Angelrose's Journey

[snapppyd]

What a rainy weekend we had! Saturday we went to a Christening - I have never seen one like it. I'm Catholic, but this was Greek Orthodox - very nice ceremony.

BUT, OMG, the party afterwards! It was fancier than some weddings I have been to. It was a full reception with a DJ and they even had a belly dancer! We had a great time. There was so much food - everything you could think of. I had 3 cosmos and some wine - everything was so delicious, I wish I had some of that food now!

Look at that cake:

Me and DH:

I would love to post more pics, but I don't think I should put up pictures of anyone without their permission.

Hope everyone is having a good week!

 

[7165red]

WOW, that was a beautiful reception, very nice picture of you and your husband.

 

[Angelrose]

Oh my goodness how beautiful everything was. Loved the picture of you and your husband. It's so nice to put a face to the name.

I had some drama with my pool. I added another 5 pounds of baking soda like pool man said and it clouded up the water so bad. The alkalinity was sky high. Plus the filter got clogged up really bad after I vacuumed up all the gunk. So I put in a call to Mr. pool man. I did swim for an hour and a half after I vacuumed. But, you know it isn't any fun when you can't see the bottom.

I didn't hear from him on Friday, Saturday or Sunday. I was getting worried. Around 7 Sunday night I heard a noise in the back. My back door bell hasn't worked for years and I can't hear anyone knocking. But I did this time. And there he was. He said he didn't want me to think he had forgotten me. He dumped in some muriatic acid in and told me the water would be clear tomorrow. He then opened up the plug on the filter and all this gunk came out.

He told me that I would have to put in more earth the next day and then I could vacuum up anything else on the bottom. He also told me that if the water wasn't completely clear to put in some ph decrease. And after the water cleared up to in more ph+. Well, I didn't want to play that game. I'm just waiting for it to rain a bit and that will be enough acid.

I did put in the new earth the next day and vacuumed up the rest of the dirt. I had a glorious swim for almost two hours yesterday.

Today it was so cold that I didn't even think of getting in. The air temp only made it up to 72 today and right now it is around 64. Hopefully I will have sun tomorrow for the solar heaters to heat the water back up.

Thursday I have to take the car in for an oil change. Oh GOODY! But at least I will be able to swim in the afternoon.

Friday I get to spend with the grandkids. I'm looking forward to that.

Saturday I'm getting my hair done. Cut and colored. I can't wait. I hate my hair hanging on my neck.

 

[snapppyd]

I'm so jealous you are swimming already!

Angel, I remember the story of how you got lost looking for the car dealer in Manahawkin. You know they are no longer there, right? I believe it turned into a Kia dealer.

The weather looks beautiful today - hope the pool is nice and clear!

 

[Angelrose]

No I didn't know that! Glad you told me. I would have really gotten lost the next time I went there. LOL I'd have wound up in Tibet! Luckily there is a good garage close by in Absecon that I go to for most things.

NANANANA I swam again this afternoon for two hours. The water is now crystal clear and I'm getting the last bit of nasty stuff out of the solar heaters. Swimming this afternoon was glorious. Pretty blue sky, a few wispy clouds, and a gentle breeze. Nice and warm too. It looks like next week I'll be able to get in the pool in the morning too. I can't wait for that.

 

[snapppyd]

No I didn't know that! Glad you told me. I would have really gotten lost the next time I went there. LOL I'd have wound up in Tibet! Luckily there is a good garage close by in Absecon that I go to for most things.

NANANANA I swam again this afternoon for two hours. The water is now crystal clear and I'm getting the last bit of nasty stuff out of the solar heaters. Swimming this afternoon was glorious. Pretty blue sky, a few wispy clouds, and a gentle breeze. Nice and warm too. It looks like next week I'll be able to get in the pool in the morning too. I can't wait for that.

Good for you! I'm really hoping the weather is nice this weekend, DH is off for 3 days and we are dying to go to the beach (lbi). Let's hope for at least one sunny day!

 

[Angelrose]

I think both days are supposed to be good. Maybe a shower Sunday evening.

I survived today. It's the 2nd anniversary of Ron's death. I cried a lot today. I kept reliving his last day and then the funeral. I know Ron wouldn't want that. So I did get myself going and got the car oil changed. Then I swam in the pool for two hours this afternoon. It was mostly cloudy but the sun did peek through once in a while.

I went to my WW meeting but still stayed the same. I thought for sure I would have lost SOMETHING with all the swimming I've been doing. Maybe I'm absorbing all that water from the pool. Oh well, I'll see how I do in two weeks.

