Allison's Journal

[gottalovethem]

Day One

I found these WISH boards and believe that they can be used for inspiration and support as I start my newest weight loss journey.

I have not actually "tried" to lose weight since about March 2004. Since then I have had another child and am currently nursing him (DS 6 months). I'm ready to get started on a new journey. With three little ones I need to have decent health to keep up with them and to make them proud to have me as their mom. I also don't want to wind up with some illness or injury due to being so overweight.

I have recommitted to the Slim Fast website which has a great nutrition log, weight chart and food ideas/suggestions. My goal is to log in there daily to keep track of my food and to chart my weight.

Goals
Track foods I eat on slim fast web site
Exercise at least 3x week
Lose 10 pounds by Disney trip (April 24, 2006)
Control the food I eat, even when life gets me down
Go to the library and check out the book Life is Hard, Food is Easy
Visit WISH for inspiring ideas, to log exercise and to write in my journal

Challenges
Today has already been a challenge. I wake up this a.m. way too early cause DS 6 month is awake and DS3 is awake too. Then I go online to check our bank account and learn that in the span of just five days dh has spent over $700 f**** dollars. What in God's creation? My car payment is now going to bounce, some of the money I was planning on saving from freelance work now needs to go to cover our negative account balance.

And did I mention I was tired. Today is day one and I already feel challenged with staying on track. I so just want to snack and eat my way to happiness. However, being fat is not making me happy, not to mention my knee really hurts and I think that losing weight may help that.

I am happy to have someplace to jot my thoughts and challenges without worrying about what others think of me.

 

[kimwim8]

Hi Allison, and welcome!!

This is absolutely a great place for inspiration. You're on the right track and you sound like you know what you need/want to do to be successful.

Check out other journals here and you'll get inspired by the great WISHers going through the same things as you.

We're all here for the same reason!

Take care, and keep us updated!

 

[gottalovethem]

Thank you Kim, for the encouragement, I can use it!

 

[gottalovethem]

Day Two:

Okay, I'm hungry. I'm pretty sure it's actual hunger and not fully the obsession about limiting my food intake, but it's really hard to tell. I'm wondering if with nursing and exercising (I had been exercising prior to this) that my body needs more calories? Of course I am getting up a few times each night with little ones, so that doesn't help either. I really want to lose weight so I don't want to over do it.

I'm embarrassed to say it, but I'm going with 1700 calories a day, that should be quite enough, but I must have been eating double that prior to this cause I notice a big difference in consumption.

The first few days will probably b the hardest until my stomach shrinks down a bit. I will do my best though, because I am totally ready for a life change in my weight. Time for it to go down!!

 

[gottalovethem]

Day 3 -- I am still trying hard to stick with the plan. I did go over a bit yesterday, but that's okay. I am sure I still ate less than I had been eating previously -- and more healthy too.

Today started really crappy emotionally, DH and I are just at odds lately and he started the day going off on DD4 for picking the crust off of her bread. The morning continued with lots of fussing and crying by all three little ones and me getting mad and slamming the bathroom door. After my shower I calmed us all down and we said a "family prayer" to ask for forgiveness and to give us the strength to be good to each other.

I am a very emotional eater, so trying to quelch the stress in my life is very important. At any rate it is only 10:30 a.m. and I am ready for a nap and a break. I am so looking forward to going to Disney.

Okay, I plan to stay on track today, wish me luck!

 

[kimwim8]

Look at you...almost done Day 3 already!! I know it's sooo tough to get started, but you are doing it!!!!

Have you checked with your doctor about your weight loss plans? Maybe he/should would know exactly what amount of calories you need to consume in order to keep going with the nursing and exercising (not to mention the 3 kids!!).

I vaguely remember Weight Watchers a few years ago...the nursing or pregnant women got more points than the rest of us.

Keep on going, girl...you're doing great!

 

[gottalovethem]

Thanks again Kim. I have made it through day three and kept to my calories! Yipeee! Of course my exercise level today was mediocre, I participated in a gym class with DS3 (better than nothing though!).

The slim fast website, which I am using to monitor calories and such, has you include info, like nursing and then gives you a few different calorie ranges to chose from. I chose the second lowest.

I do want to see a doctor, but don't have a regular one and am not sure what type of doctor to see. I really need to call my ob/gyn to see if she has a recommendation.

 

[Jane E.]

Welcome to the Wishboards! Congrats for setting goals & getting started on a healthy lifestyle. With 3 little ones you definately have your hand full. Wheew! Have fun at Disney next month! (Wish it were me.)

 

[gottalovethem]

Day Four

I am still on track, I'm very happy about that. I keep thinking that I can control what I eat, even if I can't control my environment -- and that environment has been VERY challenging.

DH and I are having problems and I just don't know what to do about it. I have tried over and over again to take steps to make things better, but I am not finding a solution and I don't think he's willing to meet me half way. He told me the other day that he thinks he made all of his compromises before we got married What is that about? Life is about compromises and marriage even more so. I am SOOOO looking forward to going to Disney and getting a break from him. I have so had enough of his acting like a 16 year old.

