Hi everyone! I have spent portions of the last 3 days pouring over the internet about adoption and reading this thread. I have cried with you and rejoiced with you.
I'm here because I do need support and encouragement because I'm scared to death my prayers will not be answered.
A little background on me:
My DH and I have been married for 19 yrs and have 2 DSs, 17 and 15. After I had son #2 I had a tubal ligation because ever since I can remember I had a motto of no child after 25 because I want to enjoy the rest of my life child free once I completed raising the 2 I chose to have. In '00, out of necessity, I had a thermal eblation, permanently closing the door on biological motherhood. I also have told my DSs that once they were grown, I would leave this area because it is not my home. In the last 2-3 years though, with the onset of middle age, the ending of my DSs at home time, I have been regretting never have had a daughter. Two months ago a girlfriend at work showed me several websites she and her DH have been frequenting trying to find a son to be a brother to their biological son and she is in her mid 40s. We spent alot of time talking about the issue of age and having a family this late in our lives.
Long story short, I really do regret not ever attempting to have a daughter. My DH and I love children and I know we continue to have alot of love left to give despite our ages.
We have talked and talked and decided that we will try to adopt. We are scared that as much as we want our prayers to be answered, we will not find a beautiful one to spoil and love. I'm a critical care nurse and my DH sees the beauty in everything, so a child with special needs would brighten our home and lives as much as a healthy baby/toddler.
Please remember us as we embark on this journey.

I have been looking at children from Latin America, Mexico, Central America but am not completely ruling out domestic.
If we are blessed with a little one from our desired international country, then I would love for her name to be: Deisaree (pronounced Dez-a-ree) Aimee (Ah-me), meaning long hoped for and desired, joyful; maybe God will answer this plea.
Thanks for listening!
Debbie