Angelrose's Journey

[minnie56]

I took some a few hours ago and will take some more soon before I call it a day. He really struggled getting it out and at the time frozen to the eyebrows you feel nothing but after that wears off..wow..you feel as if you have been hit by a truck!!

Lets hope the weathermen are wrong as they usually are and the temps are mild enough to make it just icky rain and wash that white stuff away!

I am with you! Here's to Spring!!!!!

 

[piglet50]

i've never posted before but i've followed this thread and said prayers for you. you remind me of my mom. my dad passed away after 56 years of marriage. he had been wheelchair bound for several years. my mom took on most of his care with whatever small amount of help she would accept from us kids, and overcame her fears of not being able to manage in the process.

when dad passed, she was heartbroken but not spirit broken. they shared a strong faith and it has carried her through this last year and a half. there are many lonely times, tears and sadness but she keeps moving forward.

your spirit is the same. you've taken on many things that your dh handled for years, learned to be alone, and want to love your family without being a
"burden" (mom's words, not mine) on them. she's determined to be happy.

your dh is proud of you, just like dad is proud of my mom. i'm proud of you both. you are an inspiration to your family and to us here who follow along.

keep on angelrose, you can do it.

 

[minnie56]

What wonderful words..you are so right, Angelrose's spirit is not broken...just her heart.

Blessings to your dear Mom too..faith is an amazing thing and I am in awe of how strong these ladies really are.

 

[Minnie&Nana]

Minnie, you did it!!!!!

 

[Minnie&Nana]

I just copied from the

and pasted it in my signature. It was easy once I got directions.

Hmm...so how does that work? Sounds much easier than the long way I do it!

Christine, I wish we all lived closer. It would be wonderful actually meeting you all.

Me too.

Did it did it!! Whoo Hoooooo!!!

I had a tooth pulled today and heck I am feeling sorry for ME! Now that's pretty pathetic...

Soon, Spring like days will be upon us and that will lift everyone's spirits!

Hope you are feeling much better today, Minnie. having a tooth out is awful.

...sigh...Spring...cannot wait!!!

 

[Minnie&Nana]

piglet50

 

[minnie56]

I did I did!! No stopping me now

Mouth was very sore last night..woke me up such a lot so I kept popping Tylenol..had a couple today but I guess that's to be expected. Soup last night for supper, Mac n Cheese tonite ..family will be happy! LOL...

Minnie&Nana..I just noticed the memory in your signature..that is how old my daughter is, 26..I cannot imagine. Bless your heart..and bless your son.

 

[Minnie&Nana]

I did I did!! No stopping me now

Mouth was very sore last night..woke me up such a lot so I kept popping Tylenol..had a couple today but I guess that's to be expected. Soup last night for supper, Mac n Cheese tonite ..family will be happy! LOL...

Minnie&Nana..I just noticed the memory in your signature..that is how old my daughter is, 26..I cannot imagine. Bless your heart..and bless your son.

Bless you for noticing.

Tylenol??? That's all you have? I'd need more than that...at the very least 600-800 mg of Ibuprofen! Take very gentle care.

 

[minnie56]

Well, I was taking Xtra strenth Advil but this morning it was still bleeding so I switched to Xtra Tylenol thinking perhaps the Advil was not helping it to clot.
As long as I take 2..it keeps it at bay. Hope tomorrow is better...

I don't know why I never noticed before Minnie&Nana..I think I knew that you had lost someone, but a Mother should never lose her child..

 

[Angelrose]

Thank you piglet50 for those kind words and to you and your mom. Some days are better than others. Today I was doing fine. I called up Readers Digest to resubscribe for another two years. The lady was very nice and then she asked if the email was the same and she said Ron's email address. It was a few moments before I could tell her to change it to mine because Ron had passed away this summer. After I hung up I just started to cry and cry. I finally got hold of myself and managed the rest of the day without anymore crying. It just seems the smallest things start the tears. Maybe with all the snow tomorrow I can be mad at the snow and not cry for Ron.

Christine, I just went to your private message and it had all the info there. I highlighted it and copied it and then pasted it in my signature. I tried writing it all down but messed up, so copying it was best.

minnie56 I sure hope tomorrow will be better for you. When I had Mohs surgery for my skin cancer they told me not to take any asperin or Advil for a couple of weeks so that it can clot and heal properly. So I think you are doing right by just taking the Tylenol for now.

 

[Angelrose]

Did I mention that I am sick to death of all this glop out there? Well, I am. This morning it was sleeting. I managed to push off the mess on the porch and shovel my little pathway again so I could feed the birds. I tromped on out to get the paper and my boots got all wet from the huge puddle at the end of the driveway. Then I got back inside and sat down to take off my boots. I didn't close the back door all the way and this little finch decided to pop in and say HI. He was so cute, but I got up and he hopped back out. I shut the door properly this time. Most of the morning it was sleeting, but around 1pm it did start to snow. It is very wet snow and there hasn't been much accumulation so far. This morning they took off regular programming to have all weather reports. OK let me get this straight, just when we need a distraction you take off programming to tell us it's snowing??? At least I did get to watch my soap later in the day on Soap Net. It's still 33 out there and still snowing.

On a better note. Here is a picture of my big boy

Hope you are feeling better today minnie56.

chell??? where are you? Hope you are OK.

 

[4nana]

Hang in there Angelrose, we're all going to get through this blizzard ! I guess our 24" wasn't enough, we got another 5 or 6 " today, but this time it is dry and fluffy and is drifting everywhere. We took a drive in our Jeep and it's as much snow as we've ever seen in MD., with schools closed till Tuesday! Praise God the power has not even blinked this week! We owe so much to our power company and all the workers trying their best 24/7 to keep up with the blizzard getting all our roads open. I remember last blizzard 15 yrs ago we lost power for 5 days and it was miserable.

