Amy's Journal: Comments Welcome!

[toystoryduo]

Hi Amy,

Great job getting your walk in! Keep up the good work! How did weigh in go yesterday?

Hope you have a great Thursday!

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Amy
Glad your home safe & sound
You sound in a good positive frame of mind to kick start your healthy living, you will do this Amy, just keep thinking how good you'll feel when you meet your goals & how you feel when you dont & hold onto that good feeling

 

[Amy&Dan]

Thanks everyone, I am sorry I haven't been around, its been hectic since we got home.

Weigh in: 238.8 Very upsetting but then I got over it. It could have been worse. Of my orginal 33 pound loss, I have only manged to keep off 8 pounds. Thats a 25 pound gain in the last year (and its not like that 33 pound loss put me anywhere near goal). So I start over, again.

Food this week has been okay, the holiday weekend was tough. I have just done the best I can, today has been very good. But on the 4th I had my family over and my sister and I went to a movie so I had some popcorn and then came home and had a brat, a piece of pie, a few chips and lots of watermelon. I gave most of the leftovers to my sister and nephew.

Yesterday did fairly well but had dinner at friends' house and that was tough. I also had three Coors Light beers but did manage to drink over 100 oz of water. I havent' exercised since Thursday. But I am okay with that and do intend to walk at the rec center tomorrow morning.

I am just trying to focus on the positve, I went back to WW even though I knew it would be hard, have managed to survive the holiday weekend without too much derailment and I it could have been worse!

I am hopeful for a decent loss at WW this week, we'll see. I need to get caught up with all of you ladies!'


Pearlie, thanks for the pm, I sent you one back!

 

[toystoryduo]

Amy,

Sending some positive your way. I think staying positive and celebrating the victories (no matter how large or how small) will help us both to get the weight off once and for all. I completely understand where you are coming from.

I wanted to ask....Have you and Dan ever used any of the Disney Kids Clubs for the kids before? If so, do you recommend one over the other? I'm trying to plan a surprise date night for my DH and I while we are in WDW and am looking for recommendations on which childcare club to leave the girls at for a few hours.

I hope you have a great week ahead!

 

[traceycooper]

well done for focusing on the positives Amy
you did great over the weekend, lots of temptation & you resisted or used moderation so well done

 

[Amy&Dan]

Well I fell a bit off the wagon today. First of all, I got up early to walk at the rec center. I am babysitting a friend's kids today and will have her daughter much of the next three weeks (she is dd's best friend so this works out well). I was cutting it close anyway and kept getting distracted by the phone, answering emails and alos, we had huge thunderstorms last night and I got to cleaning up the yard and taking care of some messy leaks and then suddenly I realized I didn't have time to get over there, walk and get home. So I went downstairs to treadmill, my iPod is dead as a doornail. So I turn on TV, its not working (this tv is 16 years old). So now I have no tv, no music and I just stomped upstairs and ate: Nachos. For breakfast. Now what sense did that make? Then I realized I didn't have much food in the house for four kids for lunch due to my refrigerator going out. We got a new one but I haven't shopped yet. So I ordered pizza for the kids and made a fruit salad. I ate some fruit salad and then proceeded to eat three pieces of cheese pizza. That's 15 points of pizza (I ordered Dominoes since I don't like Dominoes but I guess I do now ). I have thus far consumed 25 points. That leaves me six points for dinner. I am slamming the water and hoping for a walk later when the other kids go home. Although we are supposed to have more storms so if we do, I'll just have to tough it out on the treadmill (can't find my Ipod charger to add more insult to injury).

Just an off day on the food front. I was doing really good, had survived a holiday weekend only to have a complete meltdown today. Oh well, I have to move on and just get back on track.

 

[Amy&Dan]

I wanted to ask....Have you and Dan ever used any of the Disney Kids Clubs for the kids before? If so, do you recommend one over the other? I'm trying to plan a surprise date night for my DH and I while we are in WDW and am looking for recommendations on which childcare club to leave the girls at for a few hours.

Oh tracy, I forgot to add that I haven't used any of the kids clubs at WDW. I did have a friend who used the Neverland Club and said her kids really enjoyed the night. I would never hesitate to use a Disney operated club, I would just pick the one that's closest to where you and your dh want to go. That way you won't waste too much time and money in transit between them and your date destination!

