Anyone????

[AvrielSilver]

I just need to know if there is anyone out there who had depressions in waves. Anything can set them off. As in...
For awhile you are perfectly happy, nothing can get you down, You loose something, you jsut think you'll find it soon enough. That kind of things, even the most prized possessions missing and you just feel wonderful. Your room is organised, and tidy, sure it gets cluttered now and then...but nothing big.
Then everything starts to pile up in your life, and you find yourself looking over a journal and finding out you have a thing where you get to as happy as you can be, then are as depressed as you can be.. to where your ready to kill yourself, over something as simple as breaking the lead of a pencil in a pancil sharpner and jamming it. you feel worthless, stupid, like you can't do anything right. You then find every error in your life that you have done and your depression is like a downward spiral. Then a parent yells at you for not doing something for that reason, and it gets worse. You get to the point where you are cutting yourself, then you are still thinking of suicide, but aren't ready to go though with it. you feel utterly alone, your room ends up having old canisters from food, glasses that have been up their for a week, you start not taking care of yourself, all you can see at the end of life is death, then suddenly your happy again. Anything can trigger the depression, and afterwards what you did within it make no sense and seem stupid, everything that seemed reasonable then.

Is there ANYONE out there who goes through this? close to it? I don't expect anyone to be exact, I just need something or SOMEONE to relate to. i need to know I'm not alone in this world...I am in one of those now, and I have not gotten any help yet, if we do get help I miss out on disney...I know this is alot to do when I'm only a newbie, but I need it...Anyone who can at least tell what this is?

 

[teh fish]

it could be bi-polar. Really high highs and really low lows. I dunno.

 

[Ali Gator]

I have to tell you, I go through it but differently. I have my highs and lows but it's not terrible. When I'm depressed it's over a guy or because I have alot on my shoulders. But I have to tell you...you need to talk to someone close to you. I have a very very good friend who cuts himself, and it hurts me beyond belief. I know he has thought of suicide but couldnt do it. You need to talk to a parent or a good friend about this. My best friend and me talk every night just to make sure that if something is wrong with one of us, the other one cheers them up. But I think part of being a teenager is going through depression but if you feel like you're going to hurt yourself, please dont! You'll be hurting more people than you know. Email me anytime if you dont have anyone to get it out to

Alex

 

[EPCOTgrl1]

I am not going like one second everything is fine and the next it sucks! but it comes graduallity! like i have screwed alot of stuff up this weekend and my bf broke up with me.... so it has not been good at all! but i am tryig to fix them.... so like i have been depressed latly but i am getting better!

 

[lisajl]

Thanks all, but the best advice you can give me is relating to it, we've been guessing it's chemical imbalance and such for awhile now. It's not hormonal, cause my hormones are normal. Found that out from a blood test I almost passed out in. I hadn't had a blood test since I was five or younger.
Anyway, at the moment, I'm afraid of losing my best friend to her other friend (I won't be able to hang out with her for months, cause Christie has claimed her...*growls*) My other friend is too busy with band, and work, and family to see me, though we keep trying to set something up. But her weekends are taken over. I don't like marching band. I have bad grades in school, and I can't pull them up, it's too late, but I'm trying too, but if I spend all day upstairs doing it I'll get depressed like that again. I can not no matter how much and what I do, get my mom to be proud of me and trust me, she used to, now all she does is yell. Me and dad never get along. Kyle and Sean, my brothers, are too young. I can't really turn to anyone, it's late at night, and though friends say they wouldn't mind, I think they would if I called them at three am.

 

[AvrielSilver]

*makes a face* That would be my mom's account.