Love that pix of cute little Jesse with his hair spiked ! I watch my lil 5yo DGS a couple days a week and he sometimes will go in the bathroom and spend the longest time spiking his hair just right ! Comes out and doesn't want anyone to touch it ! Gosh, don't our sweet grands put a bright spot in each day!?!?!

Minnie56, hope your mouth is healing and you're feeling better!

 

[minnie56]

Glad that you ladies are hanging in there and making the best of the nasty weather...as long as the power stays on and at least you can be safe and warm. It really seems to be making up for lost time doesn't it?
We had some snow here finally last nite..but nothing too significant. It's cold though..brrr....

Jesse IS a little heartbreaker, God love him. Sounds like you have a cutie pie too 4Nana!! Such sweet days...

My mouth is still sore..I am popping the Advil/Tylenol though not as often. I might call the Oral Surgeons office tomorrow to see what they think?? I know just by how well it was 'stuck' in there that my mouth was pretty beaten up..oh well..tomorrow is another day.

Anyone know where Chell is? I was wondering how her baby kitties are doing?

See you all later, I am off to bed. I need my cozy bed tonite..

 

[ksumn1]

Just hang in there ya'll. DH left for West Virginia last Saturday afternoon. Now he's in west Pennsylvania near the border of P/WV. They've been working 16 and 18 hour days. Just taking enough time off to eat, shower and sleep 4 or 5 hours before starting all over agian. They have hotel rooms this time, thank the lord. Sometimes they have to sleep in auditoriums or in the trucks. They'll be there at least through Sunday. So if your powers out, people are working on in...some of them from as far away as Ga!!

And we actually had snow yesterday morning. I had the joy of seeing it as I braved the bitter wind to walk to class. Nothing like up north, of course. But a novelty for us. I really don't see how ya'll stand all that cold weather and snow. BRRRR!!

Just stay warm and safe and hopefully, spring will come soon. I can't wait!!

Oh, and a fun story. It was clear here last Sunday, no rain so I took my DD's to play a little ball. My 6 yr old will play softball (not tball) this year so i wanted to start teaching her. She did great, hit lots of balls but I decided to teach her base running so I left her on 1st base and pitched to my 11 yr old DD. (She's an awesome hitter, hits triples and home runs all the time) I pitched to her from the same spot I did other DD. Well, DD shotgunned me hard and I instinctively tried to catch it wearing my 6 yr old's gloveNot once but twice. So now my finger's dislocated and in a splint for the next few weeks. It's such a beautiful shade of mottled yellow and purple. Thought I'd give you a little laugh today!!

Have a good day ya'll while I go learn about British literature.

 

[Minnie&Nana]

Hey, we are up to 100 pages!!!

Stay warm and safe, my friends.

That Jesse ~ be still my heart. I am going to show Sophia that pic this afternoon - guess this will be the first official introduction!

 

[Angelrose]

Thank goodness I have had no power interruptions at all. Well, except for a minute or two that my satellite went out during the storm. I have been nice and snug in my house.

I went out and shoveled my little path again this morning and gave my birds some food. The feeder was frozen shut so I just dumped some on the ground. This afternoon I went out again and shoveled around the bird water and filled the feeder. So my little friends are happy. I will give them fresh water tomorrow.

Now we have to have more pictures of Sophia. Then the next time I see Jesse I can show him her picture and then they will be formally introduced. I already told Karen that he has a girlfriend that he hasn't met yet. She laughed and said I would have him engaged by three.

 

[Minnie&Nana]

I will ask Mia to download the pics from Christmas and post a couple just for Jesse!

I worry about the birds too - have been out with bread crumbs several times since the storm. How the squirrels do not get it all. It has been so windy here - 70 mph yesterday...have been concerned nests might be blown out of the trees.

Have a good night everyone!

 

[Angelrose]

No melting at all today. We stayed right around 32 all day. There is no way I can get the car out of all that snow until the spring thaw. I will have to depend on Chuck to get me to shopping when I need something.

I was looking at pictures of my darling today. I just can't look at them without crying. I keep thinking that I will be able to smile at them, but I just can't do it. I want to smile at happy times we've had together but that isn't happening either. The only way I can survive is to NOT think about him. I think about anything else. I know that sounds terrible. I keep the tv on all day and night so I have something to keep my mind occupied. When it is finally bedtime, I turn off the light and my last thought is that is where I found him. I say goodnight to him and after a bit, I can fall asleep. Then it's the same thing the next day. I hope that someday I can see his picture and be happy. Or at least be able to see them without crying.

 

[minniecarousel]

Hang in there Angelrose. I just cannot imagine being without my sweetheart. It must be especially difficult with the weather you have & being house-bound.

 

[ksumn1]

Angelrose. I hope tomorrow is a better day. I feel for you honey. just try to get through each day. I don't think your pain will ever go away, but when you have bad thoughts, try to replace them with good ones. When my DD's have nightmares and come climb in the bed with me I calm them down by strolling down Main street.

1st we hop off the resort bus, make it through the bag check, duck under the arches for the train station and emerge into the sunlight, looking straight at the castle. we smell the baked goods form the bakery and hear the clip clop of the horses pulling the trolleys, the laughter of children and the piped in music. We walk down Main Street toward the castle, stopping to buy a mickey balloon. We head over for a Dole whip (YUM!!) and hurry over to dumbo for the 1st ride of the day. Usually by the time we're soaring on dumbo they're fast asleep.

Guess my point is Go to your happy place you shared with ron. The good memories of when Chuck was born, his wedding, Ron holding Jessee for the first time, and the look on his face when he reached over and took your hand during Wishes, instead of the thought of finding him in the bedroom. KWIM?

Day by day.