Anxiety is off the charts....(Just rambling thoughts)

[zurgswife]

When my anxiety level gets high that is my worse time...

Today...starts OK....head off to work for a couple of hours....within an hour remember I got a dryer delivery scheduled between 8:10 and 10:10 (hey at least it is not a 5 hr window)....I quickly call my DD and wake her up to let her know about Dryer and to call when they arrive...

She calls about 10mins later to ask if I was waiting for tree trimmers....oopps forgot that the tree trimmers were going to use my driveway and yard to trim neighbors trees...I decide to head home then to make sure the Dryer people can manuever my driveway with the truck there....As I'm leaving a friend asks me if I'm headed to "creative writing" for my Kindergartener...NO...didn't realize today was today...I didn't get a reminder...Oh yeah..they send it the day before and my DD wasn't in school yesterday....I quickly call teacher to let her know that I wasn't coming and I didn't get a replacement....head home...tree guys OK...dryer guys show up..that goes OK...DD isn't feeling well except we were supposed to head to the aquirium today...Oh well lets think of something else...She stressing cause she wants to do something but not feeling well...

Smart me decides to follow-up on why I haven't heard from my midwife about sons chart...2 weeks ago I dropped off a copy of a evaluation that my ds's (who is 10 now) psychologists needed pertaining to his birth...about 4 easy questions...Apgar scores, lengthy of labor, length of pregnancy, complications!!!! I needed them by yesterday...called on Monday and left a message (they aren't open on Monday)....Called this morning only to have the Admin Assistant tell me that Midwife needed more info about the questions they were asking...WHAT!! How much more straight forward could the questions be!!!!! I tell her how frustrated I am that I needed the info YESTERDAY and now she is telling me they needed more info but no one called me....But she will leave another message for the midwife.....This conversation has put me over the edge....My life is extrememly stressful right (with other issues) now and these little things keep causing me to loose control....

I'm not going to eat anything I shouldn't and I will only drink water and I will check myself again in 2 hrs....SHort goals that's going to be my key today I think...

 

[Rhonda]

Short goals will be a very good key for you today! You can make it through the day - anxieties and all! If you give in, and eat something bad, that would just be adding more anxiety to your day! Stick to your guns! Drink lots of water!

 

[kamgen]

Sounds like a plan! Stress can really throw us off track, but you can do it! Crazy days make remind us of how lucky we are when we have peaceful, uneventful days!

I know you can do it....drink your water and take small steps! And don't forget to smile! Remember we are here for you!

Kamy

 

[glo]

Take each moment you succeed and relish in it, instead of looking at the things that are bad. You did not mention once that you had gone at food. I am very proud of you for that. That is a big step. You have a very stressful life, and today looks bad, but you do have the strength in you. I know you do. Hang in there buddy! You can do it!!!

 

[mickeyfan1]

you have already had some success today, the dryer and the tree men. I think there is a gremlin luring around just making it all happen at once. Seperate each problem from all the others, they will all be smaller. You can't do what you can't do, so try to put the can't dos in a pile far away and let them take care of them selves. You have come so far already, look at the overall picture, and see that this is just a small bump in the road.

In two hours, if you are still stressed, make a bowl of diet jello, whip it up with the mixer till very airy, freeze it for 10 minutes and then eat the wole thing. No carbs, no cals, and what a "good" treat.

Hang in there, you are an inspiration to me, I can't imagine haveing the life you do, but you handle it so well.

 

[Luvinit]

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Please vent whenever you need...thats why we are here!!

Tracy

 

[Mattsmom]

Hang in there, Kim!

I have days like yours too. I find physical activity helps to relieve stress. Go workout or clean something. Stay away from the kids rooms though, cleaning them always stresses me out more.

 

[zurgswife]

Thanks guys...12pm and still on target...though the anxiety level is still high....but I'm getting ready to have a protein lunch....

Thanks for the treat idea..

 

[karebear1]

OK Kim- Close your eyes and take a deep breath...... that's right. Now exhale.... slowly now, to too quickly! GOOD!

Everything you have to do today can be done and you don't have to stress out about or be anxious about it. You have family that can help and friends too. Just take one thing at a time! It will not be catasrophic if you miss something or don't get to it. It will still be there tomorrow- waiting patiently for you! You are not Super Woman , although you are a super woman! Don't demand so much of yourself- and be sure others dont demand too much of you either. Do you take time for just you?? I hope so, that's so important for your mental and physical well being. Take care- and be calm- everything will work out just fine!!

 

[zurgswife]

4pm and I'm still on goal.....thanks for your support...