 

[4nana]

Dropping in to give you a {{hug}} and let you know I keep you in my prayers. Your Ron is so proud and smiling upon you from above.

 

[Minnie&Nana]

Oh,((( Mary)))).

When my son passed they told us over and over again that the first 2 yrs are the most difficult and I found that to be true. Although the pain of losing our beloved never goes away and our hearts never completely mend, the pain does get softer. Even after so many years, sometimes, out of the blue, I will cry and cry, wishing he was still here....it happened last weekend.

With each anniversary of their leaving us...returning to heaven...it is different. As the years passed I found the month and days leading up to Toby's angel day were more difficult than the actual day - somehow I've been able to celebrate his life and not dwell on the loss on that day. I hope this happens for you too. We know how much Ron keeps you near and stays by your side - he still loves you so very much.

My love to you, sweet friend. I wish we lived closer.

 

[Angelrose]

Thank you 4nana. I need it today. I think Ron is proud of me too. I've gotten stronger that I ever thought I would. Just sometimes I want to feel him taking charge again. I wish he would come to me in my dreams again. He hasn't in so long. I think the last time was the last time. He kind of said that. I so wish he was here to see the grandkids and get to play with them. He would be on

 

[Angelrose]

Oh Christine, thank you! Maybe it will get softer in time. I hope so. Sometimes I don't dwell on it at all and smile when I think of all the goofy things we did. Other times, the same goofy things make me cry. I guess it will always hurt.

Sometimes I can feel his love for me like a big hug. But most times he just seems so very far away. I know he will love me forever as I know I will love him forever. "Always and forever" is what we used to say to each other. Forever is a very long time away.

My love to you too Christine. I wish we lived closer too.

 

[snapppyd]

I think both days are supposed to be good. Maybe a shower Sunday evening.

I survived today. It's the 2nd anniversary of Ron's death. I cried a lot today. I kept reliving his last day and then the funeral. I know Ron wouldn't want that. So I did get myself going and got the car oil changed. Then I swam in the pool for two hours this afternoon. It was mostly cloudy but the sun did peek through once in a while.

I went to my WW meeting but still stayed the same. I thought for sure I would have lost SOMETHING with all the swimming I've been doing. Maybe I'm absorbing all that water from the pool. Oh well, I'll see how I do in two weeks.

That sun peeking out was Ron smiling down on you in the pool! I can't believe it's been two years already.

I do believe you are absorbing pool water Once your body gets used to it you will drop 5 like nothing!

Hugs to you tonight I hope you have sweet dreams!

 

[snapppyd]

Oh,((( Mary)))).

When my son passed they told us over and over again that the first 2 yrs are the most difficult and I found that to be true. Although the pain of losing our beloved never goes away and our hearts never completely mend, the pain does get softer. Even after so many years, sometimes, out of the blue, I will cry and cry, wishing he was still here....it happened last weekend.

With each anniversary of their leaving us...returning to heaven...it is different. As the years passed I found the month and days leading up to Toby's angel day were more difficult than the actual day - somehow I've been able to celebrate his life and not dwell on the loss on that day. I hope this happens for you too. We know how much Ron keeps you near and stays by your side - he still loves you so very much.

My love to you, sweet friend. I wish we lived closer.

Hugs to you also!

 

[minnie56]

Oh Angelrose..sending you hugs and love today...it's hard to believe that it has been 2 years. We can't know the wonderful memories you have but we do feel your heartache always and know we are never far away when you need a shoulder.

You really are doing so well though and deserve to feel proud of the strong lady you have become with Ron never far away...always guiding your steps.

It's all about time..and lots of it

 

[Angelrose]

Thank you snappyd and Minnie56. Yes it is hard to believe it's been two years. It feels like an eternity. I know it will take time not to hurt so much. I think I will always miss him.

 

[minnie56]

You will...I will always miss my Mum..sometimes little things bring me comfort and I can remember and smile. Other times, my heart breaks and the tears flow. Grief is a funny thing..and never far away sometimes, but we go on, one day and one step at a time. Feeling those we have lost inside our heart and soul is what we have to take comfort in.

 

[Angelrose]

That's what I have to keep remembering. One day at a time. One day I can do.

 

[minnie56]

Yes you can. Don't expect more of yourself than that and you will see you can do it..baby steps...

 

[Happy Mom2]

I hope your DH has a speedy recovery. Prayers for your DH, you and your entire family coming your way.

 

[snapppyd]

For some reason whenever I find a penny I think my MIL sent it! I found one in the parking lot of the church last Saturday; she would have loved that party! I threw it in the trunk of the car and brought "her" with us!