In other news -- I don't have huge exercise plans for today, but I will do some abs and some hand weights.

Tomorrow I have aerobics class. I am trying and I hope it works.

They say you need sleep to burn calories, I hope I can still lose w/o sleep. I'm not getting much these days with DS waking so frequently for feedings.

I can go on venting forever, thanks to whoever is listening.

 

[gottalovethem]

Day 4/5

So far, so good. I've been staying on track -- even with all kinds of personal stress.

Yesterday I exercised thru a pilates/aerobics class for one hour. Today, I haven't really exercised too much. Took the kids to the Y for swimming, went to target, but that was about it.

I weighed in at the Y (they have a more accurate scale). Based on my weight last Saturday I have lost 4 pounds! I am quite excited about that. I really want to keep this up .

I'm still hungry, particularly from 3 p.m. on. I need to find a way to curb the hunger. I haven't mastered it yet.

I need to keep going strong!

 

[kimwim8]

Congrats on the loss!!

You're doing great, and I give you a lot of credit. You are taking control of this and going full steam ahead. Keep up the great work!

 

[AmyBeth68]

Wow...congrats on making a commitment to a healthier lifestyle. AND congrats on sticking to it this week! You did great...already lost 4 pounds !!!!

Way to go.....keep up the good work!!!!

 

[gottalovethem]

Wow, is it day six already? I can't believe it. I am so proud of me for sticking with it.

Today we went to a buffet, but I tried to be pretty good, and only had a granola bar in the a.m. so as to not consume too many calories. Now I need to try to find something low cal for dinner.

I am still journaling what I eat on slim fast website and tried to input everything I had for buffet, I don't think I forgot anything.

I did walk today, and I hope to do some crunches and leg lifts later. Maybe now that I typed it I will be committed.

Monday is my official one week and I am SOOOO curious as to what my weight is. I don't plan on making it to the Y until Tuesday, so hopefully I will get a chance to weigh myself then (only if no one is around to see) LOL

I told DH that I already want to go back to Disney and he said I could never go again, I sure hope he doesn't think I'll take him seriously, as I really do plan to go back in another 1 1/2 years.

OK, kids are hungry, gotta go figure out what to eat.

 

[gottalovethem]

ugh -- so I've hit a rough patch. I did do stomach and leg exercises yesterday, but I also went over my calorie intake by about 400 calories! Not too good.

Today, I was doing pretty well. I thouht I was making good food choices, but when I put in what I ate in the food journal it was way more calories than I anticipated. So now my challenge is to stay within the calories with dinner and the evening still to go. eeks.

On top of that my back went out -- I have a slipped disk that has just "reslipped" and my sciatica is really bothering me. I am freaked out about it because I don't want to be in dire pain like I was when it went out a couple years ago.

Ironically, the last time I had this problem I had just embarked on a diet and it was exactly the same time of the year -- same month even. I don't get it.

So send some pixie dust my way so that my back gets better quick - -and not worse before better -- and that I can stick to my plan.

 

[goldcupmom]

Allison - for your back.

Hang in there!! 1 week down toward a new you!

 

[kimwim8]

Hey Allison...I hope your back is doing better today. Take it easy & don't concentrate on exercise until it does feel better.

 

[gottalovethem]

Okay, I HAVE GOT to get back on track ! I did 30 minutes on eliptical today, skipped weights because of my back. I'm officially down four pounds, but I have been munching for two days on thin mint cookies. EEks. I've got to stop and put them all away or I am not gonna make any progress. Tomorrow is a new day and I will try again!

I see the chiropracter again and hopefully that will continue to help.

I can do it -- I can control what I eat even if I cannot control my life. I think I can I think I can I think I can

 

[gottalovethem]

Look at me, I lost five pounds! Yipeee!!

Now to keep it up. Today was a very busy day. I stayed within my calories. Worked out on a crosstraining machine (I think that is what it is called) for 30 minutes and then had a super busy day running errands and running in and out of Wendy's -- where I ate a salad.

Tomorrow will be a bit of a challenge. We are going to an Easter event where I know I will have pizza and a cupcake, so as long as I manage to keep calories down for breakfast and dinner I should be ok. Maybe it will be nice enough to go for a walk.

YEAH! I also picked up the Life is Hard, Food is EAsy book at the library. I need to read it, but I have it. Trying to stick to my goals.

 

[gottalovethem]

Well, I haven't been wonderful about staying on track, but have trying really hard and am still sticking with it. I really want to weigh in but didn't get to the Y today. I hope to check out the scale when we go tomorrow (but only if no one else is in the room).

I really need a decent scale.

I've joined the weight loss and exercise challenge and fully plan on sticking with teh pgoram. My "snacking" has really gotten much more healthy and I am using lunch plates for dinner.

Oh, and I picked up the book Life is Hard, Food is Easy. Now I just need to read it