thanks guys for thinking about me!!!! i means so much to me!
well, it went terrible. not only did i not get any answers, i got more ?'s!!!! i got more bad news instead of good news. i'm just so darn down from it all. not sure what my next step is??? and the dr's don't help. they give you all your options and then won't really voice what they think is best. like they don't want to say one way or another is the way to go.
then we did the wake and it was so terrible sad. not that they are all not sad, but to see a grown man 6 1/2 feet tall crying is just plain sad. i have know him my whole life. he lived in my neighborhood growing up and was my friend and i introduced dh to him and then they have become the very best of friends. my dh said last night, "do you know how much i hate to do this?" and i asked "what wakes in general? or because you don't want to see John like this?" and he said "well wakes, but especially because its Johnny's brother" and it's sad that you have to see old friends under such sad circumstances.
thanks everyone. you all are the very best friends a girl can have.