Amy's Journal: Comments Welcome!

Oh Tracy, one of these days I hope our paths do cross at WDW, that would be so much fun! When we all make our goals, we'll celebrate with a Wish Sister Meet okay?

I didn't do very well at the party last night. Just too much food. I didn't really have that much fun, I wasn't in the mood to be with a bunch of people, many of whom were drinking way too much. It was the six month anniversary of when my mom died, and it just wasn't where I wanted to be. I am more of a small gathering kind of gal. Anyway, I ate too much and came home feeling bloated and disgusting.

Good news: Today was good on the food front. I also did one hour of aquasize at the pool. I had Subway for lunch but did split some nachos with dh and ds and had three bites of candy bar. Other than that, its been good. Those concession stand nachos are hard for me to resist! But if we all split an order, I get the taste without as much guilt. I have so far drank about 64 oz. of water and 40 oz. of herbal, decaf tea. Trying to flush out the salt and fat I ate last night!

I plan to walk tomorrow and get the house organized. I have to get the kids winter clothes out of the closets and over to Good Will. I also have decided I have sat long enough on some of my mom's clothes. In the end, I can lose weight, but I can't lose 4 inches of height so I'll never be able to wear those clothes. I plan to keep a few of her Christmas sweaters and the dress she wore at my wedding. The rest can be taken to Good Will. And after that, once I take my brother's boxes to Omaha, all of my mom's belongings are finally squared away. Sheesh, its taken me six months. But I found its not easy to box up, distribute and give away a whole lifetime of things.

I saw the Assistant Principal of the kids former school today at the pool. She told me she is furious that the teacher who harassed ds out of the school wasn't fired after all. The principal who had promised repeatedly this witch would not be back for the next shcool year as usual told me what she either thought I wanted to hear or what she thought she had the guts to do. In any case, my instinct was right, it didn't happen and I am glad I didn't gamble and keep them there for another year. Several other families have decided not to return due to the teacher as well. Too bad, but so glad I got the kids open enrollment secure for this year. If I hadn't and I had found this out today, I probably would have thrown myself into the pool, cinder blocks first!
 
Hi Amy,

A WISH SIS meet at WDW sounds like a great idea!:thumbsup2 :banana: :cool1: :yay: :dance3: :cheer2:

I'm not a big party kind of girl either. Give me a small group of people and I feel much more relaxed.:goodvibes No worries about the food! Today is a new day!:banana:

I can't believe the principal did not let that teacher go!:eek: I am so glad that you were able to move the kids out of that school!:goodvibes

I hope you have a great Monday and a wonderful week ahead!:hug:
 
Hi Amy wow you have been busy!!
glad you & DH had a great wedding anniversary :)
i hope you feel better from that nasty fall - good on you to be able to see the funny side though!!! i would have been a blubbering wreck!!
I'm glad your still having a vacation :)
 
Thanks Tracy and Tracey. Tracey, I do feel better but my knee is still very swollen and bruised and skinned. Not pretty! I can't belive how clumsy I was, oh well, hopefully I'll never see any of those people again!

I did very well on food yesterday. I am up to 325 minutes on exercise, I plan to do 60 minutes of aquasize today at the pool. I am not taking a class, just doing my own class for one! I took aquasize three times a week for around six years, so I feel like I do a pretty good routine on my own. Dd sometimes comes over and does this with me. I like being old and not caring about what people think anymore. I mean, I must look sort of silly in a public pool aquasizing away but I couldnt' care less. My arms were really sore the other night which is good. I don't use weights ever (which is bad) so I need to start doing some toning and strength building exercises.


So we are off to the pool today and tomorrow is weigh in. I really hope I have lost a couple of pounds in the last couple of weeks. I missed last week's weigh in, I had some bumps on the road but feel like I have done pretty well. And after today, I will have 385 minutes of exercise in since that last weigh in so that is good. I am not weighing at home, I am trying to not get hung up on the number. I still have hopes to be near goal for the wedding next year. I hope I am off to a good start!
 

