Definitely.
Do you have a school with a counseling program there? Hubby and I, when we weren't even hubby and wifey, got couples counseling from a Masters degree candidate at a local university with a program in family therapy. She was quite good, and was totally supervised (they videotaped us and it was shown to her professor). It was very very good from the first session to the last.
It was sliding scale.
And that is really too bad. Hubby was once on paxil, and his doctor urged him very strongly to see a counselor (family doc prescribed it, not a psychiatrist) but hubby refused. Paxil ended up having depression-worsening effects, his doc refused to help him off b/c he wasn't getting counseling, hubby went off cold turkey (not recommended, he says, from experience) and THEN found counseling that got him about 3/4 of the way back to normal. Other changes he made got him the rest of the way.
So counseling should be an absolute when taking medicines, especially when you WANT counseling.
Find someone...you've got a lot of hurt feelings inside, and you've got to ork them out. I'm sorry I was kinda hard on you; I didn't realize that you had posted about them before (I had read them before, but I try REALLY hard to NOT remember who posted what b/c I want to reply to people based on what they are saying, not on what I remember from their lives), but now I can see why you're keeping yourself so separate from them. :hug
You've got to have someone non-involved to talk to, so you can check in and see what's normal and what's not. Even an online support group can do that, as long as you can listen to them.