I think that's a great idea by the way!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Today is much better (I can tell already). I did make it to the rec center, I only got in 45 minutes instead of my usual 60 but I had to get a new id card since my old one expired July 1. That took forever, not leaving me enough time to do sixty minutes and still pick up dd's friend. I may try to take another short walk later if I have the time.

I have no idea what my problem was yesterday. I think sometimes I just need to let myself feel lousy. Its coming up on six months since my mom died, for some reason as the 12th approaches each month, I feel this sense of loss that is worse than other times. Who knows? In any case, I woke up feeling much better and more positive. I must have eaten a gazillion grams of carbs yesterday. I ended up capping off my bad day with more chips (that are gone now thank you very much), a turkey burger and some tater tots. I went to bed feeling bloated and lousy and very mad at myself.

I am going to post my food right now. I am taking dd and her friend to see that new American Girl movie and I really need to resist popcorn. I weigh in tomorrow and yesterday's antics plus some not so perfect eating over the weekend may kill any chance of losing much. But I will go.

Breakfast: Protein Shake
Snack: ff/sf yogurt
Lunch: Lean Cuisine, fruit
Snack: Fiber One Bar
Dinner: Pasta with chicken and broccoli, ff pudding.

I have already gotten in 40 oz water so thats good.

Thanks for reading.

 

[DisDee]

Happy to hear that you're having a good day Amy. Can you tell us the name of the book that you are reading? I love to read and need some motivation.

 

[Goofydiane]

Amy - I'm just finally catching up on your journal and I'm sorry to hear about your Uncle. It was nice that you got to spend time with some family and the pizza place sounds fabulous.

I've been fighting food demons lately, so I can feel what your a going through. Know that the first step is always the hardest, but each step after that gets easier and easier.

Good job on the dr appointments. It amazes me on how much we think/do things alike. When I went in for a full physical last year, I picked my doctor out by determining how old she was and finding someone who looked nice in her picture and was about my age. I came to find out that she also is a WW member, so that was a plus.

I understand about food issues, I've started calling them Food Demons and it is the fight I need to go. About 2 weeks ago we had cake at a team meeting, I don't like chocolate frosting or chocolate cake and yep, you guessed it, I had 2 pieces. Sometimes food goes into the mouth without any reason for why. Just chalk that day up as what it was and day with some not so good choices and then be proud that you bounced back the next day with great choices.

Your honesty and positive support of all of us on the board confirms that it is what is on the inside that counts and I don't see you as anything other than a warm, funny, honest and supportive person. I'm glad to have found you in my journey and have the opportunity to support you in yours.

 

[Amy&Dan]

Happy to hear that you're having a good day Amy. Can you tell us the name of the book that you are reading? I love to read and need some motivation.

Denise, the name of the book (recommended to me by Pearlieq) is:
The 7 Secrets of Slim People by Vikki Hansen, M.S.W. and Shawn Goodman. I have really found it a worthwhile read. Give it a try, I bought mine on Amazon!

Good job on the dr appointments. It amazes me on how much we think/do things alike. When I went in for a full physical last year, I picked my doctor out by determining how old she was and finding someone who looked nice in her picture and was about my age.

Yes, Diane, we are alike! I wanted someone I thought I might have a fighting chance to be comfortable with. I am a chronic avoider when it comes to going to the doctor and my mom was too. It cost her her life in the end and I don't want to make that same mistake.

Your honesty and positive support of all of us on the board confirms that it is what is on the inside that counts and I don't see you as anything other than a warm, funny, honest and supportive person. I'm glad to have found you in my journey and have the opportunity to support you in yours.

That is so nice, thank you. I really needed that tonight!


I had a good day today, I did not resist popcorn or candy as much as I would have liked but I did better than I wanted to. At one point I was about to start really pigging out but I stopped myself. I just ate less dinner and I did go on a walk with dd tonight and did another 15 minutes of exercise. So that was good. I am sort of nervous about weighing in tomorrow. I guess it was a good start in that I did fall off the wagon a time or two but climbed back on. I am just determined to make this happen for me. The bottom line, I am so tired of being fat, having sore knees and no energy and I want to live a long, full life.

