarm. I only do it when exhausted and stressed. Won found me sleepwalking last night, but instead of walking, I was eating. Not good. I ate an entire bag of pretzels. I suppose I should be happy it wasn't ice cream or cake. My instinct is to go the the Y this morning, and kill myself on the glider.Instead, I am going back to bed after Katie is on the bus. I work my mandatory overtime form 1930-0000 tonight, and they will pressure me to stay until 0400. I am not going to do it.

Plan for the day...
Nap.
Walk Pez.
Clean bathrooms.
Take Katie to ballet.
Make dinner fpr Won and Katie.
Work until midnight.

Meal Plan...
B: SBD cereal and tea.
L: Salad.
D: eggs and ww toast or me. (quick and easy)

I'm off.
Beth