Hi there Amy! Just checking in to see how things are. I'm glad to hear that you anniversary was celebrated well! I love dinner and a movie! :thumbsup2

I hope your weigh in goes well. I know it's hard not to get stuck on the number, but try to be proud for what you have accomplished and take note of those non-scale wins!!!

Stacie

Oh yeah...Yay for WDW!!! I'm glad your Disney plans are working out!!!
 
Thanks Stacie, I love dinner and a movie too! In fact, I have a list of all the movies we have seen on our anniversary. On our first (1993) it was In the Line of Fire. We have just kept on seeing movies each July 11th ever since!


Well I only got in 15 minutes at the pool. Some kid pooped in there and they had to clear the whole pool! :eek: :scared: :scared1: :sad2: :sick: Also the pool was packed, they had two day camps there, you could barely move. So I got in my fifteen minutes and that was it. Thought I could walk tonight after dinner but we had to pick up stepdad at the airport, he had gone out of town for a great niece's wedding. So we ended up having dinner with him, pulled the McD's drive thru. Then stayed for a couple of hours and visited with him. He is taking us out to dinner tomorrow night, if I would have just remembered to cook something and bring him a dish of it, we could have avoided two meals out, two nights in a row. He wants to take us out for our anniversary which is very sweet.

My food today was not stellar:

Breakfast: protein shake
Lunch: Two pancakes (made a late breakfast for the kids, ate two myself)
Snack: a few of dd's fries, half of a candy bar. Really bad snack
Dinner: Grilled chicken sandwich, half order of medium fries

Not the day I was hoping for at all on any front. We'll see what the scale says. Sadly, I am starving. Not enough protein, veggies or good carbs. Oh well, tomorrow is a new day. I am so hungry I want to eat, but its 10:46 so I think I'll call it a day and go to bed!
 
Hi Amy,

You're almost halfway done with your exercise challenge this month! Great job!:cheer2:

Have a great time at dinner with your stepdad tonight!:goodvibes

Happy Wednesday!:cool1:
 
Thanks Tracy.

Sorry I haven't been around, dd and I have both been under the weather. I have had zero energy, have done okay on food and have not exericsed much at all. But I am feeling better and hoping to get some activity in over the weekend. I'll catch up on your journals tomorrow or Sunday. (I did peek in on Julie just to see if she was in Florida, and she is!:yay: )

Amy
 
Hi Amy, just catching up with you after getting back from vacation. HAPPY BELATED ANNIVERSARY!!!!! I'm sorry to hear you are not feeling well, I hope that passes soon! :wizard:

I know exactly what you are going through with your nephew. It is hard to not help out family, no matter what the history is. Hopefully he is grateful for what you have done for him and will learn a very valuable lesson about budgeting and living within his means.

You are doing great on your exercising! Did you make it to WW the other day?
 
Thanks Amy and Tracy! I am feeling better.

Amy I was just thinking about you tonight, how was vacation? I didn't make it to WW, that was the day dd came down with her crud and I just didn't want to leave her. I did weigh but my scale is so freaky, I am not sure if I lost or not. I plan to go this week.

Today got off to a bit of a bad start. I woke up and just within seconds found myself in tears missing my mom. I have come to the conclusion that grief is a weird thing. Just when I think I am "there" I have a set back. All week I have been struggling. Spending lots of time looking at photo albums, family videos, old letters and watching tv. Getting sick didn't help. I think I am also at this point due to the date/time frame. This Wednesday would have been my mom and stepdad's 20th. We had always planned to have a big celebration. Since she was 53 and he was 63 when they married a 50th was never going to happen. As it turned out, a 20th didn't either. Stepdad is also struggling right now, he came over on Saturday for lunch and spent much of the day here. Of course the fact his son and daughter in law gave him the news on Friday they are still very angry at him regarding my mom's funeral and plan to have a face to face talk with him about that in October when they see him isn't helping. His granddaughter is so angry she may not even see him when he goes out there. What a little snot is all I can say, at 19 she thinks she knows all about life there is to know. If she wants to boycott her grandpa's visit I guess that will be her decison, and her regret. Gee, I wish my parents and grandparents were still alive so that I could spend my time berating them and holding grudges for not getting my own way all the time. And they wonder why we all just had enough and told them not to bother to come to my mom's funeral. I might add that this little snotty granddaughter dind't bother to get home in time to see my parents last time they were in their area. And she also refused to hug my mother good bye the time before that. Hmm, do we see a pattern of total lack of caring and respect in this lovely family of stepdad's? All I can say is thank God their gene pool isn't mine!

