Hi Folks,
I've come home for the night to get some things for what looks like an extended stay at the hospital and logged on quickly. To say I am stunned is an insult to the word stunned. In addition to those kind words here, my PM box is stuffed to capacity.
I'm particularly grateful to those with happy tales of "premmies" who are happy, healthy, and enjoying life. Obviously at moments like these, you search for the best, yet sit and simmer on the worst like a bad stew. And while my respect for the medical expertice of the new millenium is extreme, the cover-our-butt-by-telling-you-the-worst-that-can-happen mentality of modern malpractice insurance had me doing a slow burn. How nice to hear stories of hope.
I'd also like to extend a comment to those that expressed interest in the hotel. Amazingly, Priceline has agreed to refund our money, minus a small service charge. I'm grateful to those that suggested this tact, I wasn't even going to try. But those that answered my post all expressed guilt at the thought of capitalizing on my misfortune. That is misplaced. Know that while I'm happy to somehow scrape a few hundred bucks off the floor, my second choice and what would leave me at peace with the whole missing-Disney thing would be that someone would be there having fun for me. Fun, like energy, isn't meant to be created or destroyed. If it sits in limbo, it's not doing anyone any good, especially me. So thank you, thank you to those that expressed interest. I regret I had to retract my offer, but that money will be well-used now buying hotel space next to the medical facility.
To those from Hershey offering a hand if we were at the HMC, Thank YOU so much. It's so nice to hear from fellow Pennsylvanians. Hershey was actually our choice, as versus Danville, where we'd had some bad experiences with "customer service issues" in the past. However, our OB, who we trust with our heart and soul, said personal issues aside, the place we need to be right now is the Danville Neonatal ICU. And there we'll be.
The update is foggy, but mother and daughter are stabile, if nothing else. There's still things in the ultrasound that are scaring the crap out of us, but the "mini-contractions" have stopped, as has most of the bad bleeding. At this point, our obvious goal is to keep Amy still and horizontal until we can get to that glorious week 28. when the odds take a major jump. Amy's running a blood pressure of 110/60, and the fetal heartrate is running 150 to 160. To those that don't know, these are the kinds of signs we desperately need to see.
I wish I could answer everyone that wrote personally, and perhaps sometime in the next month I'll at least answer my PM's. For now, for therapy's sake if nothing else I'll keep you updated. I've always enjoyed talking to all of you about fun and fantasy, but I'm also relieved I have you to lean on for real life.
And believe me, each prayer is put in my pocket and taken out every hour. Bless you all.
Pat