Anyone want to hold my hand?

[Jennasis]

I'm having a bit of a tough day. My DH is at a conference overnight so I'm home with the dogs and our many...MANY horses at the farm. I'm not a clingy type person so I find myself quite surprised to be sitting here getting quite anxious about being alone tonight. I have certainly been alone before, but I'm almost a little scared right now. We live on a VERY country road (it's not even paved) and my nearest neighbor is just barely within shouting distance. Fine...that's ok..well, it WAS ok. Except, yesterday I had a run-in with one of the delivery guys who services our farm. He made a delivery of some goods we had not even called him for (Though we do usually call him for this delivery every 2-3 weeks. We simply didn't need him yet). So I was surprised to see him. He's an older guy, mid-60's maybe even early 70's. Well, long story short, he did something that made me VERY uncomfortable. I removed myself from the situation quickly and rather gracefully IMO. I wasn't alone at the time. In fact my farrier (the guy who does our horse's shoes) was here at the time, and he is a BIG guy who would totally have come to my rescue if I needed it. Not only that, I had some customers at the farm as well, so it wasn't like I was alone with this suddenly creepy guy. I have known this guy for over 3 years and he's never done anything remotely inappropriate before...he's a sweet old man...I thought.

Anyway, so after the incident (which I shared with DH who was upset as I was) I now find myself a little nervous about being home alone. To make matters worse, I have to teach a lesson (horse back riding) tonight with one of my adult students...a guy...a little older than me...alone...and I am quite sure he has a bit of a crush on me. I REALLY don't think this guy would ever do anything inappropriate, but darn it, now I'm on the defensive! It really makes me sad to feel this way, and REALLY anxious. I feel like the little 10 year old kid I once was...who was afraid of being alone with men (yes there is some trauma there).

My DH HAD to go to the conference. He'll be back tomorrow afternoon. I honestly forgot he'd be away when I scheduled the lesson (and it's too late to cancel on this guy...plus I certainly wasn't feeling "violated" until the incident with the delivery guy yesterday). I have 3 large dogs, one of whom is an excellent watch dog. I always lock the house at night and I have access to a weapon if necessary.

So do you DIS'ers mind if I stay up tonight and hang with you so I won't be alone?? Anyone want to hold my hand tonight??

 

[Pop Daddy]

when it gets right down to it, where kind of creepy ourselfs

 

[Jennasis]

yeah, but you guys can't touch me...or CAN you....

 

[MinnyGranny62]

Sorry you are on edge tonight. Let's have some and think about the world going by. Shirley. Oh ...and there is nothing on the **** tube tonight.

 

[Sherri]

Wow! I hope the night goes by fast for you. I have to say, I live in a development with the houses very close to one another and STILL when DH is away on the rare occasion that he is, I am unable to sleep. I leave the window in my bedroom open so I can be connected to the outside world. I told my neighbor the last time I was up all night because DH was away and I was shocked about how many cars came onto our culdasac throughout the night. It was a LONG night, but somehow got through.
It sounds like you were shaken up a bit by the incident with the delivery guy. Chances are though that nobody knows you are home alone.
Can you have a friend come and hang around in the barn when you give your lesson tonight?
sending some pixie dust that the night goes by quickly for you.

 

[Jennasis]

Luckily it looks like one of my other boarders is here riding their horse, and will likely be here for all (or most) of the lesson (which is at 7pm). I unfortunately don't have any friends here, only clients. My DMIL is away in NY or I would have her come over.

 

[Grumpy's Wife]

Is there a friend or family member close by that could come stay with you?Or you go to their house? I little of this never hurt anybody. Stay safe.

 

[Jennasis]

WOW! God sure is looking out for me. Just as I was typing my last post, my student called to say he got out of work late and couldn't make it tonight!

 

[Kimmielee]

So... happy to keep you company, occupied, mind off the other things.... what would you like to talk about.... ? I'm open to most topics except politics, religion or sex!!!

Looks like your lesson is coming up... I'm running out to do an errand... I'll check back in after your lesson and we'll keep you busy chatting!!! See you soon!

 

[Jennasis]

Talked to DH. He wishes I was with him...hahaha HE wishes...

On a positive note I spoke to my older sister the other day. It seems that she will be attending a conference at the Swan/Dolphin in Nov and again in Dec. JUST the time of year DH and I have been hoping to go. We were dreaming of a trip during Christmas decoration time and for MVMCP, but we can't really afford it. So big sis has offered to let us room with her (we'll pay the add on for the extra adult in the room). Looks like we may get that trip afterall! We'll only have to do tix, meals and plane fare. Hopefully we can do a Thurs-Sun!

 

[Mermaid02]

I know how you feel, being alone. The dogs will be a great comfort to you I'm sure. My dh is working tonight so it's just the kids, myself and the dog. The big scary LOUD dog. It's almost worse though, because when dh isnt' here, she barks at EVERY noise going.

Have a great night.

 

[shortbun]

Hi, HOW YA DOIN? Where is Mocksville? We're headed to NC-Hatteras next week. Hope you have a peaceful night.

 

[wdw4us]

Talked to DH. He wishes I was with him...hahaha HE wishes...

On a positive note I spoke to my older sister the other day. It seems that she will be attending a conference at the Swan/Dolphin in Nov and again in Dec. JUST the time of year DH and I have been hoping to go. We were dreaming of a trip during Christmas decoration time and for MVMCP, but we can't really afford it. So big sis has offered to let us room with her (we'll pay the add on for the extra adult in the room). Looks like we may get that trip afterall! We'll only have to do tix, meals and plane fare. Hopefully we can do a Thurs-Sun!

We'll be there 11/24 till 12/1! A great time of year to go. A lot of Dis'er go at that time too.

Great for both of you and what a nice sister!

denise

 

[Jenn]

Jenn --

Another Jenn here - I'm in the same boat tonight. Hubby traveling. I try to Dis until I'm too tired to Dis anymore, then keep the TV on something funny like Comedy Central. Sometimes, I turn the volume down and leave it on all night. Do not, I repeat do not watch any crime shows, scary movies, etc. Before you know it, morning is here.

good luck!

Jenn

 

[MinnyGranny62]

Jenn....How did your evening go? Sorry had to go last night as my poor ole eyes were bothering me. Was thinking about you though. Shirley