And last but not least, go see the Kitt Kittredge movie, its darling! DD, her friend and I all loved it. Even ds grudingly admitted it was "okay". I think he just came for the popcorn but I noticed he was glued to the screen too!

 

[DisDee]

Thanks for the book title Amy, I'm going to buy it.

I hope you have good news at your weigh-in today.Every little weight loss and lifestyle change is so worth it. You deserve to be where you want to be! Make it a wonderful day!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Well so much for today. I got a call from my 24 year old nephew that he is desparate for $450. Now to backup, I just gave him $200 on Friday and gave his mother $300 that same day (stepdad gave her another $200). She has a $500 medical deductible that needs to be paid so she can get her next batch of MS medicine. I might add this is an emergency but this is the sister who seems to enjoy making me the heavy on everything, was just a month ago talking behind my back, she makes fun of me, she disrected our mother and made her life miserable right to her dying moment but fat little sister and her checkbook came to rescue. She proceeded to bait my nephew who is having a hard time financially (her own son) and so I ended up giving him some help too. Now he calls me today, he can't make his car payment or his car insurance and asked (first time ever) if Dan and I can help. I said yes. We are broke right now, we have had several thousand dollars in unexpected expenses with the cost of going to the funeral and seeing family, the new frig and sprinkler system repairs. All in the last three weeks. And now tack on this money to sister and her son, it just makes me cringe. I seriously don't know if we can afford DL at this point. Dh sounded non too happy about this latest thing but like me, its family and I do think my nephew is desparate and trying.

So no WW, no rec center. I told him to get his butt down here (he lives about 70 miles away), I'd give him a check and we would sit down and have a little Come to Jesus meeting about money, paying me back and budgeting. I don't want to make him feel dumb, but this young man has not had anyone teach him about money so maybe a quickie crash course will help make a budget for the rest of the year. I can't give him anything else thats for sure.

I feel a huge headache coming on...

 

[Amy&Dan]

Well back from lunch with nephew. I gave him the money for his car pmt. and insurance and then took him and the kids to lunch. The kid (or man I should say) has always loved Olive Garden, I know perfectly well he and his mom quite literally never eat out, Taco Bell is a splurge for him so I took him to his old fave. We ended up having a really nice lunch and talk, we talked alot about my my mom. I really didn't need this expense and a part of me felt like it might be a better lesson in life for him to figure this out on his own, but again, this is a first time for him asking me for help. In the end, I feel like he works hard and does help his mom quite a bit and just couldn't say no. One of the hardest things in life is to ask for help when you need it, I didn't want to shoot him down. God knows his dad would rather rot than help his own son. Didn't make WW, will try to go on Friday instead. And I didn't walk yet, but may try to get that in later today. I am taking a friend out for a belated birthday drink tonight so I am going to allow myself one rum and diet coke and thats it.

Food today:

Breakfast: skipped, was too upset by nephew's phone call to even eat.
Lunch: 1/2 order spaghetti with meat sauce, one half piece of ds' chicken pizza, two breadsticks, salad and about a third of a piece of tiramusu. What a total disaster of a day. I intend to drink a ton of water and just move on.

Does life ever just settle down for anybody?

 

[Amy&Dan]

Very good day today. I did well on food until I had cheese fries for a snack from the pool concession stand! They were very tasty I must say. I did have plenty of points left but not the best choice. Here is my food for the day:

Breakfast: ff/sf yogurt: 2
Lunch: Lean Cusine: 4
Snack: Cheese Fries: 15 (guestimate)
Dinner: Whole wheat asta with veggies (5), plum (1)
Total: 27
I am 4 points under.

I did 45 minutes of aquasize today which I really enjoyed. I plan to weigh in at WW tomorrow. Its our 16th anniversary tomorrow. We plan to have lunch at Red Lobster and take the kids to see that Journey to the Center of the Earth movie. Not the most romantic gameplan but I am looking forward to it. I couldn't help but laugh. I looked through our wedding album today. 16 Years ago, I had a whole lot less bulk and Dan had a whole lot more hair! I really hope that next year I am near my goal. That will be the best anniversary present ever!

 

[toystoryduo]

16 Years ago, I had a whole lot less bulk and Dan had a whole lot more hair!

That sounds exactly like my DH and I!!!

