Angelrose's Journey

[wickey's friend]

You just keep typing out your thoughts. You continue to be in my prayers, and I ask for God to grant you peace, comfort and strength.

 

[minniecarousel]

We're here for you, honey. Type away!

It looks like many of us are checking this thread to let you know that we care.

Hang in there.

 

[Faith09]

After recently loosing my dear sweet brother I can understand your pain. If you feel like typing will ease your pain than you type away. May God give you comfort and peace during this difficult time. It will get better just continue to trust and lean on God.

 

[TheBigBadWolf]

Angelrose,
Just wanted to give you a and let you know you are still in my thoughts and prayers. God Bless.

 

[karensi]

Angelrose,
As you can see you have many friends here on the Dis board.
I subscribed to this thread and check every day to see if there are any new postings. I kind of relate to you in a way, as I lost my DH in 2004 and my son last November.
Do whatever it takes to help get you through the day.
If you feel, one day, that you can look at the pictures and put them away, then do so, if not, then don't. It's not a big deal in the whole scheme of things.
Please keep us informed of how you are doing. I know I think of you frequently.

,

Karen

 

[ols386]

Thoughts and prayers for you

 

[Angelrose]

Today was a better day. I guess you all gave me strength. I looked at the pictures and saw how much his baby pictures reminded me of Jesse. Then I looked at our pictures and remembered how much fun we had taking them. I got them all put away. No tears. Well, maybe just once. I looked at more of our picture albums and laughed at some of them and remembered how we felt when we were taking them. We did have so much fun in our life together. I just have to remember that instead of the last couple of months.

I know I keep saying this, but he was such a wonderful man. I was lucky to share my life with him.

Thank you all for giving me the strength to keep on with everything. Some days are so hard and some days are easier.

 

[Angelrose]

karensi, my condolences to you on the loss of your husband and your son. That must be doubly hard for you.

My prayers go out to you.

 

[Angelrose]

Faith09, I'm sorry for the loss of your brother. My prayers are with you too.

 

[chell]

Remember that it is okay to cry. A year from now you will still have spells where you cry and that is perfectly normal. Crying is good for you. Don't be hard on yourself or get upset for missing him and for crying. I'm not saying you do that, but I know I've done that in the past.

I'm glad you are still posting because I keep thinking about you and praying for you. I'm glad you keep us updated.

 

[BeachGirlFLA]

I am so sorry...my prayers are with you.

 

[Angelrose]

I got Ron's ashes today. It was heavier than I thought it would be. I can't think about that right now. I put them away in the closet. I just can't deal with that right now at all.

Chuck came over and brought them to me. He wanted to be there when the bug guy came. I was glad he came to tell the man where the carpenter ants were. He finished the job and I have a 3 month guarantee. That seemed good to me.

My cousin called this morning and asked me to come over and swim. I agreed before she finished the sentence. We swam from 12:30 to 3. It was good to talk and laugh and cry a little bit. Then I came home, got a shower and was ready for Chuck when he came at 3:30.

I'm going to her house again tomorrow. We are more like sisters than cousins. She told me about a medium she is going to see in a couple of weeks. I asked if I could go to. She is going to see if she can get me an appointment along with hers. I know it's silly, but I want to see if this man can actually contact the spirit world. I'm not going to mention Ron and just see what happens. I want to know if Ron is OK where he is.

I don't know when I'll be able to deal with the ashes. Right now I'm going to pretend that there not there. I don't think that's going to work though.

Oh my poor sweetheart. I do so miss you.

 

[lovingthemouse]

Angelrose - as I mentioned in a PM to you, my wonderful husband died last September. Although some of his ashes were placed in a site at the cemetery, the remainder of them will be traveling to FL with my family next year. I have not looked at them since his funeral, and just can't bring myself to yet.
As you have mentioned, he is everywhere I am, in spirit. I truly believe he guides me and gives me the confidence to go forward in life. As strong women, we are capable of making wise choices, but it is always comforting to know that someone is helping to direct us!
Please continue to "lean" on family and friends as they take comfort in supporting us. There are many of us who truly understand what you are experiencing. May God continue to bless you.

 

[Angelrose]

lovingthemouse, I am planning on bringing some of Ron's ashes to DW this December when we go. I will find some little out of the way place to put them so he can see the castle and the fireworks.

I'm so sorry that you lost your husband too. My prayers are with you.

 

[happygirl]

I came into this post really late I guess. You are sill in my prayers and thoughts

 

[karensi]

karensi, my condolences to you on the loss of your husband and your son. That must be doubly hard for you.

My prayers go out to you.

Thank you


Karen

 

[minniecarousel]

Still here for you, Angelrose.

Continued prayers.

 

[Pomlover2586]

I'm so very sorry for your loss....

As far as grieving goes, and your DH ashes.........I found when my grandfather died that it helped me to grieve, when i talked to him. I was 15 when he passed and I used to walk around my grandparents house carrying his ashes with me wherever I went and I'd just talk to him when I felt like it. I sat him with my on the couch to watch "our shows" etc..... weird kinda yeah........but it really helped me let go a little at a time.

I did this for about a month on and off whenever I was over at my grandparents house.

My prayers are with you

 

[chell]

Have you heard of the jewelry you can put some of Ron's ashes in to always have some of him with you at all times? I surely hope this doesn't upset you by posting this. When you are ready to deal with the ashes I thought this may be something you would be interested in.

The company Ashes to Ashes is one that I've ordered from twice. The first time was for myself when someone in my life passed away and I thought I needed to keep some of their ashes with me. The second time was for a best friend when her dog passed away so she could keep some of her dogs ashes with her always.

It's great to hear you are getting out and doing things.

 

[sunnyday123]

Have a good day today, Happy July 4th!