In any case, this morning I was so sad, I thought, I will just lay in bed and eat and watch tv. But I didn't. I got up, got everybody else up, we went up to the mountains, had lunch and then saw a movie. I just had to get out of the house. My grief counselor said that six months isnt' enough time to be "there" and its natural and a good thing to have these periods of sadness and feeling the way I do. In any case, I decided I needed to just do something fun with Dan and the kids and it was a very good day for all of us. Then I came home, cleaned and cut up fruit and veggies I bought at Sams yesterday, made out a menu for the week and went for a one hour walk. I am now feeling better. But again, food wasn't as good by a long shot as it should have been. I have done very well on water all week long and eaten a fair amount of fruit and veggies. Just too much other stuff too!

I am halfway there on exercise challenge. I need to bump that up but I am pretty confident I can make it. I did get a walk in tonight with dd (she biked while I walked) and that felt good. My food this weekend was not that great. Weekends are so tough for me. I am ready for a new week and to weigh in and see how I did. I have a little over three months before WDW, I would love to be down about 20 pounds. Sound familiar?

I need to journal every day this week, it really helps me be accountable. I plan to rec center tomorrow and I am taking the kids to the pool so maybe I can do some aquasizing as well. I need to make challenge, I hate to lose my own challenge (which wasn't even that hard at 800 minutes total).

Hope everyone had a great weekend!
 
Hi Amy
Hope your feeling better now! I hope your feeling a little better about your mom too, i can only imagine how it must feel for you :hug:
your doing great with exercise :)
Great news that Julie got to Florida :cool1:
off to check out if her DH went too ;)
 
Lots of :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: coming your way, Amy. I'm sorry to hear that your stepdad's family is being less than supportive. :( I think it is so sad that they can't see that their father/father in law is grieving and needs their support; not criticism. Families can be so difficult at times. :(

I know that you said that you have been struggling the past few days and you know what? That's okay! :hug: You're still grieving the loss of your mom. :hug: Sweetie, I think you are doing an amazing job handling all that has been going on. :hug: I'm proud of you for the strength and the courage that you have shown during some very difficult times.:hug: You are an inspiration!:hug:
 
Thanks Tracey: I am dying to know if Julie's husband went as well! Hope it all worked out.

Tracy: Thanks so much. I have just decided that its okay to let myself sort of fall to pieces occasionally. I sort of spent a few days being sick and hunkering down and I feel a lot better. I know I"ll have more periods like that, probably for the rest of my life. I miss my mom and I always will. I can see now what a huge part of my life she was, I lost my mom and my best friend. I am already anticipating fall will be hard, that was her and mine's favorite time of year and we always enjoyed lots of nice rides and walks and talks. Nobody to plan the holidays with me anymore (she actually didn't do that much the last few years but she listened while I planned). Thanks for making me feel its okay to temporarily unhinge!



Today was very good. I got in 100 minutes of exercise:
30 minutes on the treadmill
45 minutes of aquasize
30 minute walk with dh

The treadmill felt like 300 minutes not thirty. I hate the tm but love the convenience of just throwing on sweats first thing and getting right on.

Food was pretty good.

Breakfast: ff/sf yogurt, piece of cinnamon toast
Lunch: plain hamburger, six of dd's nacho chips, one small bite of candy bar.
I did't get my own nachos today, the burger was the healthiest option they have. I need to start packing a lunch, I was just late to meet a friend there and didn't have time. But I figure a plain burger is not horrible.
Dinner: Salad with chicken, watermelon, ff/sf pudding

I need to catch up with all of you guys a bit later or first thing tomorrow. Right now, I have a date with a Third Watch rerun!
 
I just found your journal and wanted to wish you luck. 100 minutes of exercise is very impressive!
 