Happy Anniversary Amy and Dan!

I think it is really nice of you to help your nephew out. I know that financially it may not be a good time, but your kindness is such a wonderful example for him!

Keep on keeping on, WISH sis! We CAN do this!

 

[postesf]

Sounds like DH and I too! lol! HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!!!

You are a great auntie for giving your newphew that money. I hope your quickie lesson helped him some. Funny how they do not teach budgeting and that type of thing in school... So many people are really in debt. Some cannot be helped, but other is just poor budgeting. We were never taught that type of thing in school. I hope he can get his finances worked out. Hopefully you guys do not have to give up DL!!!

Hope you have a nice weekend!
Stacie

 

[toystoryduo]

Hi Amy,

Stopping by to wish you a wonderful weekend!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Thanks Stacie and Tracy. Happy Weekend everyone!

So today has turned into a day spent at the computer and on the phone all day long changing our October trip plans. As I said the other day, I was really beginning to wonder if we needed to cancel Disneyland. I got a great deal on airfare but with hotel, park tickets, rental car and meals it was going to still cost a small fortune. I was also miffed since it doesn't look the main parade at DL is going after Labor Day, Fantasmic is under refurb, the Electrical Parade is dark, Aladdin is on hiatus and it doesn't appear the fireworks are going either. All our favorite things, I sort of took that as a sign. Dan and I talked yesterday and agreed we would cancel. I was just sick at heart all night thinking about the kids, how disappointed they would be etc. But then this morning it occurred to me that we have through October 26th on our WDW AP's. If I pulled the kids out of school a couple of days before their fall break, we could still have four full park days plus a few hours on our arrival day if we went from the 22nd to the 29th. We could use points to stay at a DVC and we don't need a rental car. So Dan and I decided to see how much it would cost to switch airfare on Southwest and see if they had any availablity at a DVC. The airfare change for all four of us was around $300 which sort of stinks but given that our original fare was $600 that is still a good deal. SSR had availablity and if I pull the kids out of school for two days, we can still do the parks for the first four of our seven day trip. So we switched. Now I have no lodging, no tickets, and no rental car to pay for. And meals at WDW are cheaper than they are at DL. And no father in law to deal with either! (Fil lives 15 minutes away from DL.) Other than that increase in airfare, the whole thing was almost too good to be true. And as much as I enjoy DL, I like WDW better. Those last three days, we can just hang around the resort, go to DTD and still have fun. So after a day spent figuring all of this out, I feel like we came up with a good compromise. And the one bedroom unit has a full kitchen, we can cook some meals right there at the resort to save money. Actually, like most things in life, everything worked out the way it was probably meant to be.

Yesterday was my anniversary. We saw a movie, went to the place that is a movie theater and restaurant in one. Their menu is plainly awful on the healthy front! I split a burger with ds, had some popcorn and a few of dh's nachos. Then came home and had some ice cream for dinner. But I had a nice day. Tonight we have a graduation party to go to, I hope to just sampe some things and not go overboard.

Oh, and my knee, back and elbows are all either in agony or skinned up. Why? Because clumsy me didn't see a step coming out of the theater, tripped and fell flat on my knees and also somehow managed to skin my elbow. Very embarrassing! Although as soon as we got out to the parking lot, ds and I were hysterically laughing. What else could I do? But my back is killing me now. I think I'll try to aquasize tomorrow, that is much easier on the joints. I really need to get to the rec center this week and walk.

Food today is so far so good. And I have a nice, healthy menu planned for tomorrow. After yesterday, I need to do well. I didn't make it to WW yesterday, I just couldn't make it work with the movie. I am okay with that and barring any phone calls from broke family members on Wed., should make that meeting just fine!

Thanks for reading, have a great weekend!

 

[toystoryduo]

Are you sure you can't move your WDW vacation up a few weeks so we could meet up in WDW?

I'm glad to hear that you have the Disney planning sorted out and that you'll be going back to the World! Don't forget to wave when you're flying over Ohio! (Hey, that sounds like a great idea for a WDW attraction....They already have Soarin' Over California...Why not Flying Over Ohio?!?!?! Look out WDW Imagineering....Here I come! )

I hope your back is feeling better soon.

Have a great weekend!