Angelrose's Journey

[Angelrose]

Thank you for posting Jillpie. I suppose the title could change. I'm not really sure how to do that.

But I will tell you that I do appreciate all the prayers that the wonderful people here on the DIS have sent my way. I can't tell you how much it has helped me.

Now on Friday it will be three years since I lost my wonderful Ron. It is always a tough time for me, these two months. You don't get over losing the love of your life in a certain amount of time. The ache is always there. So many times I wanted to tell Ron something or show him pictures of the grandkids and how they have grown. I know he would be so proud of Chuck and Karen for taking care of me the way they do. I think he would be proud of me too for coping and getting healthy and strong. No matter how long it is, I will always have that ache in my heart.

So I guess the answer is, yes I do need all the prayers I can get. I appreciate each and every person who has posted their support and to tell me of their lives.

 

[BearcatsFan]

Just posting with a quick one of these and one of these

 

[Angelrose]

Thank you BearcatsFan. I appreciate it. And I love the flower too.

 

[BearcatsFan]

YW How are you doing tonight? I was thinking about you earlier today.

 

[Angelrose]

I am doing pretty well. I am swimming 3 hours a day to help keep my mind off things. By night time I am pretty tired so I sleep well.

Ron would be surprised to see how long I can swim around. I used to just swim for an hour and I would be done. We did have so much fun in the pool. We would always talk about our vacation in December to DW. Or I would sneak up on him and tickle his feet and sing the JAWS song. Then he would chase me around to get even. But I always won. I'm sneaky that way.

The memories give me comfort now. They aren't painful like they used to be.

 

[BearcatsFan]

3 hours a day? Wow, that's fantastic!

I'm so glad you're able to think about Ron without the sadness now. I've read the whole thread and I know what you've been through. Sometimes there are no words, you know?

 

[Angelrose]

I used to do 4 hours last summer. Don't know if I can do that again this year, but we will see.

Yes sometimes words just can't convey. I know others have gone through losses and I never could really relate until I lost Ron. My parents were old when the died and although I was sad, I knew they lived a good life. With Ron it was just too soon. He had so many more years left to him.

But when God calls you, you have to go. I know we will be together again some day. That is what keeps me going.

 

[Jillpie]

Thank you for posting Jillpie. I suppose the title could change. I'm not really sure how to do that.

But I will tell you that I do appreciate all the prayers that the wonderful people here on the DIS have sent my way. I can't tell you how much it has helped me.

Now on Friday it will be three years since I lost my wonderful Ron. It is always a tough time for me, these two months. You don't get over losing the love of your life in a certain amount of time. The ache is always there. So many times I wanted to tell Ron something or show him pictures of the grandkids and how they have grown. I know he would be so proud of Chuck and Karen for taking care of me the way they do. I think he would be proud of me too for coping and getting healthy and strong. No matter how long it is, I will always have that ache in my heart.


So I guess the answer is, yes I do need all the prayers I can get. I appreciate each and every person who has posted their support and to tell me of their lives.

Aw thank you for answering. I surely will say some prayers for you. I know Ron is with you every day.

 

[4nana]

AR, know that you remain in many hearts and prayers and are a big inspiration to many Dis friends! Your Ron is so proud of how far you've come!

Love the new photos of you with your cousins...and you sporting that hot new green outfit showing off your new 50+lb wgt loss!! Not too mention - swimming 3 hrs a day...you go girl...I need some of your will power! :dance3

My heart is heavy tonight . We've been blessed to have our DS, DIL, and family stationed within 6 hrs of us the past 3 yrs. and able to visit fairly often making special memories. Tomorrow they are being transferred cross country . I am so happy he is serving our country and doing what he loves... but I am so going to miss my grandbabies so far away . Thankfully we are very close and I know with modern techology we can tx/email/skype/call,etc....but still... . Ok, whine over...time for military mom to put her big girl panties on!?!?!

 

[Angelrose]

Jillpie, thank you for the prayers and thanks for understanding.

4nana, I'm so sorry your son and his family are being moved across country. I know that will be so hard for you. They do move them around in the military. But at least he is still in THIS country. I'm so happy to hear that. You have a right to be proud of him serving our country and his family that supports him.

God bless him and his family for their service.

Thank you for the compliment on my outfit.

I do love that color on my outfit. It's a size 8! I am having trouble with my weight loss. I was down 52 pounds and now I am back to 50 pounds. No matter what I do I just keep going up and down. But I am determined to get it down.

 

[BearcatsFan]

How are you doing tonight?

 

[Angelrose]

Pretty good BearcatsFan. I am swimming a lot so that tires me out so I don't have to think about Friday. Of course night comes and when I get into bed, he isn't there. I do say goodnight to him every night. That helps.

I called my friend tonight. She lost her husband 6 years ago and still cries when it's the anniversary. She told me it never goes away. I know that. She was married for 67 years so, of course she misses him terribly. Her husband and mine got along wonderfully. Jack gave wonderful hugs. I miss him too. He was a good friend.

We can survive. It's just very hard at times. Most of the year, I'm pretty good, but in May and June I do get so weepy. Ron was such a wonderful husband, father and friend. Plus he was just as crazy as me. He had a wicked sense of humor and a great laugh. I miss him.

 

[snapppyd]

Pretty good BearcatsFan. I am swimming a lot so that tires me out so I don't have to think about Friday. Of course night comes and when I get into bed, he isn't there. I do say goodnight to him every night. That helps.

I called my friend tonight. She lost her husband 6 years ago and still cries when it's the anniversary. She told me it never goes away. I know that. She was married for 67 years so, of course she misses him terribly. Her husband and mine got along wonderfully. Jack gave wonderful hugs. I miss him too. He was a good friend.

We can survive. It's just very hard at times. Most of the year, I'm pretty good, but in May and June I do get so weepy. Ron was such a wonderful husband, father and friend. Plus he was just as crazy as me. He had a wicked sense of humor and a great laugh. I miss him.

Sorry the weather is not better for you to spend more time in the pool. Just want to send extra hugs this week

Give those grandbabies an extra hug too!

 

[minniecarousel]

Good morning Angelrose. I hope that you find things to keep you busy the rest of this week. Hang in there.

 

[Angelrose]

Thanks snappyd and minniecarousel. I have been trying to keep busy. I'm pretty good and then all of a sudden I remember. Thankfully Chuck is coming over on Saturday to help me get rid of an old chair. That will keep me occupied for a while. It's Saturday that is the anniversary. I thought it was Friday until I looked at the calendar.

How can it possibly be three years? Yet sometimes it feels like a hundred years.

Karen called me today and asked if I would like to come over for dinner on Saturday. I think that will help me a lot. Bless her heart for always thinking of me.

 

[BearcatsFan]

She's not the only one thinking of you.

 

[Angelrose]

Thank you BearcatFan. It's much appreciated.

 

[minniecarousel]

She's not the only one thinking of you.

ditto

 

[4nana]

AngelRose, thinking of you with love and prayers . Glad you'll be surrounded by loving family this week-end.
God bless and take care

 

[BearcatsFan]