Thank you Eeyore's Butterfly, its nice to "meet" you!

Food was so so today. I watched a movie with dd and we split a cinnamon roll leftover from the weekend. That thing had 690 calories and something like 29 grams of fat. OMG, should have looked at the label before I ate it! Dh had tried a sample at Sams, and said they were delish so I bought six of them and stayed out of them until today. Luckily it was the last one. Forever. I am not buying cinnamon rolls that have 700 calories each ever again! Even though I only ate half, that is some serious damage. Oh well, too late now! The rest of the day has been good with food and I have gotten a ton of stuff done around the house. I am planning on having a salad for dinner, I have to weigh tomorrow and hopefully that cinnamon roll won't kill me.

So I found out today that all my friends from high school are meeting at my former best friend's community pool on Friday. I wasn't invited. My one friend that I love dearly has not mentioned this little event to me because she felt awkward. She said today "this is so dumb, I feel so bad". Well it is dumb, but don't feel bad. My other friend who is here from out of town visiting left me a message today asking if I was going and I just got an email from another friend saying "can't wait to see everybody on Friday". I feel sort of like a dolt, they have no idea about any of this and will probably think its strange I didn't go. Oh well if they ask my old buddy, I guess she can tell them. So far the story is that she didn't have my email. Whatever, she has my phone number, I live less than a mile from her house and everyone else has my email. To quote my mama: "I didn't just fall off the turnip truck". Good gracious, how immature is this? I would expect my 11 year old daughter to have these problems but not me! Gosh, I hope they don't have a pinata and a cool cake without me at the pool party on Friday!;) :rotfl:

The good news is that I got emails from other friends about various things going on this summer so that brought me out of the seventh grade and to present day!

I plan to walk with dh tonight for 40 minutes. I did't rec center today, I was sort of sore from doing so much yesterday, I am not used to that much activity. And I did a lot of deep water toning exercises that I haven't done in a lot of years. I also want dh to be more active. Given the stress he is under at work, I really worry about him.

I will post my weigh in results tomorrow, I hope I have lost a pound or two. If not I won't let it get me down.
 
Good luck at the weigh-in tomorrow! You are doing great with your exercise...keep up the good work!
 
Thanks Denise (glad you got the book)!

I forgot to mention yesterday or today that I got my mammogram results, they were normal. So that was good news. I was sure they would be but its always a relief. And I realized I scheduled my pap/phsycial when we are out of town (I am such a moron) so I need to change that one. Can't wait to be weighed, prodded, and poked with needles. But its not an option its a necessity. If my mom had done this with her health (gone for check ups) she'd be here today.
 
Amy -

Way to go on the exercise! You are going to make your challenge number without a problem.

I'm happy for the mammogram results, that is good news. Getting the physical is always tough, I put it off for as long as possible.

You are doing a great job keeping everything together with all that you have had go on this summer. Between trips, kids, husband and life I'm amazed at all you get in. Even with some of the decisions that you make that you aren't happy with, you are making more and more decisions that are good choices and that is what is important, by sticking to the lifestyle change, there will come a time when even more choices are easier than they are today.

I'm impressed with the will power on the cinnamon rolls, I would have dug in with the first roll!
 
Thanks Diane. I did decide to look at the Cinnamon Roll Incident with a "glass half full" mentality! I ate one half of a roll. I could have done much worse.

I walked thirty minutes tonight. Didn't get more in, by the time Dan got home (at 8:00) we still had to eat. I decided I was tired of us not eating as a family so I held dinner. By the time we finished it was nearing 9:00 and he had a conference call at 10:00 to prepare for so we just didn't have enough time to do our full route. I hate walking that late anyway. The kids came with us, so it was nice and active family time.

So I am at 530 minutes so far, I should make the challenge pretty easily. I have a lot to do in the next couple of days, so I am going to have to make extra effort to get the exericse in.

I'll post after WW tomorrow, I am not sure how I did. I had some great days and my activity has been good. But I also had some rough days and I missed last week due to being sick. We'll see. My clothes feel better but the scale may not reflect that. I'll just deal with it whatever the number says.
 














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